Originally Posted by
Dazedandconfus 
I know it. Sick isn’t it?
You're not sick - just very well practiced in the ways you've coped until now. LCNY is right, all of your anxiety is from focusing and re-focusing on his behavior. The good news is that we can learn to habitually think differently and focus on better things instead of habitually focusing on crap. Calling my thought patterns a habit or a skill, instead of a sickness, helps me to remember that how I experience my life is always my choice. I have choices. I am never stuck in sickness. Nobody is.