Day zero
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Day zero
What a hopeless addict I am
spoke to doctor today and no pills just my normal anti anxiety tablets
tomorrow is the day
no plan other than not drinking but I have said this 1000 times and always fall flat on my face
actually feel ashamed posting but this is for people who are struggling and lord knows I am
Just thoughts and prayers please .....................
love to all
Mike
spoke to doctor today and no pills just my normal anti anxiety tablets
tomorrow is the day
no plan other than not drinking but I have said this 1000 times and always fall flat on my face
actually feel ashamed posting but this is for people who are struggling and lord knows I am
Just thoughts and prayers please .....................
love to all
Mike
Hi Mike.. yeah, UK Doctors don't give out tablets for withdrawals.. All I got was a packet of B vitamins.. No need to feel ashamed we have all been there.. Make sure you read the threads & post.. The people here on SR have been a life saver for me... Wishing you all the best & hang in there!!!
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SR has been a lifesaver for me too the people are brilliant
Am just starting to think the boy who cried wolf is how people will think of me
mistakes happen but mine are not ...............I think I can moderate then end up in a pit of regret / shame and guilt
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Am just starting to think the boy who cried wolf is how people will think of me
mistakes happen but mine are not ...............I think I can moderate then end up in a pit of regret / shame and guilt
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Not at all Mike.. You could relapse, moderate 1-1000 times.. We have all been there and understand how difficult it can be... People don't judge here... Just stick at it here & try not to drift off which is what I have done in the past & ended up drinking again... This time SR is permanently open & I drop in & out during the day & this time won't drift off...
That's bullsh1t.
Frustrated, irritated, angry, ashamed...I hear ya. Hopeless? NEVER!
If you have one single, solitary, lonely brain cell left that wants to be rid of this madness, then change is possible and hope is reasonable.
All of us against the addiction. Get back in the fight of your life.
You can do this.
Frustrated, irritated, angry, ashamed...I hear ya. Hopeless? NEVER!
If you have one single, solitary, lonely brain cell left that wants to be rid of this madness, then change is possible and hope is reasonable.
All of us against the addiction. Get back in the fight of your life.
You can do this.
You're absolutely not hopeless, but that is what your addiction wants you to think.
After you get away from it you will change everything about how you think.
It wants to keep you close.
Kick it to the curb and be done with it.
You can do it, friend.
After you get away from it you will change everything about how you think.
It wants to keep you close.
Kick it to the curb and be done with it.
You can do it, friend.
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thanks all for your kindness and support
lets see what tomorrow brings ......sweats/ palpitations lord knows anxiety
nothing have not done 50 times so here's to day 1
bring it on xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
lets see what tomorrow brings ......sweats/ palpitations lord knows anxiety
nothing have not done 50 times so here's to day 1
bring it on xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Good luck Mike. You CAN do this! i felt the same way last year when i hadn't gone a single day with out drinking in years. I would find a way to drink even when i was ill! When i finally decided to stop it took too many tries to count, but one day i said enough is enough. I went 9 months without a drink.
i'm back on day 4 now, but have learned from my previous mistakes, as well as my successes.
You can do this.
For me the toughest days are the first 6 or 7. It is so worth the initial pain of those first days. You are here, at SR, so not without hope.
I couldn't have began my path without the folks here.
Best of luck!
i'm back on day 4 now, but have learned from my previous mistakes, as well as my successes.
You can do this.
For me the toughest days are the first 6 or 7. It is so worth the initial pain of those first days. You are here, at SR, so not without hope.
I couldn't have began my path without the folks here.
Best of luck!
Congrats on giving sobriety another go. But if "not drinking" has been your sole plan for a 1000 times and it hasn't worked, why would you try a 1001st time. No doubt you've rejected others suggestions. Maybe it is time to reconsider.
As long as you want to quit you're not hopeless. Denial is hopeless. And even that can change. Keep plugging away. When you fall keep getting back up. Nobody is in a position to judge. The journey is different for everyone so don't compare yourself to others and let that drag you down.
You're absolutely not hopeless Mike - I don't believe anyone here is.
I agree with Carl tho - if your only plan is not drink, that plan has let you down several times now.
You need a better plan.
You could go to AA (or non 12 step meeting based alternatives like SMART Recovery or LifeRing)
You could join the monthly thread here and check in at least every day?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...2014-a-15.html
the 24 hour recovery connections thread Nons mentioned is great too.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-6-a-11.html
Give it everything you have Mike - even you don't believe in yourself right now, there's a group of folks here who do.
Reach out and get some support.
Make this time different
D
I agree with Carl tho - if your only plan is not drink, that plan has let you down several times now.
You need a better plan.
You could go to AA (or non 12 step meeting based alternatives like SMART Recovery or LifeRing)
You could join the monthly thread here and check in at least every day?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...2014-a-15.html
the 24 hour recovery connections thread Nons mentioned is great too.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-6-a-11.html
Give it everything you have Mike - even you don't believe in yourself right now, there's a group of folks here who do.
Reach out and get some support.
Make this time different
D
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Lordy what a farce
Gave in again
almost done here cos you guys can help but you cant stop me and am sick now of asking
i will get there ...............i don't have a death wish just an av that controls me like a drug .....which it is
raider i am rooting for you a small la[se is a mistake you be fine pam
good luck all of you i will be back
mike xxxxxxxxxxx
almost done here cos you guys can help but you cant stop me and am sick now of asking
i will get there ...............i don't have a death wish just an av that controls me like a drug .....which it is
raider i am rooting for you a small la[se is a mistake you be fine pam
good luck all of you i will be back
mike xxxxxxxxxxx
Mike, SR is in your corner, we all want you to beat this!!
For me I needed to revolutionise my lifestyle, are you simply trying to not drink? I found I needed to do more than that, I needed support, new activities, not just sit in my house with my thoughts, that usually ended only one way!!
I also needed to really accept, that I'm now a non drinker, no more of these thoughts of moderation etc, I was now not drinking no matter what, because that first drink always leads to the same place.
You can do this Mike, but you need to accept what the solution is to the problem and then make some big changes to achieve it!!
For me I needed to revolutionise my lifestyle, are you simply trying to not drink? I found I needed to do more than that, I needed support, new activities, not just sit in my house with my thoughts, that usually ended only one way!!
I also needed to really accept, that I'm now a non drinker, no more of these thoughts of moderation etc, I was now not drinking no matter what, because that first drink always leads to the same place.
You can do this Mike, but you need to accept what the solution is to the problem and then make some big changes to achieve it!!
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