Hey ang, great to hear from you. Congrats on the 90 days!

Congratulations Ang1978! I know you were going through alot. I hope your feeling better physically.

I was just wondering yesterday how you were, angd. 90 days is fantastic!!! Good to see you here :-)

Hi Julyers,

It's been another beautiful fall day up here in the driftless zone.

cbf- Thanks for the good vibes. Hope you're doing well.

Toadie- Are things going better up in NE? (I hope you're not in that rain, maybe it's further south?)

Angd- So happy to hear from you, sober twin! All best wishes for you with your health struggles.

So 90 days have passed as of yesterday. That's a good thing, of course, but have read enough on here to know it is also a time many relapse. Don't want to be a killjoy, but..

Hang in there everyone.

I changed my mind. I guess I will celebrate a little in my own way by the following.

Like many here, I love to read. I read mostly in the evening and (for obvious reasons), have for several years had the attention span of a gnat and a tendency to 'lose the plot'. So I read a lot of short stories and poems. Recently I've reread a few and the following snippets remind me of recovery (Well, everything reminds me of recovery these days).

Emily Dickinson:

"I dwell in possibility"

"Not knowing when the dawn will come
I open every door"

and:

"Forever is composed of nows"

Congratulations angd and Toki :)

90 may be a period of trouble for some...but it was also the time things got a lot easier for me :)

enjoy the achievement guys! :You_Rock_

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Congratulations to you too, toki!!! You guys are an inspiration :wave:

Thank you so much for those Dickinson quotes - simply divine :-)

Morning, Class!

So this time last week I came on here and was all sweetness and sunshine and feeling good, and that gradually led way to me ballsing things up again. For the first time since then I finally feel in control again. My week has been filled with self doubt, panic, worry and general feelings of angst. I absolutely do NOT want to slip again today, so, as Dee kindly pointed out, I just won't buy booze and then drink any. Duh. Really that easy! Of course, the thoughts that come flying at me through the day are the tough part, but we all know AV is NOT in control, and that ultimately, if we don't buy booze, well heck, we won't drink any!

Sage advice as always, Dee. Thank you again.

There is a thick-set fog bunkered down on the north west coast of England today. Air so thick that sounds don't move, they just settle where they're made. I've always been one for a cold, dark morning - solitude, space, peace. But today, there is still sunshine inside me (lame as that may sound), because I know it is on ME to sort myself out. And I can do it. And so can you! So, yeah, let's do it!

Have a SUPERB day, Julyers.

You deserve it.

Thanks, cbf! I've got that sunshiny feeling about not drinking too, and it's night time over here!

Speaking of fog, we just saw 'that Scottish play' Macbeth. Brilliant :-D

England versus Australia kick off 11 hours and counting.......

Zzzzz, rugby, ah sleepy...

Sorry, Dee, not my sport that one!

'When shall we three meet again?' :-) great play

Sorry, I obviously meant you, Shabbs!

LOL cbf I'm not a sports guy at all :lmao

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Biggest football (American style) game of the season for University of Georgia and we're expecting 3-4" of rain today. Gonna dampen down the insane partying/violence in the streets that's usually attendant to these games. It's dumping right now but I can hear the marching band practicing in the athletic fields near my neighborhood.
I can't imagine playing a trumpet during a downpour.

I'm ready for a break from these relapse dreams I'm having every night. Guess it helps keep me sober.

Congrats Toki (hug)!
Hey all! Hope everyone has a great sober Saturday!

Thanks Dee! It has been one thing after another and I too read that 90 days can be a hard milestone. I hope that things do get easier soon, because as far as the alcohol front... things were going well.

That is a beautiful sentence, Cbf!

Yes, I agree. I thought that too, Fantail. Bit of a poet on the thread, huh? Very evocative sentence that. I read it three times.

Day 81!

I've had a really stresfull few days so I've been feeling quite angry. I'll not go into it again but suffice to say it's work stress out of my control, but which impacts me.

I've not been thinking about drinking, as I know that will just make the stress worse in the long run. I just need to get through this uncomfortable period, and hopefully things will sort themselves out. Apart from that I've had a good weekend so far. Had a golfing lesson / then a round of 9 holes yesterday, then took my mum out for an Indian meal. (Non licensed restaurant - it's great - no booze!) Today im off to see my gran. Tbh I dint really 'feel' like it, but I know that isolating when stressed is a MAJOR trigger for me, so I'm keeping busy whether I like it or not!

That's great, BBB. Sounds like you're handling it really well, and great too that you're so aware of major triggers. A tough one for me will be dinner with friends, either out or at someone's home. I'm more determined than ever though, so I'm almost in "bring it on" mode....almost, but let's not get ahead of myself!

Congrats all on hitting 3 months!! Tokidoki and Angd1978, Toadie and i think a few others.