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Morning Gratitude Part 116 |
Not morning yet but hi and shotgun. Hope that is not cheating. Grateful for a very sober productive day. So very satisfying. |
Congrats on shotgun, Alpine! |
Well done on shotgun alpine. Grateful I recorded the concert at the Palace as heard it was very good. Grateful for a little lay in and coffee in bed. Grateful to see loved ones today. Grateful somebody on this site (forgotten who now) posted about not feeling defeated because the AV had a good go at knocking you down but feeling stronger because you defeated it and learnt something from it. Enjoy the last day of the weekend all. |
Grateful for the new thread. Thanks, Dee! Grateful for another day sober. |
Congrats on Shotgun Alpine. Thanks for the new Thread Dee. Grateful for Sunday. Grateful my husband is going to help with the cleaning. And if my new bike is ready we will go for a ride together later. Grateful for another pretty day. Grateful I slept a little better last night. But my FitBit says I did not get much REM or Deep sleep. Grateful for my homemade blueberry muffins. Grateful for my sobriety. Grateful for SR and all of you. |
CB, new bike!! Whoot whoot have fun. And blue berry muffins...Yummm Grateful I am leaning to deal with certain triggers in a more productive manner Grateful for how productive were yesterday, we still had somethings to take care of since the big move and got them done Grateful for the beautiful weather here Grateful for the garden my MIL and I planted Grateful for Riley , and Mr. Alpine Grateful for all of you |
Grateful to Dee and for the new part. Grateful PS’ husband’s treatments are working. Hallelujah. Grateful to see least and for her family support. Grateful to CP for the trademark CP optimism and bringing a smile to my face. Sorry I missed it yesterday! Grateful to all of you for the support around the stinkin’ covid. It helped me keep the smile going. Grateful for the image of Turs getting water dumped over the head. Grateful Alpine didn’t let the AV take over and for Hev’s beautiful words about coming to love being free of the obsession with drink. Okay I know those aren’t the exact words but something like that. This time around I am struggling to harness all the happiness I felt around various aspects of sobriety. I really want to get (at least mostly) past the obsession. Grateful for BritBird’s book rec. I’ve added it to my list! Grateful my daughter got to feeling somewhat better yesterday. I ended up taking her to the ER two mornings ago but it was unnecessary. My husband was in charge of communicating with the doc’s office and he told them she was having trouble breathing and couldn’t talk—so of course they told us to get to hospital asap (actually they said to call an ambulance). But really—she was talking and generally breathing pretty normally just had lost her voice. But then I didn’t want to be the mean idiot mom who didn’t take my kid to the hospital because I thought my instinct was better than medical advice. So $400 and many hours later, we got confirmation that her oxygen levels were perfect and it’s just going to kind of feel icky and raw for several days. Grateful my husband consulted with the camp nurses and at least for now my son is at camp. They will have him mask indoors and wait until the 5th day I guess to test him. But he is in the camping program of camp so they sleep outside, regularly eat outside, and even their cabin is just screens and fans as opposed to hard walls so it’s really just in the mess hall I think. Grateful i could comfort my son in the middle of the night the night before he left. I was so happy to be able to listen to his concerns and just be there (I mean, i was still quite out of it but not because I’d boozed it up before bed). Not as grateful to then be up the remainder of the night with my daughter but I made it through. Grateful before my son left for camp he gave me the longest, best hug. (Assuming no covid, he’s gone for a month!) Grateful for the sophisticated albeit kind of creepy facial recognition software for the camp photos. Love seeing images of what they are doing pretty much every day. Grateful for some extra sack time, even if it doesn’t always make you feel more energy. Felt worth it at the time. Grateful my dog doesn’t mind skidding around on the smooth floors—because it can be pretty freaking hilarious. Big old derpy girl pouncing, bouncing, and sliding. Grateful that in spite of the weirdness of the day I got all kinds of crap done. It’s still never enough but got some lingering crap off the to-do list and that felt great. My daughter even got an energy burst and we cleaned out the game/puzzle closet. So many aspirations in the form of purchased board games staring me in the face but oh well! Maybe someone else will use them. Grateful to all of you sweet grat packers. |
Grateful to log on this morning and find so many uplifting posts. Grateful for a beautiful morning for a walk. Grateful to have all of my outside chores done before the storms come this afternoon. Grateful that my son was able to find a summer job that he enjoys and will be able to replenish his bank account before the fall semester rolls around. Grateful for the visual of NL's big ol' derpy (derpy?!) dog sliding around and wreaking havoc. :) Grateful for today. |
Thanks for the new part Dee! Hev, glad you are enjoying home ownership. It can be stressful but there’s always pride of ownership and rewards that come with making your house truly yours Britbird, that is a good thought about defeating the AV Alpine, homemade pizza sounds so good CBS, congrats on the new bike. Good luck settling your mom’s estate. Yes, it can take a very long time depending on many factors. I was very lucky how things turned out with my dad. We had revised his will and trust before he got sick and to prevent his black widow partner from getting everything. His only assets were in two bank accounts which we consolidated and to which I had a TOD helping me avoid probate. 2-1/2 years later, Dads mortgage is still in foreclosure but I had nothing to do with that property. It’s between the lender and the black widow gal now. I guess I got a little carried away with my story there. Just be patient and this to shall pass 😊 Grateful for the beautiful birds of paradise and naked ladies blooming in the yard Grateful for a 4-1/2 hour strenuous hike yesterday. I don’t think I’ll do that one again by myself though. My knees started to ache and I was a little scared. It is one of the most difficult hikes I’ve done and I wanted to collapse toward the end. Grateful for epsom salt baths, icy hot and Advil 😊 Grateful to take it easy today Grateful sonny boy has plans with a friend Grateful for Better Call Saul |
That is sooooo much to go through, Numblady! understand perfectly everything you said about the ER visit, mother’s instincts and all that too. How sweet of your son to give you a giant hug and to make it to camp |
NL, glad your son got to camp PS, ever so grateful the treatment is going well. My eldest told me my hats look dumb, but I explained it’s to help prevent more cancer. It sucks. Alpine, CP, and FBL, good to ‘see’ you Grateful I had a crappy sleep, helps me to appreciate the good ones Grateful for hot showers, hopefully loosening up the crud in my chest Grateful for Tylenol and Aleve, And not taking them because of a hangover Grateful only work on the lot today, and the fresh air and exercise it brings Grateful for coffee Grateful for a quick check in here |
Alpine - We were actually chilly last night. Lovely to have sun & cool breezes. CBS - Enjoy your new bike! How fun. Numb - I had such a hard time getting over the idea that drinking was enhancing anything or helping me deal with troubles. I'd relied on it for years, never realizing it was hindering me in so many ways. It was always my go to when problems surfaced - and it did nothing but prolong the misery. In the early drinking days it seemed to make a good time even better - but that quickly turned into just making me numb & foggy. It's so easy to see the truth now, from this end of things. I'm grateful you're here & working on yourself. :hug: Grateful for a gorgeous day. Grateful for BLT's for dinner. Grateful to have you all to share my day with. :grouphug: |
Grateful for courage Grateful for contrary action Grateful for silence |
Thanks for the new part, Dee! NL, glad your daughter feels a little better, and your son got to go to camp. Glad the ER visit turned out to be unnecessary ... but usually better safe than sorry, eh? Grateful for rain this morning ... how very strange, never rains here in June. But we need it! Grateful for new connections growing out of my volunteering at church. Grateful for babysitting time with my grandson yesterday. We had such fun! Scored a toy at the used toy store, about which he was very excited. Grateful for having mopped my floors last night. First time in awhile. Housekeeping can really slide when you live alone! Grateful to find you all here this morning ... love checking in with the GP. |
Thanks for opening chapter 116 monsieur Dee https://www.smiley-lol.com/smiley/lo...chapeaubas.gif Grateful to be sober and clean today ☼ |
Grateful to have been part of the estimated 1 billion people who watched coverage of the Queen's 70th Jubilee Pageant. |
Grateful for all of you NL, Grateful you son can go to camp and your daughter is feeling beter Turs, sounds like a fun time with your grandson and I know the feeling of housecleaning Hevyn, another beautiful day up here! Fearless, my knees don't like tough hikes anymore Grateful for canoeing yesterday. We took our solo boats out for about 4.5 hours. Grateful that on our drive home with the boats on the roof we saw a Mennonite horse and buggy heading in the opposite direction towing a canoe on a trailer. Grateful for a nice lite dinner I made..Grilled chicken and a strawberry poppy seed dressing salad. Thanks for the salad idea Free, Mr. Alpine and my MIL enjoyed it Grateful I slept well Grateful I did not let my sister's actions agitate me nor my comments from my Mom. Lets hope I can stay on this path Grateful for my sobriety and my stubbornness to not give up |
Grateful to see aamkirk, Canadian Koala and Caramel. I mean, grateful to see all but I see them less often. Grateful for Hev’s beautiful reminders about all the things that alcohol is not. I think I’m especially struggling because I’ve been able to go back and enjoy it for a while then stop when it got annoying. But really. I didn’t enjoy it all that much. And things that are fun are just fun. And I always wanted to keep going when everyone else was done. Not to obliteration but I just don’t want the euphoria to stop. Yet it’s impossible to maintain so striving for it is a recipe for misery. Anyhow, thank you for the wise words. Grateful for the salad inspiration. I’ve been meaning/vaguely trying to reconstruct a salad my friend made once that I think was just spinach, strawberries, yellow onion (??) and champagne dressing. I keep not getting it quite right somehow. Maybe because I tried to make my own dressing. It was not very awesome. Grateful my daughter’s isolation period is just two more days. Hoping so much I stay negative. Grateful for a/c. Going to be so brutally hot here. Over a week of 100 degree +. Saw one day with a high of 106. Grateful for this group. |
NL, I put purple onion in mine. I sliced up into thin rings then soaked it in water which took some of the spice out of it but kept the flavor. I never did it before so was skeptical. It worked great. |
Grateful for the clarity of mind as I ponder some possible career changes. Grateful for another day sober. |
FBL, good for you thinking about changes Alpine, strawberry poppy seed dressing sounds so good Hev, BLT,s. Yum! I clearly am hungry and need to eat Free, hope you get better sleep tonight Numblady, I can remember that feeling. Every time I relapsed, I could moderate for a while - until I couldn’t. But then I’d rationalize I was just like every other “normal” drinker. No problem, really, just went a little too far one or two times then back on the moderation wagon. But it never worked for me. Even though I never went back to the crazy drinking I did during the real problem years and probably drank less than many people I know who would t classify themselves as problem drinkers (two thoughts that kept me in the cycle), I knew it was t working for me, was not “ my truth”, and was not healthy. I stopped trying to be like everyone else, and stoped worrying about what people would think. I think part of this comes with age and maturity too, at least from my own experience. Speaking of age, happy birthday to me. I am 55 years young today Wow, that just sort of hit me. I’m closer to 60 now than 50. I remember that feeling when I turned 45 Grateful for Mr F Grateful for the serenity prayer Grateful to always remember the why behind my actions Grateful for you |
Happy Double Nickels Fearless! I hope that you get spoiled today. |
Fearless, ahh, the old speed limit, eh? Happy birthday to you! My MIL is 90 today, independent, and sharper than me……. Alpine, glad you tried the salad……. FBL, even tho you enjoy your boss, change can be GREAT Grateful for my MIL and FIL health 90 and 93 y o Grateful for coffee Grateful for slightly better sleep last night Grateful for a full week ahead, and a car trip to MN at End of week Grateful we are helping NL through her subconscious thoughts, and letting her know there is NO NEED to drink. ANYTHING but drink. |
Fear, you make me laugh. Thanks! |
Happy birthday Fearless! FBL, so glad you are experiencing clarity around possible career changes. Grateful for a warm welcome from the spiritual community I'm thinking of joining. Grateful for volunteer work. Grateful for sunshine this week. Planning a small getaway mid-week, just an hour or two away for paddling. Grateful to feel well. |
Grateful for the things we can talk about here. :grouphug: Grateful to be understood. Grateful MrH is making salad for dinner tonight - but he's calling it 'steak salad'. Hmm. Grateful for the BLT's even though the tomatoes were anemic & flavorless. :yup: Hard to find good ones. Grateful to share my day with SR & you all. |
Alpine canoeing sounds lovely. I want to go again soon. Glad you did not let your sister get to you. NL I hope you stay negative and your daughter is "set free" soon. Somehow my daughter has still not gotten COVID after caring for her covid positive 6 yr old daughter for a week. Happy Birthday Fearless! :fest30::birthday Free I am glad your sleep was a little better. I have been struggling lately too. Hi Turs. Glad you are feeling well. Hev good to see you. Glad you feel understood. Grateful I found a thread on Benzo Buddies for people like me that have chronic dizziness related to PAWS from alcohol and Benzo use. I still have balance and rocking issues almost 18 months into sobriety and 17 months post Benzo use(prescribed). Grateful for veggie burgers. They make for a quick sandwich at lunch time. Trying to eat more vegan. Grateful we got lots of chores done yesterday and then took a nice 8 mile bike ride. My butt and hands were sore after. But hopefully, my body will adjust as I ride more and more. Grateful my friend has offered her beach condo. Heading down Thursday after work. Grateful for my sobriety. Grateful for SR and the GratiWhine Club ;0). |
whoops, sorry Fear, I missed saying Happy Birthday!! |
Fearless, Happy BDay! I really like what you said about realizing drinking was not your truth. I truly, honestly already don’t give a crap about what others think of me drinking or not drinking. If anyone has a reaction I feel on a visceral level that is about them and not me. The problem is this misplaced to recapture some of the fun i myself had. But for as many times as were fun there were a slew of just stupid lame experiences. Not my truth! Just have to keep remembering that until it really sticks. Alpine, thanks for the tip about the onions. I had salad last night (husband made). It doesn’t matter what the ingredients were because i put cashew tamari dressing on it. If any of you can ever find it (Whole Paycheck sells it…brand is Mother’s), you should buy it. But then you might be mad at me because it is so freaking good you may eat too much of it. Grateful covid test was still negative yesterday. Grateful yesterday is over and that I’m not in my old job. Grateful my daughter is going to see my folks for a week starting Friday morning and that I could use the credit from the trip I had to cancel. Grateful for a patient customer service rep. She initially said I didn’t have any flight credit but called their help line and got it sorted. Grateful (??) I woke up at 3:30 a.m. and finally just gave up and got up. I’m not that awake but theoretically I can get some work done. Grateful I don’t have to go into the office today. Grateful for all of your words of support and strength. |
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