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Originally Posted by
KiKi0615 Trying to start my life over and stop drinking before it kills me. I've been a horrible person while drinking & I am about to lose everything.
You said you wanted to quit before drinking killed you or you lost everything. For that kind of drinking, that's a lot of anxiety and panic attacks, if that alone is the cause.
So treat the anxiety...with professional medical care. You'll know soon enough if that's all your drinking was related to, to anxiety, and how much is addiction.