its 6:45am and i want to drink....
 

Why in the hell is my av calling on me at this time of the day/morning. Please I want it to stop.

You can survive this test, Jeff; you are stronger than your AV - give it h$ll.

Thank you so much, its really bad right now. I am going to post the crap out of me. I have to. This is nuts.

Just because it calls doesn't mean you have to answer Jeff.
Once you learn that lesson & take it to heart I think things get a lot easier?

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It can't force you to take action, you have totally got this. The AV just lies and you will feel so good once you've passed this, it'll get easier each time that you recognise it and stop it in its tracks.

I don't know Dee, this is crazy. Why do I want drink at 7AM? stupid.

I'll tell you why, because I worked 50 hours this week and then cooked for my whole family and think I deserve a break.

I am within a whisker of going down to my shop and just getting drunk. No one there knows anything and I can just escape.

Then take a break.
Drinking's not a break - not for folks like us Jeff.

Go back and read some of your past threads. Read some of the ones where you've been drinking.

Chalk and cheese, mate.

Ultimately Jeff if you want to stay sober you've got to be prepared to fight for it. If you keep folding, nothing going to change.

Make yourself a big breakfast and read some links
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-recovery.html

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Hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired?

Have a good breakfast - maybe take your wife out for breakfast - IHOP, breakfast diner?????

Find a park and walk off that breakfast.

Angry - work out a bit.

Take a nap after your walk.

You can do this; I have no doubt.

Gosh dammit, this is insane. its just poison and I don't need that.

How about a big filling breakfast? Start with whatever is quick and satisfying and continue from there. Alcohol and a full belly don't go well together. You can't buy any on Sunday in Minnesota, so it won't be easy to get and I would think there's none in the house. Ride it out, you can do this.

Don't believe everything you think.

You want to drink because you're addicted to alcohol. The reasons you can come up with to justify it are just excuses.

You want that AV to go away and leave you alone? STARVE IT. It's the only way.

You can do this. :ring

Get a tub of ice cream and eat it.

Sometimes I just need a god damn break. sorry for my language but I am at my "redline". wife will be sleeping for the next 3 hours and I am left to my vices. You guys are great. grrrrrrr

Hi nonsensical, you are damn right.100%.

You are so right. You don't need it. You don't deserve it. And deep inside, you don't want it, either; don't be fooled by your AV.

Dee, you know I love you but what is that big f8cking cat you have walking on your signture??

I am just going to stay on this site and post and respond to others for support. I have to. I think it will help and be healthy?

That's Felix, the wonderful cat. :)

Hi Felix. Love you buddy.

I'm about 15 minutes away from driving to my shop, and drink my ass off. But in 15 minutes I could change my mind. And I hope I do.

You won't go, Jeff. I believe in you.

thanks SL. I'm here fighting the good fight. Many of us needs rocks in our life. You are a rock.

In the end it's down to you Jeff.
Like I said tho - you either stand firm and make a change, or nothing changes.

I had a lot of reasons to drink - I still do.
I could get up from here and go get booze right now.

but I don't want to be that guy anymore.

I solve my problems and get my breaks other, healthier ways.

It works...and I like who I see in the mirror :)

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When I was at my worst I wrote down hours 1 through 12 on a piece of paper and checked off each one as I got through it. It turned out I didn't need them all, as the urges eventually eased. Maybe you need every 15 minutes - but it helps to feel a sense of accomplishment (at least it helped me). Good luck.

I don't know about the time, but the AV is pestering you because in the past you have given in.

Want it to go away? Stay sober. Tell yourself you are done with drinking, for good. The AV will wither in the face of true committment to sobriety.

Take those 15 minutes, get a pen and paper, and write down the 5 worst things that will happen if you don't drink today.

Seriously - write it down.

^^^.

We'll check off those minutes and hours with you. Stick with us, Jeff.

Dee, don't give up on me. I will make it. please.

What can you get engaged in? Doing something usually helps me shut off unwanted circular thoughts. I'm so much more active sober than I was while drinking. Is there something you enjoy doing on a Sunday morning?