You're absolutely not hopeless Mike - I don't believe anyone here is.
I agree with Carl tho - if your only plan is not drink, that plan has let you down several times now.
You need a better plan.
You could go to AA (or non 12 step meeting based alternatives like SMART Recovery or LifeRing)
You could join the monthly thread here and check in at least every day?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...2014-a-15.html
the 24 hour recovery connections thread Nons mentioned is great too.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-6-a-11.html
Give it everything you have Mike - even you don't believe in yourself right now, there's a group of folks here who do.
Reach out and get some support.
Make this time different
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