evolabob99, to tell you the truth, I was avoiding posting on your thread because to respond to you, honestly, I'm going to have to go to a place that I don't really want to go. There are
no earthly words that will provide you comfort or release you from your
"mixed" emotions of grief or relief you of your thoughts that you could have done any more!
On May 16th 1995, my only beloved 23 year old daughter completed suicide. It took me ten years, and two hospitalization for my grief, and subsequent, major depression before I was able to accept my daughter's completed suicide. I was prescribed anti-depressants and sleeping pills. However, it wasn't the hospitalization or the medication that helped me to reach
acceptance of my daughter's death.
It was by the grace of God!
One Sunday morning during church I went forward and had the minister pray with me for my acceptance. I actually felt my grief being released from my body during that prayer. I now can
accept the fact my daughter is in heaven with our
Heavenly Father.
In fact, our
Heavenly Father answered my prayers and gave me exactly what I was asking for. I kept asking God to keep my daughter safe and out of harm's way. She is at peace, in the
arms of our
Loving Savior Jesus, and away from all the evil here on earth; and if I had an option, I wouldn't ask her to come back to earth and away from the joys of heaven.
There are many posts here on SR that can help you through your grief process. Here's just a few:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post2814017 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...alone-now.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ay-prayer.html
Please feel free to PM me.
I"m here for you! "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows." 2 Corinthians 1:3-5
Love and Peace,
Phoenix