He wouldn't have bothered to inquire about you if he thought you were not worth bothering about. He sounds like he doesn't suffer fools gladly, yet he had concern for you.

Glad I'm not the only one!!! GAWD...I still cringe every time I think about those mornings after! Today I was sending a text to one of our old managers and when I pulled up his text thread, there were about 3 music links from me to him...sent before I stopped drinking. I quickly deleted them before sending him a new message. UNREAL!

Thanks for the support joandmelandhan!

My sister died a day like tomorrow July 7 but in 1999. I was drunk the day she died as I am today. I was in my 20 I'm older today but still full of pain.

My husband birthday is the seven or Saturday. I bought him so many gifts I wanted to buy him so he forget he is married to an alcoholic.

What sadness I feel no one can understand I have ruined everything he is livid he found me drinking and my will is gone.

I don't give a **** if I end up in the streets if I die if I lose everything I'm so gone I can't find myself.

Someone said here you Gus can't help me and I agree.

I don't know why I post.

Glad to see you SAH! You're not alone :hug:

Here is that link Anna shared before:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html

hello! I am late, as usual, but I am in! The opener,the responses, the segues. All GREAT. have had my own brand of terrible work week. How does so much terrible fit into 2 days, so far???! And Friday will be the worst of it. Oooooowwwww. Dread.

And Behan!!!! How is missus Behan and Baby Behan? The drama of baby B's arrival, I remember from my earliest attempts at seeing what sober people were up to. Really feel you shared perfectly. Hope everything is perfect. And even if it isn't, it is SO Good to see you.

I'm sorry for your loss SAH I know anniversaries like that can be hard.

I still have hope for you. You're alive and you're posting here - you keep coming back and you're looking for answers.

Drinking never heals the pain - it just numbs it.
The wounds stay red raw.

Real healing can only starts when we stop anaesthetising ourselves.

You just need to find whatever it is for you thats going to help you make a different choice next time you get the urge to drink.

Sometimes even the tiniest choice - whether it's an AA meeting or a crisis line or posting here before you drink - can make a difference.

Great waves start as little ripples :)
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What are those answers what you did ? I am open to advice. I am out of choices.

I am out of choices I don't know how to cope with life without alcohol.

I am glad you are posting Soberandhealthy. Why do you think your will is gone? You have mentioned this before about not caring but you do not say why this is so. Even if other people are negative towards you that is no reason to believe them - you are a good person and definitely deserve to get better.

I am sure no-one hear would say a thing like that Sah. You are not beyond help, no-one is.

It depends what you think are viable options.

Is going back to AA an option? or maybe seeing your Dr about your drinking, depression and suicidal thoughts?

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I'm in and completely thankful I will never wake up with that horrific "oh oh, who did I call/text last night" or "what did I post on Facebook?"

What a relief that is. To think it all began with the courage to overcome the discomfort of making it past the cravings.

Friday morning started out with a bang. Power failure last night, the transformer across the back from us exploded, a very loud light show.

I'm in for this weekend definitely. Had such a good sleep last night I want it to continue.

Welcome to Weekenders Susiegirl!

I'm in for the weekend. Daughter called me last night and told me she loved me. That's all I need to hear. Thank you for this thread.

That truly is one of the many gifts of sobriety. Not spending your first waking moments in agony trying to figure out what your last memory was of the night before and what you might have done. Great welcome to this weekends trip aboard the sober bus thanks so much.

Prefacing this by saying it's broader than just this thread, it's how I feel when I try to help in a lot of different threads..

I don't know what advice to give someone when they are drinking.. Quit? Stop drinking? Ok, right. That is not something someone is willing to hear when they are under the influence of alcohol.. They are there because they couldn't or weren't willing to stop..

It's the best advice I have to give.. because I believe acceptance of the problem and admitting that under NO circumstances is it okay for me to drink, is the only place to start helping myself out of this hole I've been.. I see others in it and I know what to say except the only thing that works is the last thing they'll hear.

Once I got 72 hours sober, I became open to hearing advice on how to recover, but you can't get anywhere while drunk or withdrawing. It's a little like trying to drive with a flat and an empty tank and going "But I have to get to work". You're right, but fix your tire and get some gas first.

Hey all - what a great theme going into the weekend.
I'm glad to check in and hope everyone is well.

To those struggling ..... you can quit .. get some help. Many of us cannot do it alone. Seek advice from the Doctor and attend meetings.

Have a wonderful Fri.