Day 9 for me. whoo hoo. Feeling good. Very tired today, but have had an emotional 3 weeks ( apart from the sobriety status, of which I'm very proud) In work 08.00 to 19.00 too, which isn't good on a lovely, hot, sunny day like today. Have eaten loads today, so better keep an eye on the diet, otherwise I'll look like a Weeble! Anyway big hugs to you all. Stay strong, it's good to know we're all here for each other, good or bad! G.xxxx

I celebrated my first birthday sober Saturday night! Last year I threw a huge party for my 35th, probably 60 people in my apartment and booze flowing like water -- this year was very different. I met some AA friends for coffee and then practiced with my band, who took me out for a b-day lunch. Then, it being a Saturday night, I had friends putting on several different events unrelated to me and I hopped from one to the other, only telling some people that it was my birthday. Now that I don't drink anymore I find I have trouble staying out late and was home by midnight.

I knew this birthday was going to be a big trigger for me so I'm proud to have made it through. I look forward to celebrating the next one shortly after celebrating my first AA birthday!

GG

It's really great to see so many folks doing well - hope we get more people checking on too :)

Welcome back BreakFree :)

D

:grouphug:..sounds like we're gettin
into the swing of sobriety..:c011:

BTW: Melinda!!
..tears wash our eyes,so that we can see 'life',more clearly...Ozy..

Hi Junebugs,

Day 7 for me and feeling great. I think the rollercoaster is slowing a bit after seven days. Feel much better and more normalized. See ya later. Going to the gym now!

It sounds like we're all doing awesome. Let's keep it up.

Day 4! Just got back from an end of the school year party - I was really concerned beforehand about looking weird not drinking, or what to say if someone offered me one, etc... but guess what - I just went and got myself a diet soda and noone even cared/noticed... I guess with all I am going through right now I just feel like I will stick out but really - lots of people just have soda.. just seems so alien to me! :) Yesterday I had major cravings being alone all day..but today at a party with alcohol all around I really didn't have any cravings.. felt really good to not be drinking..:)

To my class of June 2010. I wish you all the best of luck and will be thinking of you. If anyone wants my contact details, PM me, I will keep the account active for a few days (unless i get suspended) but a number of events has made me realise that I don't belong on this site. I wish u all so much luck

I am joining the June group
 

Hi group,

This is a fresh start for me. I quit for 5 months back in 2007 then started again (dumb & I really don't know why)

That's all for now, on the site with my iPad and typing lying in bed is tuff, great for reading but not typing.

Tomorrow I will give all my details,

Thanks for being here.

I will soon ba able to use my bus & signature line again but for now please disregard.

M

welcome back Rob :)

D

Hi again... I'm back. Day 1.

I'm so sorry I lost touch with all the posters and new people in the group, but hope to get caught up soon.

BREAKFREE!!! It's fate! We're on here together again!

(((LillyRose))) We're here for you! I hope you don't leave, k?

So I had 14 days sober, feeling great, back from yoga retreat, then my daughter graduated 5th grade and we had an awesome day together, taking pictures, having fun, and then we went out to eat to celebrate. I decided to give into my white wine craving as it was a "special night." I planned on having only one glass, but I had two. Figured that wasn't TOO bad, but it was bad. My sleep was entirely messed up that night as the alcohol was kind of a shock to my system after being sober for so long.

I ended up drinking again on Thursday night, can't explain what excuse I came up with, but drank at home and drank WAY more than I wanted to. A full bottle of wine and cracked into a second. I was still drunk the next morning and had to pretty much stay in bed most of the day and waste the day. My hangover did not go away until like 5:00 the next day -- ughhh!!!

And finally, I tried another attempt at "moderate" wine drinking which ended up with me drinking most of the bottle of wine. This was last night. I woke up around 12:30 in the morning (or night) and was miserable. I decided that enough was enough. I got up, poured the remainder of wine down the drain (there wasn't much left). Then I took a red magic marker and wrote "GOODBYE" on the label of the wine. I went outside and walked to the woods. I threw the empty bottle in the woods (I hate littering, but this was for a spiritual purpose) and I said a little prayer (I'm not really religious, but pretty spiritual and believe in SOMETHING).

I had a miserable hangover all through the night, but woke up at 10:00 am feeling somewhat okay. I had a good full day and want to start again.

I know that alcohol has no place in my life, that my life will be so much better without it, and really hope this is it. June 21st -- beginning of summer and time to start again.

Laura

Day 4 ends in aprox 30 minutes then day 5 can begin. :)

I'm so sorry traderjane. Laura I feel for you I really do. I don't want to leave but I feel like this site is making me feel worse about myself than I can afford to while trying to get sober. I try to say goodbye and apart from you, all I get is 'sorry you couldn't find what you want here'. It's not good enough for me. I hope we can keep in touch hun xoxo we sound very alike and it would be good to talk more

I'm crying now because I honestly thought I found my home

Traderjane,

Yours was the first post I read when I joined this site.. you inspired me with your "Junebug" group and I felt compelled to join. I am now heading into day 5 and you are part of that for me. Glad you are back with us!

Lillyrose,

You have a home here if you want it.. homes are full of laughter, and tears. I didn't read all of what went on, but the overall theme here from what I can tell is support, struggle, failures, success- and humanity. None of us are perfect, but I really think all of us support you in your quest for sobriety - I will for sure. :) I have enjoyed your posts and hope you stay.

Now I'm choked up!! Good night for now, guys. We're in this together!!!

Thanks so much. I just feel unwelcome here from a lot of people because I'm opinionated. I don't believe in coating everyone in cotton wool. If you censor everyone here, how are they gonna get by in the real world. I would love to stay part of this group, but the classes freak me out too because if I sliip, I feel liek I can't talk to the june group anymoe. I wish there was mroe ppl like you and laura and sleepie on here

..lilly!!!:wavey: don't forget me now..ya hear!!..Ozy..

Traderjane, get back on the horse. Most people relapse and as long as you're willing to try again you're on the right track. I believe in you!

Also, I appreciate everyone's support but I am switching to a different support forum and won't be posting here anymore (I can't keep up with more than one!). Just didn't want y'all to think I had fallen off the wagon!

Best of luck to everyone. We can all do this!

GG

Hi Lilly! I haven't posted in here for ages because I'm opinionated too and it didn't go down too well either but here's the thing.I didn't threaten people with lawsuits as another identity like you have and I also didn't try to garner support from other members here who are struggling with the very real disease of alcoholism.

I have little sympathy for anyone who comes to this safe haven and starts causing trouble from day one.You might want to rethink your approach if you really are looking for help.This is a serious issue and your attention seeking isn't appreciated by anyone here who is looking for real support.Don't waste your time or ours.There's plenty of places on the net I'm sure you can get the attention you want from.
Jules.

Hi, all.

Day 9 check in for me. I'm still sober. Hope you all a well!

I'm right behind you.

Watch out.

Day 8 here.

:You_Rock_

Do you feel better mf150?

I have not had withdrawal symptoms although I had a bad day feeling shaky after the first few days, but it seems more related to my caffeine withdrawal than alcohol.

How is the rest coping?

Melinda, did you go to the doctor?

Melinda-

You're doing a great job! Did you buy the wiffle bat? LOL

Wilde-

I'm feeling much better...so much so that I actually started craving beer yesterday (despite the painful withdrawls--how soon the body/mind forgets).

My stomach is still normalizing a bit, but overall, I feel great.

A lack of caffeine can cause withdrawls, so it's totally possible.

Hi Wilde,

I am calling tomorrow to make an appointment. I am hoping to make it for around July 12th to give my body 30 days sober before I get the whole shebang done, blood work and all. It gives me the willies but as the saying goes, I've made my bed so I have to sleep in it.

The anticipation of it has pretty much zapped the cravings right out of me. That's not to say I'm not feeling a bit restless, irritable, and finding it completely strange to be sober in the evening. I feel like I've taken a rocketship to Mars every night, leaving at 5 o'clock sharp for the past three years. Amazing what a little fear will do to this semi-hypochondriac.

How are you Wilde?

CHalk up another to the group.
Today is day 2. Had a rough time sleeping last night. Today
seems a little better. Bring on day 3!!!

NLB it seems like you are getting a bit of that life back already.
Melinda, Thank you for asking. Doing fine - Have had a mild cold last couple of days and it made it even easier but passed the WE, my next big challenges are people coming over to the house. Not drinking the night I was alone in the hotel was a big turning point for me. I feel pretty good in general. The only thing is cravings used to be restricted to the evening. Now they come any moment of the day. I have never ever wanted a drink in the morning. Now the thought crosses my mind. I wonder whether I have been thinking about 'sobriety' so much that actually I am thinking about alcohol more than ever before:scared:

I am here too! Hi Laura and everyone else!

lillyrose, stick to this thread, we're all here to support eachother.

Day 4, the puffy is gone from my face I look like i've lost 5 pounds.

Day 5
Feeling quite down and overwhelmed.
Hopefully this will pass soon.
Sending everyone thoughts of strength.