but I don’t feel as if I’m really connecting with anybody here at times
Our addiction will really push that feeling in order to get what it wants Eve - you alone, no support and vulnerable.
Just consider the possibility that what you're feeling may not be the same as the reality?
Maybe you should join the Class of July support thread?
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-part-2-a.html
They're a great bunch of people
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