thomas11

Why in the hell is my av calling on me at this time of the day/morning. Please I want it to stop.

SoberLeigh

You can survive this test, Jeff; you are stronger than your AV - give it h$ll.

thomas11

Thank you so much, its really bad right now. I am going to post the crap out of me. I have to. This is nuts.

Dee74

Just because it calls doesn't mean you have to answer Jeff.
Once you learn that lesson & take it to heart I think things get a lot easier?

D

JaneLane

It can't force you to take action, you have totally got this. The AV just lies and you will feel so good once you've passed this, it'll get easier each time that you recognise it and stop it in its tracks.

thomas11

I don't know Dee, this is crazy. Why do I want drink at 7AM? stupid.

thomas11

I'll tell you why, because I worked 50 hours this week and then cooked for my whole family and think I deserve a break.

thomas11

I am within a whisker of going down to my shop and just getting drunk. No one there knows anything and I can just escape.

Dee74

Then take a break.
Drinking's not a break - not for folks like us Jeff.

Go back and read some of your past threads. Read some of the ones where you've been drinking.

Chalk and cheese, mate.

Ultimately Jeff if you want to stay sober you've got to be prepared to fight for it. If you keep folding, nothing going to change.

Make yourself a big breakfast and read some links
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-recovery.html

D

SoberLeigh

Hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired?

Have a good breakfast - maybe take your wife out for breakfast - IHOP, breakfast diner?????

Find a park and walk off that breakfast.

Angry - work out a bit.

Take a nap after your walk.

You can do this; I have no doubt.

thomas11

Gosh dammit, this is insane. its just poison and I don't need that.

BernieE

How about a big filling breakfast? Start with whatever is quick and satisfying and continue from there. Alcohol and a full belly don't go well together. You can't buy any on Sunday in Minnesota, so it won't be easy to get and I would think there's none in the house. Ride it out, you can do this.

Nonsensical

Don't believe everything you think.

You want to drink because you're addicted to alcohol. The reasons you can come up with to justify it are just excuses.

You want that AV to go away and leave you alone? STARVE IT. It's the only way.

You can do this.

DrunkenDonuts

Get a tub of ice cream and eat it.

thomas11

Sometimes I just need a god damn break. sorry for my language but I am at my "redline". wife will be sleeping for the next 3 hours and I am left to my vices. You guys are great. grrrrrrr

thomas11

Hi nonsensical, you are damn right.100%.

SoberLeigh

You are so right. You don't need it. You don't deserve it. And deep inside, you don't want it, either; don't be fooled by your AV.

thomas11

Dee, you know I love you but what is that big f8cking cat you have walking on your signture??

thomas11

I am just going to stay on this site and post and respond to others for support. I have to. I think it will help and be healthy?

least

That's Felix, the wonderful cat.