Class of February 2018 Support Thread Pt 5
 

last part here
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...pt-4-a-21.html

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Sorry you had a bad weekend Sunshine - we're here if you wanna talk about it :)

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I’m sorry your weekend wasn’t a good one, Sunshine. Let it out if it’s something you want to share. It’s nice to see that we can have bad days/events without turning to the bottle to get us through... so there’s that :)

Thank you Dee!

(((Sunshine)))-Good to see you post and I think congrats, 170 days? If so, awesome. Feel better sorry about your weekend. PM me if you need to.
Love, Aly xxoo

Hope everyone’s doing ok! Awefully quiet around here. Stay strong and stay the course.

Three weeks until I see my Navy son. It’s only been 8 months, but that’s a long time to not see someone after living with them for 19 years!! I’m so proud of him though, and I’m so glad he’s doing something he loves.

Hope the three weeks go quickly CYH :)

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I've been super busy getting things wrapped up for the week off.

Sorry sunshine, about the bad weekend.

Good evening...
Hope everyone is doing fine...I am in London....had a good stay...it's raining outside...
Day 93 no drinks...one day at a time, Staying sober and strong..
Have an awesome day...

You too ITWA :)
Hope you enjoy that week off 00TT :)

Hey friends!

CYH- I’d be super proud too, I’m glad that you’ll see your son soon.

Sunshine, I hope you’re doing better!

Any good plans for the week off OOTT?

IWTA- I hope you’re having a great trip!

Hi Aly!

My wife and I had a disatorious counseling session today and we made it our last one. It’s so hard, we’ll see what the future holds.

I made it through the first week of the healthy no sugar pledge I posted about earlier and am feeling good. I’ve also taken some beach bike rides despite of the heat (a few 90 degree days CYH, I know that’s nothing compared to Arizona).

What’s going on for the weekend Febs?

Jimi-so sorry about what you're going through. Stay tough. So grateful you'e past using as an excuse to drink. Sending you a good vibe.

I hope everyone is doing well. I haven't posted much, I've been so tired. But my exam and EKG all came out great. Thankfully, I have not seemed to have harmed my organs from drugs and alcohol.

Have a great rest of the week.

Love, Aly ♥♥♥

Thank you all. It’s quite a surreal thing to see your little boy go from playing pirate one day to working on a nuclear submarine (seemingly) the next.

IWTA: You’re kicking butt! Keep it up.
Aly: So glad your tests came back good.
Jimi: Have to admit I was a bit worried about you when we hadn’t heard from you in a bit. Sorry to hear about your marriage issues. I hope you can turn something good from all of this, and like Aly said, major kudos for not using it as an excuse to drink!

Keep on rockin in the free and sober world!

Love that sh!t

Aly, definitely good to hear that your test results came back fine.

I definitely thought about drinking because of my marital issues, I gotta say I crushed my AV pretty quickly. If proclaiming that I'll never drink again doesn't feel natural, I go with not today and it's working so far. It seemed that the therapist felt we were a lost cause. He said it's either separation or trying living together civilly (basically staying together for our daughter, but not being a couple). Or continuing to try to fix things which he said requires a lot of heavy lifting since we've pretty much failed so far. Having a child, house, 401k plans, etc. makes this soooooooooo hard. I appreciate the support!

Tomorrow we're going to my brother's house in South Hampton NY for the weekend. There's some rain in the forecast so, praying for some sunshine!

Hi Sunshine :)

Jimi, so glad you didn't pick up. Good for you. We're all here for you if you get to where you need to post about it. Sometimes it's hard, esp when you're feeling stressed and anxious. I'm finding, if I can wait long enough, a lot of times the A/V passes. So sorry you're going through this. Take care of yourself, remember HALT too. Sounds like you're using your tools, so that is fantastic.

Everyone have a great, sober weekend! We've all got what it takes.

Sunshine, hope you're feeling better too.

Love, Aly ♥

Hi guys and gals!
Just checking in on a hot Saturday to say hi and see how everyone is doing. I'm hanging in there. AV has backed off a bit, but I'm feeling kind of anxious and I hate it, but overall I'm doing well.
Hugs and good vibes to anyone struggling and I hope everyone is doing great or at least as well as can be expected.
Sunshine sending you hugs.
Love, Aly xxoo

Good to hear from you, Aly. Glad to hear you’re doing well. That AV seems to come and go. The devious b****rd has a plan to get us back, and we can’t let down our guard.

That is so true ^^^^^Thanks, CYH. Take good care.

Hang tough Aly :)

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Thank you, Dee.

Have my son back after a month away. He is different. Just in a grown up way. Bound to happen.

So should I be concerned. Laying in bed husband thought I was asleep I look over and he is scrolling porn. I'm often asking if he is attracted to me and I always get a yes. I def have a high sex drive. I know I just went through surgery and haven't felt sexy lately. Should I be mad? I took off my ring and ripped up his photo I keep in my bedroom. I know I have that bottle of vodka in my closet and I came close. cant catch a break. Fml

(((Sunshine))) It's good to see you back but what a bummer that you're going through that. It's not worth it to pick up. Someone gave me a bottle of booze a while ago. It's been sitting around, I think I'm going to throw it out. Take care of yourself first and if you feel like you may pick up, post here please or anywhere.

Hugs, love, and good vibes going out to you. Take care of yourself first.

Love ya, Aly ♥

Hey Fabulous Febs,
Mrs. Tiles and I are in Anaheim this week. Everything is going well. We missed the plane theft/suicide at SeaTac shutdown by about six hours. The island the mechanic crashed into is one of four islands in south Puget Sound that's about 25 miles south of SeaTac.
We were at Venice beach yesterday, birthplace of the Doors. It was pretty crazy, but not too bad. We walked past one house where tons of pot smoke was billowing out from, and lots of people were smoking pot, but it wasn't all that noticeable. Not much emphasis on booze. We walked and then set up our sun tent on the beach and hung out all day. Went to the Muscle Beach weight pen and hung out and got some good pics. Some street lady was peeing against the wall of the Muscle Beach gym when we walked past, and we saw her a couple more times later that day. I wanted to get a picture with PeePee Longstocking, but Mrs. Tiles forbade it.
On Saturday we went to Laguna Beach and Crystal Cove beach and hung out. Friday was in the park and we're getting ready for a day in the park. Hope everyone has a great week!

Sunshine...first I want to say that I absolutely love how honest we can be here. I think all of us in recovery are the most honest people in the world because we've been through something that destroys people and we've had our egos dented and bruised a little bit.
Next, I would not be offended or worry if Mr. Sun was looking at porn. In no way does it mean he doesn't love you or feel attracted to you. He was indescrete and should have known better, but I don't think it means anything other than men have an extremely high sex drive.
Last, not to preach, but you have to dump that bottle of vodka please. You obviously were thinking about it and nothing good will come of it. Speaking for myself, I absolutely can't keep alcohol in the house or I'll drink it, even after over two years of being sober. Please get rid of it. that's the first thing. As for the porn, I wouldn't make an issue of it or drag him to counselling. It would be extremely embarrassing for Mr. Sun and would drive a wedge. I would seriously let it go. You can let him know it's not okay, but then drop it and don't rub his nose in it.

Jimi - How are you doing? I know you have a lot going on, just wanted to see if you're ok. Let us know when you can. Good thoughts.
Aly ♥

Another Tiles classic haha!

Seriously, Tiles your words to Sunshine were much better than I could have said it and I concur with those thoughts. This too shall pass Sunshine, stay strong.

I agree that you and Aly should both dump or give away the poison today. I will say that my wife always has wine and often vodka in the house, it can be tough in a moment of weakness.

Thanks for asking Aly, I'm doing ok. I'm glad you're fighting off your urges. We all should be proud!

Well I haven't drank bit I have taken. Xanax and Ambien and chased witmyquil. For a long time I don't want to be here. I feel fat mean a.d ugly and the only thing I have to get these cases parently the pay off my life insurance policy if I die. so if nobody really wants me around then why don't I just off my cell phone and they can have my life insurance policy.

If I lose my son and my husband I will not be able to stay In this place. I have nothing else to live for. Sometimes I really truly hate being alive period for some of us it's just torture. So it's like if I have to be sober and I can't have any sort of a release then I feel like why even bother carrying on if no one even wants me anyway

Honey, do you have a therapist or anyone like that? You are a totally worthwhile person. You mean the world to me and I'm sure everyone here as well as the people in your family. This will pass. Just hold on, stop the bad thoughts, even if you have to distract yourself, please don't pick up. This will pass and one day at a time. Tiles and Jimi had some good stuff for you too.
(((Sunshine)))♥♥♥

And if I'm providing too much negativity for the proup please just kick me out I'm in a pretty low place right now