Seekinghelp......I am giving you the following link to our extensive library of excellent articles on alcoholism and the effects on the loved ones. there are a lot of them.....you can read one every single day...lol...
There is sooo much to learn...and Knowledge is power....
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...c-reading.html (Classic Reading)
In addition, I recommend the book "CO-Dependent No More"......it is often recommended, on this site....It is an easy read, and I think that a lot will resonate with you....
It is important, I think, to arm yourself with what you need to know about what you will be up against....
I see, in your other thread, that you have thought about attending alanon....I hope that you have folloed through on that....