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lynnmarie123 09-22-2017 12:09 PM

Back again and still sober!
All sticky situations were resolved with no problems. Funny how you fret and build up things in your mind. I did the same July 2016 when attending a wedding where booze was served. At the time, I was 8 month alcohol-free and feeling a bit vulnerable.
At the brother's house, he loaded his machine (vaporizer?) and told me it was ready when I wanted a toke. I put up my hand and said I'm good, thanks. Sister-in-law heard this and asked me if I wanted a cookie (pot laced) instead. Hubby pipes up (no pun intended, haha!) and says, she's on hiatus. Which isn't totally true. To me that word means a break from with intentions to return to. I then say, I've quit all substances. End of subject. They then refrain from use for the rest of the night, which surprised me. She also says they are quitting drinking on a daily basis, only to imbibe once in a while when they eat out. But I think this is for money reasons as Canadian liquor prices are high.
Father- in-law, on the other hand couldn't understand the concept of no drinking. Kept trying to put alcohol in my glass, which was rather annoying. Claims he drinks only a fraction of what he used to, stated he only (ONLY!!!) has 2 glasses of wine with dinner and a brandy or scotch afterward daily. In the meantime, he consumed a beer while cooking, at least a bottle of wine with dinner and 2 scotches after. Hmmm...yeah, right. Can you say denial?
Anyway, glad to be back at home and back at SR. Glad to be sober. And glad to see some new people posting!

lynnmarie123 09-25-2017 11:34 AM

3 months and counting!
23 days to go to meet the sober time I accumulated last year. After that will be the longest time sober I've had since the age of 14! Shocking (and sad) when you think about it.
It's been a fabulous, sober summer. I got so much done and met a lot of goals. Lost the weight I gained last winter and looked fabulous on my recent trip to Canada. The best part is how I feel about myself.
Stay sober! It rocks!

Shutterbug1 09-30-2017 06:03 AM

Hi lynnmarie! :)

I'm so happy to hear that you are doing so well!

lynnmarie123 10-25-2017 11:36 AM

4 months sober today.
The farther along into my sobriety I get, the less desire I have to return to my old way of life. I like the person I am today.
I continue to work on my sobriety every day, but it's not all encompassing nor does it fill my every waking thought like active addiction did.
At this point, I am certain I would test drug free. Withdrawal was long, but it's done.
My last hurdle was sleep. Sleep has turned into a beautiful thing.
Dreams are fun and interesting, except for the last 2 weeks or so. Have been dreaming repeatedly of having opportunities to toke. I have dreamed of breaking my sobriety with both drink and pot, however the last two times were pot related and I abstained both times.
I believe the increased frequency of these dreams were because of my 2 big
upcoming sobriety milestones. Now that I've reached 4 months free of pot, I hope these crazy dreams will subside.
Besides marriage and childbirth, sobriety rates at number 3 of the best things I have ever done.

Peacehappyness 10-26-2017 04:17 AM

You are doing fantastically well Lynn, it's a huge uphill battle to tackle multiple addictions but you are beating them:)

Peace X

Dee74 10-26-2017 04:37 AM

congratulations Lynn :)


lynnmarie123 11-13-2017 02:26 PM

Death of a close loved one. Funeral soon.
I know there will be lots (!) of drinking and smoking.
There is just no good reason, no reason at all to get intoxicated.
It won't help or make things more tolerable.
Sobriety is learning to live with your emotions.

Dee74 11-13-2017 03:12 PM

I'm sorry for your loss lynnmarie.

Pacoloco 11-14-2017 05:44 AM

I'm sorry for your loss... wish you strenght in this difficult time.

lynnmarie123 11-26-2017 10:57 AM

Back from that funeral I mentioned earlier.
It was a situation I had some trepidation about due to all the intoxicants that would be available. Instead it was uplifting.
A relative told me he was 2 years sober from booze (me too! I exclaimed) and pot and we had a wonderful conversation about sobriety.
This is something I never tell anyone about. It was wonderful to be able to pat someone on the back and be patted.
I think it would be nice to be able to open up to more people. I'm just not there yet.

lynnmarie123 11-26-2017 11:13 AM

Oh, and yesterday marks 5 months off pot.
Amidst the emotional turmoil, it slipped past without notice.
The nice thing is, the longer I'm off it, the easier it gets and the less I want to start up again.
Sobriety is a very good thing.

Pacoloco 11-26-2017 11:23 AM

Congratulations on 5 months!!! It's awesome. :You_Rock_

Dee74 11-26-2017 09:37 PM

Congratulations lynnmarie :)

happycampers 12-04-2017 01:09 PM

Awesome job, lynnmarie !
You should be proud of yourself ! I know I am !!!

lynnmarie123 12-05-2017 11:04 AM

Awwww, thanks happycampers!
It feels pretty good to be racking up some significant time. Christmas day will mark 6 months and I'm not sure I have ever gone that long without pot.
I still get the odd thought of "oh, just this one time", but I keep playing the tape.
Fast forward to the end and I will just be in the same scene I always end up in.
Smoking everyday, all day long and hating myself.
I deserve better.
Stay strong everyone.

lynnmarie123 12-10-2017 04:19 PM

I found a baggy. Not much, but enough to do the job.
I threw it away.

Dee74 12-10-2017 04:40 PM

Thats really great lynnmarie :)


Pacoloco 12-10-2017 04:47 PM

That's awesome. Proud of you.


happycampers 12-12-2017 04:42 AM

Excellent !!! :)

Ajohnson 12-12-2017 05:59 AM

Congrats keep up the good work. The good work you have done is inspiring.

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