Im alone now..
lonemare
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: raleigh nc
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Im alone now..
He tried for years to stop drinking, went to detox and rehab countless times. He couldnt stop. We could only help him to a point, the rest was up to him. The addiction was his lover,and his killer.
David was a sweet guy,full of laughter,loved movies and his cats and loved me too. I tried to help him, but the pull was to strong. He was shy, didnt want to go to meetings, he felt guilty for being so weak. He was so strong in other ways, he use to play with his dogs and just pick them up and toss them around, big dogs, rottys. But when it came to drinking the weakness fell over him.
He went to the hospital Nov 22.. it was to late, he was terminal, liver failure,renal failure. No liver tranplants for addicts. We hugged and cried and I told him id love him always, and that I was going to miss him so much. He told me he was sorry for all this mess. On dec 20th, he couldnt move, he was so swollen from body fluids building up. He was in alot of pain, they pumped him full of morphine. My love, my soulmate, was dying. It took him 3 days. He died Dec 22nd.
I hope this message can save someone, please get help before its to late. My heart has shattered into a million pieces. Please get help, dont leave your loved ones hurting this bad. If any of you need to talk, im here. Need to cry, im here for you.
Please get help.
David was a sweet guy,full of laughter,loved movies and his cats and loved me too. I tried to help him, but the pull was to strong. He was shy, didnt want to go to meetings, he felt guilty for being so weak. He was so strong in other ways, he use to play with his dogs and just pick them up and toss them around, big dogs, rottys. But when it came to drinking the weakness fell over him.
He went to the hospital Nov 22.. it was to late, he was terminal, liver failure,renal failure. No liver tranplants for addicts. We hugged and cried and I told him id love him always, and that I was going to miss him so much. He told me he was sorry for all this mess. On dec 20th, he couldnt move, he was so swollen from body fluids building up. He was in alot of pain, they pumped him full of morphine. My love, my soulmate, was dying. It took him 3 days. He died Dec 22nd.
I hope this message can save someone, please get help before its to late. My heart has shattered into a million pieces. Please get help, dont leave your loved ones hurting this bad. If any of you need to talk, im here. Need to cry, im here for you.
Please get help.
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Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: Tucson, AZ
Posts: 24
Lonemare,
I'm deeply sorry for your loss. Please continue to post.
My fear is that my wife, whom I love so much, will reach the same fate. There is nothing that I can do about it. Trust me, I've tried. Today, all I can do is take care of myself.
Peace Be With You,
Sean
I'm deeply sorry for your loss. Please continue to post.
My fear is that my wife, whom I love so much, will reach the same fate. There is nothing that I can do about it. Trust me, I've tried. Today, all I can do is take care of myself.
Peace Be With You,
Sean
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Join Date: Jul 2010
Posts: 13,497
(((Lonemare)))
I am so sorry. For you and for your David. How sad and tragic. I wish you strength to take care of yourself.
Thank you for sharing those special things about David. He sounds like he was a very special and good person.
I am so very, very sorry.
chicory
I am so sorry. For you and for your David. How sad and tragic. I wish you strength to take care of yourself.
Thank you for sharing those special things about David. He sounds like he was a very special and good person.
I am so very, very sorry.
chicory
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 31,179
(((Lonemare))) - I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs and prayers to you and all who loved ((David)). I do hope you stick around, and allow us to help you walk through the grief process.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: Texas
Posts: 71
Lone Mare ...
I'm so very sorry for your loss. My AH is so lucky ... he went to the hospital 5/8/09 and was diagnosed with "near" liver failure ... I even recieved the call from the doc explaining how addicts don't get transplants and there is nothing they can do. I was devasted ... for some reason he was given a second chance and his liver started working again.
I'm going to share your story with him - he needs to hear it. He relapsed a month ago. I freaked out and drug him to the doc and his blood levels and liver #'s were still OK. I told him I won't go through that again but we all know the addiction is stronger than me or my demands.
Sending continuous <<<hugs>>> your way. What a horrible experience you've been through and are still working through - I'm so sorry ...
We are here for you too ...
I'm so very sorry for your loss. My AH is so lucky ... he went to the hospital 5/8/09 and was diagnosed with "near" liver failure ... I even recieved the call from the doc explaining how addicts don't get transplants and there is nothing they can do. I was devasted ... for some reason he was given a second chance and his liver started working again.
I'm going to share your story with him - he needs to hear it. He relapsed a month ago. I freaked out and drug him to the doc and his blood levels and liver #'s were still OK. I told him I won't go through that again but we all know the addiction is stronger than me or my demands.
Sending continuous <<<hugs>>> your way. What a horrible experience you've been through and are still working through - I'm so sorry ...
We are here for you too ...
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