Hi charliesworld
It's hard to go a different way once the idea of drinking hits you - but thats exactly what we need to do.
Like I said to someone else here today I had to accept, internalise and commit to the idea there was always something else I could do apart from drink.
No matter what the situation or the feeling, there is always another choice besides drinking and drugging.
It might be posting here, it might be going to an AA meeting (or a SMART one, or a LifeRing one) it might be calling sober friends...it might be using urge surfing, or remembering about HALT or playing the tape through.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
It might be something else you have in your recovery toolbox.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
But you need to give the idea a second thought if you want to get anywhere Charliesworld.
There's all the support in the world here, but that second thought is all down to you.
If you really can't find it in yourself to stop...think, and make that second thought, maybe you need to consider more extreme responses like inpatient or outpatient rehab?
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