When I reached this intersection of my recovery path, things shifted in a Very Big Way for me.
Numbing myself emotionally through food is a lifelong habit I've only recently changed. Food has been my DOC since I was about 8, as far as I can put an actual, time-stampable memory to, at least. It spiraled into all kinds of bad habits & poor management tools over 30+ years.
My grandmother was a living model of this behavior & considering the amount of time we spent together in my early childhood, it's not a stretch to see why that is the pattern I chose to emulate.
I am finally at a point where I feel like I've beaten this forever & I'm literally in the very best shape of my life, mentally, physically & spiritually. I may stumble but I'll never fall that far down the rabbit hole again. I've shared a lot about this journey:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...uper-long.html (It's All About Me - One Year Later (super long))