Please help! Seeking advice and support I drank last night. A lot! And my 16 year old child witnessed me passing out, which needless to say, was a scary experience for him. I am embarrassed and hurt by my stupid decision to have that first drink last night. I’m mentally and physically misarable right now. My parents came over to find me drunk in my bed and my husband (God bless him) had to stay up all night and take care of me. The feeling of guilt is overwhelming right now. I let everyone down again.....how do I forgive myself for hurting people I love the most? How can I prevent it from happening again? How do I gain their trust back? I’m very sorry for what I have done. I truly am! Thank you for letting me post here in hopes of your support and wisdom, everyone. Has anyone recovered emotionally from hurting your loved ones like that? What do I say to them now? They trusted me and I relapsed....I’m so sorry! |
You start by pouring out all the alcohol. You stop drinking. You get yourself to AA meetings, call your sponsor. You wake up sober is how you forgive yourself. You can do this but it is up to you to take that first step, then repeat on a daily basis. |
Originally Posted by Ladysadie
(Post 6940589)
You start by pouring out all the alcohol. You stop drinking. You get yourself to AA meetings, call your sponsor. You wake up sober is how you forgive yourself. You can do this but it is up to you to take that first step, then repeat on a daily basis. |
Listen to your heart, the pain you created is yours to own. I had to get to the same point when I decided to turned my life around and quit disappointing those I cared about. Today can be your starting point. Make it count. Once you start showing up each day sober, your family will start to believe in you. It's action that's required, not words. Hang in there, it will get better. You are taking the first step, it takes courage to face your truth. Blessings to you dear Kat. |
Originally Posted by Ladysadie
(Post 6940641)
Listen to your heart, the pain you created is yours to own. I had to get to the same point when I decided to turned my life around and quit disappointing those I cared about. Today can be your starting point. Make it count. Once you start showing up each day sober, your family will start to believe in you. It's action that's required, not words. Hang in there, it will get better. You are taking the first step, it takes courage to face your truth. Blessings to you dear Kat. |
Is this a common thing? How often do you drink until passing out? People can deal with it if it happens every few months or six months. Are you an alcoholic who needs to quit? Or are you just feeling bad about a one time episode? |
Originally Posted by Stayingsassy
(Post 6940766)
Is this a common thing? How often do you drink until passing out? People can deal with it if it happens every few months or six months. Are you an alcoholic who needs to quit? Or are you just feeling bad about a one time episode? |
Checking back and thinking about you dear Kat, hope you had a good day with your son and husband. Stay strong! |
Sending prayers your way and wishing you the best!! |
Originally Posted by Kat1313
(Post 6940862)
It happened to me twice before because I binge drank both times (350-400 ml of cognac within 3-4 hour time period). Is it bad? Is it a lot? Normally, I don’t drink often anymore, but I tend to drink a bottle of red wine + when I do. I become a different person, someone I have never met before but very much dislike. Someone that acts carelessly and dangerously and then, desperately trying to recall things/events the next morning. I just know I simply have to stop drnking all together. Problem solved! When I don’t drink, everything in life is way better; I’m a better person/mother/wife/daughter/sister. Because of those few incidents, my son and husband got very concerned for me and my health and it caused them enough of psychological damage to absolutely hate it when I drink (regardless of occasion, quantity and kind). I simply must stop and never have that first drink again. I’m hurting today because I saw my child crying and worrying for me. At that tender teenage time, he should not be worrying about his mama passing out. Not what I want to teach my child and not the example I want to set for him. Not at all! Thank you SO much for listening. I very much needed it. Any advice/input is welcomed and appreciated. Many people decide to stop drinking for the reasons you list above. They simply decide it's not worth it to have it in their life. If you are prone to binge drinking, it can and does get a lot worse. It's a good decision to quit! |
I tend to drink a bottle of red wine + when I do. I become a different person, someone I have never met before but very much dislike. Someone that acts carelessly and dangerously and then, desperately trying to recall things/events the next morning. I just know I simply have to stop drnking all together. |
Doesn't matter how 'bad' it is. There is no objective 'bad' index. If it's happened more than once, you can't seem to control yourself once you start, and you feel that the consequences are something you can't live with, it's time to stop. How you do so is up to you. I'd start by reading this site very closely and learning your options. Meetings and AA are one approach, and certainly worth trying, but there are many others. You can't change the past, you can just keep the negative events from recurring. The important thing isn't that you passed out in front of your kids. What IS the important thing is that you recognize this as a very negative consequence and take action to prevent its recurrence. |
How are you doing today, Kat? Before I finally realized I could never touch the stuff again, I had several setbacks like the one you describe. I guess I needed further convincing. Drinking turned me into a stranger too - but I kept insisting I could just have 'a few' to relax with & not get carried away. It never worked out - one always led to 10. Now that we know we can't allow it in our system - we can get free. You can do it, Kat. |
Oh, wow! I’m touched and a bit overwhelmed (in a good way) by all your replies. Thank you all for thinking of me today and expressing your thoughts. Thank you for the support and encouragement! I have read each and every word you wrote to me twice to let it sink in. It really does help. Incredible! I am doing GREAT today! What a difference a day makes (when you are sober). My son and my husband and my parents, for that matter, are by my side supporting me and cheering me on as I set my sail to journey into the life free of alcohol and binges. I feel like I’m in power now. I feel like I’m not alone and my life matters! My family is, and always has been, beyond words amazing, understanding and loving; it was me who got sidetracked and lost giving into my addiction. No more, I say! If you don’t mind, I’ll keep posting here as it seems to give me strength and courage to be myself again....more so than I ever imagine. I’m open to your comments/suggestions/experiences/ guidance and so on. I want to be here for you as much as you all, wonderful, wise, and caring people, are here for others. Thank you for not disregarding my cry for help! I am present. I’m so blessed. I’m happy....:tyou:grouphug: |
Originally Posted by Ladysadie
(Post 6941687)
Checking back and thinking about you dear Kat, hope you had a good day with your son and husband. Stay strong! I’m doing great today, Ladysadie. Hoping you are too. Sending you a big hug. |
I'm glad you're feeling better kat but, if you'll forgive me, you still need a plan because without a plan there's a high risk of passing out events happening again. got any ideas? :) D |
Originally Posted by Hevyn
(Post 6941903)
How are you doing today, Kat? Before I finally realized I could never touch the stuff again, I had several setbacks like the one you describe. I guess I needed further convincing. Drinking turned me into a stranger too - but I kept insisting I could just have 'a few' to relax with & not get carried away. It never worked out - one always led to 10. Now that we know we can't allow it in our system - we can get free. You can do it, Kat. Thank you for the encouragement. I’m doing great today. I sincerely believe I can do it! I read your story, your first post on SR, and I was amazed by your honesty and courage. What a journey you had! I would love to hear back from you, if you don’t mind, so you can tell me that your health has improved and that you are enjoying your life yo the fullest. I am wishing you just that. |
Originally Posted by Dee74
(Post 6942088)
I'm glad you're feeling better kat but, if you'll forgive me, you still need a plan because without a plan there's a high risk of passing out events happening again. got any ideas? :) D |
Originally Posted by Stayingsassy
(Post 6941791)
Many people decide to stop drinking for the reasons you list above. They simply decide it's not worth it to have it in their life. If you are prone to binge drinking, it can and does get a lot worse. It's a good decision to quit! |
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