Well done!

Keep it up, GG!!! I'm not sure what your strategies are, but mine are writing down my thoughts in a journal or on SR and reading anything recovery-related. Lately I've been on a binge of memoirs by female alcoholics.

Outonthetiles--I love this idea of replacing a negative habit with a positive one. I'm very gradually getting back into the habit of exercising. On days when I don't, I am much more stressed and prone to cravings. (if I'm too tired for cardio, I just do yoga, which forces me to breathe and relax).

Congratulations, Jeni! That is a huge achievement.

Sending good thoughts up for you Jobei

Yeah this craving was a bad one. I will be interested in seeing how most of you with over a month get on with things. I didn't expect to reverse.

My AV was definitely telling me that drinking for a day wasn't gonna harm me because I have done so well. But I know what I am like and I know how my AV tricks me. It's been telling me the same carol for years

I am going to buy it tomorrow as I can't remember my google password. It's stored at my works computer. Surely you can log out? I will check tomorrow

You have a guru? Wow

Campral? What is this GG? Well done for killing that AV

I used campral,
If it worked for me, it was very subtle. I don't Think it made a difference for me, BUT, I'm weird with stuff.
I can't tell you what made me not drink. I've posted all the way up to crashing before. Made not a lick of difference. I have some kind of quiet anger going on that's fueling my not drinking. Maybe that's what I need to cut through the DT, mental confusion, brain fog whatever. I can't identify my anti- trigger.
I did actually find a bottle of it the other day and started taking it ahain. and I'm going to finish it off.
Better to stack the deck.
Tonight-- gotta find more " keeping sobriety" or something on youtube.
45 minutes til off work.
Thank you for your FIGHT , folks.
Day 1 or 100,
Today we are FREE

Is it herbal? I search a lot of sobriety stories on youtube. Anything to keep me focused

It fights cravings, and eases withdrawal. Prescription only. The doc wanted me to get through some of the emotional baggage before doing this [to get at the base of why I drink], but after 4 months, I need more help. And I assured her that I would continue with all the support work I'm doing.

Campral Treatment for Alcoholism

I want to start trying, but I have a bit of ADHD, so it's never been my thing.

I have another doc appt tomorrow with the GP, and I need to admit about the booze, that it's probably the cause of my high blood pressure. This is going to be really HARD.

My son was pretty disappointed me in this morning. This has got to be my main driver to quit for good. How can he trust me when I've promised to quit so many times?? :( I sense him pulling away.

Thanks, everyone. knb, great job pouring it down the drain. Inspirational!

:You_Rock_

No fair! I want a guru too!

I want a sponsor! It's sort of a guru, right? But I'm too new to AA. How long do most people take to pick someone? I can usually tell pretty quickly who I jive with.

It's kind of surreal how I met my guru. I just finished reading "The Crack in the Cosmic Egg' and was feeling like there was so much more to life that I know but can't see. A few days later he showed up in my life and made a huge impact. He led me to see things beyond my wildest dreams. I rarely drank alcohol back then (and never in excess) and I meditated every single day for well over a year.

When he passed away, I was devastated. Not a day goes by that I don't miss him. My meditation became less frequent and I began making poor choices. Now that you mention it, I could use a new guru too.

Good job knb!!! Told you you could do it.

Day 23 for me. Got a book from amazon today, "Her best kept secret". Looks interesting. Why women drink. Maybe this will solve all the world's mysteries!

Congrats to everyone else staying sober, those who've come back!

Job, praying for positive results. Don't drink over it though no matter what.

L theanine has helped me immensely. Read up on it thoroughly. That's what I did before I tried it. It's not a medication just an amino acid

Hey guys, checking in on you all before I go to bed. During the few minutes silence in my meeting I thought of you guys. I'm so relieved you're okay knb and Delizadee, we have such a strong class here!

CuteNGay - Well done on reaching double digits, you're doing great!

safeandsound - Glad you're feeling better and congrats on hitting the one week milestone! I've tried meditation but I always fall asleep. :lmao

Jeni - One month! That's amazing!!

OOTT - Stay committed to your recovery plan/program. I attend meetings daily and post on here to keep myself focused. It's easy to fall into the trap of thinking "I'm okay now" or "I was overreacting", that's just your AV trying to be sneaky.

Optimist - Ah I see, there's a lot of illness going around at the moment. I was really unwell when I quit as well, it was difficult to tell what was withdrawal and what wasn't. Double whammy! Hope you feel better soon.

GG - I'm glad you're getting things sorted with your doc, remember to have a long term plan as well as medication - attending meetings, etc. Well done for resisting that AV. Today can be the start of your new, better life if you keep fighting it.

Anyway, I'm exhausted and I've eaten my supply of ice cream that was supposed to last me a week soooo... I'm going to bed. Goodnight all! Catch you in the morning.

It was normal for me knb. I had a few ups and downs for a while.
I'd be drinking for 20 years...it was a monumental change.

It would be a lot easier if recovery was a straight line...but just as we have bad days generally we can have bad recovery days too.

As long as you keep rejecting those thoughts and cravings things will get better.

What's your recovery plan like besides SR? I think it's important to do good things for yourself too - recovery should be enjoyed not endured, y'know? :)

D

Congrats Auggie :)

There's are some good ideas here knb. I really recommend Urge Surfing :)

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

If you think you need to beef up your recovery plan there are some great ideas here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html

:c014:

I'm going to be blunt because I needed to realise this too.

Because you're in the middle of a torrid love affair with booze. There's been no room for anyone else.

An abusive relationship can be just as difficult to leave as any other.

I gave 20 years of my life to drinking - I needed to give a decent amount of time to my recovery before I dismissed it as not working.

I'm working my way from the back of the thread - I don't know what you decided ultimately yet but I'll leave these posts here cos I think it's part of an important discussion for everyone.

Life is hard without drinking...if you're like me you drank away every stress and every bad emotion (or tried to, at least)...

learning to deal with that stuff is hard - it's uncomfortable - but it does get easier.

If you never push through you'll never find that out knb - and that would be tragic.

D

Phew, I'm really stoked. I love it when the AV loses knb.
:You_Rock_

I hope my posts don't seem harsh in retrospect :)

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Wishing you all the very best Jobei. I'm praying for good news for you.

In the unlikely event it's not, please don't drink - it won't help you forget, and it may just make things worse.

Give yourself the gift of good strong health no matter what the news is :)

if you're worried about getting too complacent chances are you never will be OOTT :)

I'm Australian JL LOL. That's not cursing ;)

congrats Cute and safeandsound on your milestones :)

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Still good to check with your Dr. Some amino acids can mess up other meds etc :)

D

Thank you for the support everyone I won't get test results for a few days but I'm sober today and I'm grateful for that even if I'm terrified of everything at the moment.

She was a kitten. Now she is a 15 lb BEAST!!!! Ha

Pffft. I gave in to the apathy today. I'll be honest the apathy is much worse than the AV. It's like a whole other part of my head comes in, plops down, and says "meh, I just don't give a sh*t".:disappoin
I really don't even care. I don't feel bad, guilty, ashamed. How terrible.

I KNOW what's bothering me. I'm just not really sure what to do about it.
Back to the drawing board I guess. This is what I get for being complacent and not doing my work properly. :groan

Oh no Delizadee. What happened?? I admit I had to skip forward a few pages, couldn't catch up right at the mo.....please whatever you do, dump the rest out and stay close to SR.

Day 20. I need to remain vigilant, so I don't become complacent - between now and 30 days is my usual drop off point. I can't wait to say I've been sober for more than a month or x monthS!!!

Xo febs!

The thing is tho drinking just perpetuates that apathy - it may even exacerbate it.
When I was first here someone said to me 'the cure for apathy is to get up and get active, it's not to drink'

I still think that's good advice ...

what ever the problem you've identified is, there has to be better ways to deal with it delizadee?

D

15 pounds! My goodness that's a BIG cat!

Oh well shes gorgeous. I love cats and dogs.

I'll be thinking of you these next few days jobei. Big hugs.