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I think I congratulated you elsewhere but congrats again John :) D |
Originally Posted by Dee74
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I think I congratulated you elsewhere but congrats again John :) D |
How are you doing, Free? If I recall correctly, I think that yesterday was your anniversary date. I expect that you are really busy with things, but we are thinking about you. :) |
Thinking back to one of my recent posts here, I believe that my perfectionism has a bit of a grip on me. Just because I've reached a certain length of time doesn't mean that I'm done with dealing with this alcoholism, and I'm going to continue to face times when the AV comes up to face me. Something at work, where I didn't get something done without some needed revision was bothering me tonight, and I got to thinking about how my desire to do things without error is a trip-up. Change to what I am doing and accepting that it's not always going to be 100% what I want is something I can work on for all things. I used to drink over frustration and when I thought that I achieved the exact right result, and I don't need to think about doing either of those things. |
I think I know what you mean about the perfectionism Guener. I think I spend far too much time worrying about things that may or may not or do don’t go perfectly.... I need to work on letting go and lightening up more :) I keep having AV thoughts about drinking when I go travelling later this year. I really need to nip them in the bud |
Hi May group Well, today marks my one year anniversary! At this time last year I had been doing my usual binge drinking that weekend, missed work on the Monday and had to drive Monday afternoon to Toronto for a work conference the next day. So I made the 3 hour drive to Toronto after drinking all day and continued to drink while I drove to my hotel. I had a horrible night, full of anxiety as I went through the classic withdrawals and was jumpy, exhausted and anxious at my meeting the next day. And on that day, May 29th 2018, after 9 years of being caught in the horrible cycle of binge drinking, I quit drinking. Since then I have taken it one day at a time never really thinking I would make it this far but here I am safe and sound, forever grateful to be where I am today. Thank you S.R group! You were a big part of my recovery. |
You're not just Gettingcloser, you have a great day to mark! Congratulations on the turnaround. :) |
Congrats getting closer! Yes. Yesterday was mine. I was crabby. Work stunk. I broke it off with the Steamboat guy. Real disrespectful body language. And I caught a head cold from landlady. AV strong here too lately. Bummed about that but dismissing it. Love you all! |
Congrats gettingcloser and you too Free - sorry for the other stuff tho Free. D |
Free, I searched for an emoticon that showed an umbrella being closed up with the sun coming out, but I didn't find something like that. Pinch yourself, gently, and remember that we love you here and see that you just crossed into a new world of your second year of sobriety. The other things will pass along behind you. I didn't have a fireworks set of emotions this month when I reached my milestone. On the other hand, things look as big and looming as they ever have. I think I'm still getting my head around things of what it means to start into these new days of sober living after the grind of the first year. I'm a little bit exhausted, too. Giant hugs. I'm approaching my first year anniversary at my new job soon and wondering what that's going to be like now that I am supposed to know the ropes. I feel a lot more confident than when I started, that's for sure. Some days I am a little worried that my memory isn't as good as I want it to be, I need to organize my tasks around some systems to help me with that. Things just keep moving, and I have to keep up. We have been having some windy days in May here. I'm ready for warm June sunny days with clear, calm skies and new thoughts of what lies ahead. There's always a lot to be done. |
Congratulations Free, well done! Hope that you are feeling better soon :) Congratulations to you too, Gettingcloser, great going! I'm not sure of the success rates of other classes but it seems like the class of May 2018 has done pretty darn good! What a lovely group of people, brought together by our desire for sobriety. Fantastic! |
Thanks, everyone! |
Congratulations Gettingcloser and Free! Well done on your year! And another congratulations to all of us in the class on May 2018 on this last day of May 2019! We’re doing so well, despite the roller coaster ride of emotions and life’s hiccups along the way (or in some instances train wrecks...). That we’re still sober despite the struggles, we should be proud of ourselves :) :You_Rock_ |
Hi! Congrats to everyone that has crossed your finish line! I’m the last one. June 1 :) although I did do some celebrating already on May 13th- because that day was monumental in my recovery. It was the day I knew I was done with this insane ride and wanted off the merry go round. I told my husband everything, and we have honestly became so much closer and stronger. then June 1- I wanted to try the Ferber method for quitting - which involves actually drinking. It was pointless and pushed my day 1 into June. i was in the June group- but that disappeared to no one... so you guys in May 2018 are stuck with me. we did it! How many of us are there? Willow free guener john getting closer me 6? It is very likely I am missing someone? Sorry to that person. another month just flew past my eyes. I have been so busy lately... with kids activities, family stuff, and if the school year stuff... nonstop busy. we met up with friends last weekend. And we took a group pic together. Well after the pic was taken... my daughter was being silly and kept taking pics of random things. I decided to be silly with her and start posing for her. when I saw that pic afterwards... I saw someone new. Someone that was able to have fun, be carefree and be happy. not the exhausted, anxious, we gotta go go go, I need to go home and drink... or stop at the wine store on the way home person. life is bigger and better then that. my word/goal for the last ‘year’ was ‘sober’ this upcoming year it is going to be ‘health’ congrats to you all! And thank you guys for all the support and love. ❤️ Bumble |
Congratulations to you all :) D |
Thanks Dee and hi everyone! Suck week Bad bullying at work😢 I cried. Head cold still bad. On antibiotics. Thought about having a drink and eff it all. Ugh Struggling. Not succeeding here could be financially devastating and and embarrassment. Your words of encouragement are so appreciated above, thank you! You are indeed and loved too We forgot Solly on the list for sure, I’d have to go back in time to see for sure, but we do have a very successful class! We are. aMAYzing😍 Hi Solly! |
I hope things get better Free :hug: D |
And manta too |
Let go of that dragnet of frustration, Free, it's going to get better for you. I hate to hear that you are going through a period of bullying or even hazing, that does, in fact, really stink. If you are dealing with a particular person, it's on them and not on you, and I hope it's not a work culture thing where you are now. I tend to ruminate on difficulties that I am having, and I have to stop myself from doing that or risk feeling depressed or to let the AV through the door. It's a new month, and I am just starting to get used to the slower routines that it brings to me, so I'm going to try to fill that time with other things. Hugs to everyone here for getting through May successfully! |
Congratulations, Bumblebee! It is amazing what a year will do, isn't it? This time last year I was beginning my recovery so I wasn't very engaged in life. Just trying to get through the day. Now I am fully participating. I have new habits that build my life up instead of tearing it down. My world has gotten so much bigger and I am fully present. Hey Free, I am glad you are posting and not drinking. Everyone is routing for you. Your success is our success! I love the quote "aMAYzing"!! |
Thanks Guener and GC 😍 |
I woke up early and organized more things and did oodles of laundry so there is less chaos. Talked about the issue at work with a few people. It helps. Going to a baseball game later, taking a rest for now so feel up to it. Love to you all❤️ |
Congrats Free and Getting Closer and Bumblebee!!! Your not quite the last bumblebee Lol...think that might be me on 11th June as had a relapse at the end of May a week before I went to rehab. So proud of everyone and I couldn’t have asked for a better bunch of classmates to share the milestone with xx |
Congratulations Bumble, well done! :) |
Congratulations Bumblebee! You really are part of this wonderful class of May ❤️ Things will get better Free. Nothing ever stays awful forever. Sending you a big hug of support. Yeah I was going to say Solly and Manta too. There may be a couple of others pop back in occasionally too :) |
We really do have a wonderful class—we are so supportive —and the backbone of it all, Dee74,Makes it all wonderful.😍 I truly truly would not be where I am today without all of you. Only nine more days Manta, you can do this! The only thing I can do about my job situation is to do my best and try to change My coworkers perception of my work ethic. I cannot change that I was involved in my relocation and had to answer phone calls and inquiries etc. I cannot change that my focus was diverted to all of the issues surrounding my relocation. And I cannot change that they are not tolerant of it even though they are the ones that picked me to be relocated. I can only move forward and do my best to be alert and get verbal and nonverbal cues from them and try to be the best coworker I can be. Positive vibes sent my way that I will have the ability to do this would be appreciated—Certainly a year ago I would’ve just thrown in the towel without trying or I would have drank myself into oblivion to try to numb the feelings of discomfort Rather than try to succeed. Thanks everyone |
You can do this Free. Sending loads of positivity your way to help you turn the situation around into one of mutual respect. Time eases things and I’m sure you can mend the bridges. I believe it will work out ok for you. You put in so much effort to get there, now you can refocus your effort into the areas that need it at work and it will settle into a better working relationship with your coworkers |
You'll rise above all this Free - I know it :) D |
I finished my class this morning by working from 3-5 a.m. to write my final essay for the course. :) I have started a new course that is going to be very challenging with a lot of reading to be done, but I am happy to keep going with my studies. I got my eyes checked out today, and they are fine. I need to pick out a new set of frames to have a backup pair of glasses. I only have one pair now, and I am the Destroyer of eye-wear, LOL. As you can read, things are pretty much steady as she goes right now, and that's just fine with me. |
Awesome Guener! Thanks for the nice comments guys, it’s nice to have friends even if I’ve never met you 🥰 Went hiking today in the San Juan‘s mountains, it was really beautiful. Guener, you might know where this is it was in Ouray, CO |
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