Codependedy…...I echo the suggestion that you read "Codependency No More"….it is an easy read and I am sure that you will find a lot that will resonate with you….
I also suggest that you read the articles in our extensive library of excellent articles on alcoholism and the effects on the loved ones....There are over 100 of them...so you can read and "digest" one every single day...lol...
There is sooo much to know...and, knowledge is power....
I am giving you a link to these articles (they are also in the stickies at the top of the threads)….
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...c-reading.html (Classic Reading)
Your drinking with him is not the cause of his alcoholism or his treatment of you....
Nothing that you did...or did not do....would have made a difference....
It is all within him...
3 Cs......You did not Cause it; You can't Control it' You can't Cure it....