I love that. "Sober is the New Black." Going to have to check it out. Thanks for sharing :)

Checking in
day 22 AF
day 15 VF
At this point the no vaping is the harder of the two. But i know everyday i don't feed my addition is one day closer to freedom.
I quit cigarettes 10/10 /2010 after a 20 year habit so I don't know why i thought picking up a vape last year was ok. My AV said, well it's not as bad as cigarettes. haha I just don't want to be a slave to anything anymore. I know it's hard in the beginning, but I also know that as each day passes it does get easier.

I completed my 48 hour fast. I lost .5 pounds this morning. I wanted to see more gone, but that's pretty good seeing how i lost 3 the day before.

Today I will not drink!
One day at a time.
:grouphug:

I feel fed up.

I have no idea why?

Everything is making me glum including this place.

I feel like getting so smashed I don't even know my own name.

I'm not going to though.

JT

Hey everyone - Glad to see so many doing well and keeping January going! I know I haven't been here much but happy to report I'm still going strong - today is day 15, woo!

Not much else to say, just wanted to check in. Will try to check out some of the posts. Stay strong, January class!

Hey Tony, let me cheer you up a little. You posted a bit back about Evil Tony. Now, since I'm assuming Tony is your name, you say it as EVIL Tony, emphasis on the evil part.

I have named my AV Evil TONY. Because why? It cracks me up, that's why. I'm not even a guy, but the name suits. Makes me think of a gangster or bookie.

I went through glum/borderline pissed at the world yesterday. Had to really stomp on that voice. I did not go to AA yesterday either. It felt too depressing.

I think we're going to see all kinds of strange and at least partially unexplained moods popping up. Don't Drink. I want to go hide in my little safe zone drunk and tuned out to the world somewhere in cyberspace. Not gonna.

For now, I must go out and do some adulting. I'm starting to get worried about getting back to the real world when the job starts Monday. My safe little cocoon is much easier. Kind of like a self made mini-rehab.

Tonight I am going to go and see if the smart recovery meetings are still actually happening. My workbook for that arrived today too.

Day 5. I'm going to make it through.

day 68. Sydney humidity and having no aircon = crap sleep=foul mood. A good reminder that going sober is not feeling orgasmic all the time. I will get ready for work and soldier on. In the past I most likely would have taken a day off sick and been drinking by now, before 7am..Wine in a cup used to be me. Changed the cup to a glass come midday, if I was still sober enough. **** so glad that's history..Have a great sober day..

Sorry to hear that you're in a down patch. How's the gym going at the moment? Is there anything you can identify that's triggered your mood change? Other than the wild ride our bodies and brains go through as they learn to navigate the world in sobriety.

Have you got a contrac 'in real life' that you can talk to, like a counselor? I was seeing a guy who specialises in addiction during the first 12 months of my last sober spell, he was wonderful.

That's gold. Congrats on bit drinking through a hard time. Let us know how you go with smart. I hope work provides a good distraction and turns out to be a positive.

Hope all are well. I'm around the forum but short on time during the week. I'm awake early today, hopefully I won't be too exhausted at work.

That cheered me up. Thank you. :You_Rock_

You're not alone, JT.
I am feeling agitated and down today. Teary eyed for no reason. Don't want to deal with any part of my life today. I'm going to go hide in my room for a bit.

I'll check back later. I'm fearful of these emotions, but I know it has to get better. I will not drink over it.

The gym is going well - I'm losing weight and getting fitter every day. I'm now within about 10 pounds of my ideal fighting weight (I'm always too vain - thank goodness - to let the drinking get me past a certain physical 'state').

I'm tired and that isn't helping. Work is hard at the moment and I am back to back most days in meetings.

There are also a couple of threads and people on here that have triggered me as well - not to drink - but have irritated me, or in one case actually made me a little angry. I hate selfishness and lack of consideration for others.

I just went on to post examples but I deleted them. Safe to say that some people are now on ignore.

JT

Hi guys,

​​​​​​Almost first day for me today. Moods have been up and down which is not wholly surprising but I am surprised at how I've managed to keep the troublesome thoughts at bay most of the day.
I'm reminding myself this is the easy part in many ways. I'm sitting at home not really exposing myself to difficult situations. I have this to come and though I remind myself of this so I don't get complacent with how well I feel, and become disheartened once I start feeling any sort of struggle, I am managing to keep any thoughts of the what ifs and whens at a distance. I'm attempting to do what is practical in proportion to how strong I feel. So at the moment very little except not drinking.
Tomorrow, I will feel a little stronger and will hopefully have the strength to tidy up and clean up all the empty cans.
The day after I may have the strength to go to the shop and maybe take the dog out for a walk. Then hopefully after that I can book an appointment with an advisor to deal with financial issues. There is a possibility I could end up homeless due to think going wrong lately but I have to accept that. I just know, drinking is not going to solve any of this and it is a major cause of all these external issues.

Not sure I have ever commented on these 'class of' threads. Just wanted to reach out to people while I'm at this early stage and hopefully with being honest with how I feel, I can be helped through the struggles that may follow later in recovery.

Hi All

Been having a bad few months, Christmas festivities didn't help.

Got caught DUI in November and have a court appearance next week. Thought that would give me shake up but hit the wine real bad last Saturday and Sunday. It's Wednesday and I'm still paying for it with vertigo and dizziness. Tried yesterday to not drink but I don't know if you can relate to this but the urge was so strong that I started to get anxious and shake.

I started to get anxious again this morning, so I thought I'd get on SR again. Class of January 2015 kept me sober for 3 months. Seems only yesterday.

My urge seem to dissipate as soon as I got here.

So if you'll have me, I'd like to join the Class January 2019, Starting today.

JS

Hi,

Checking in - just coming to end of day 15. Feel quite positive at the moment .

Apologies been busy and not posted recently.

Am still having uncomfortable sleep patterns , switching between insomnia for a few nights followed by very long periods of sleep. Tried giving up coffee but no difference :-(

Enough of my ramblings

Best to all

Welcome James Squire. Great to have new people on here to boost morale and strengthen the team.

I hope you made it through this evening JT..

There are a lot of personalities on here and we definitely aren't going to agree with all of them but don't let that trigger you into drinking, that's just evil Tony trying to get a foot in..

I don't want to tell you what to do but maybe a check in with Augustonians, I know how much that class meant for you and how welcome you are there.. A lot of good deep reflection and inspiration..

Hope you feel better tomorrow..
Nic

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Greetings.
Just checkin in here at 1:47pm. Today feels like one of those "coming out on the other side" days where I feel good, strong and optimistic....subject to change, naturally.

LOL!

About to go to bed my friend.

I was never going to drink. I'm feeling better. Thank you.

Just checking in. I'm exhausted today. My youngest was up hourly throwing up last night, so I was up too. Glad I was sober.
No fear of drinking today.

:grouphug:

Welcome, Lonewolf22 :)

Thank you very much Caramel :) Brexit deal voted against by a majority on my first day of sobriety :) A great way to begin feeling a tad hopeful :)