I really liked what PK and IOAA had to say.
Kath you have been a member of SR since 2012 yet have posted only 24 times.
Why not take advantage of this resource and make the most of SR? It's free.
Commit yourself to post everyday. Contribute to other people's thread (that will get you involved and out of your own head).
Join in the 24 hours recovery connection and commit daily to staying drugs and alcohol free. It s a fun supportive way to hold ourselves accountable
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...t-46-a-18.html
Also you could join the class of March where people who quit at the same time support each others through early (and later) sobriety
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-2-a-23.html
If you truly want to quit, you will have to make changes because obviously your way is not working. You can wish recovery or you can start taking
action it's up to you.