Originally Posted by
karate 
As crazy as this sounds , drinking is not disrupting my life like it did before .
That's because you've only been drinking for about 48 hours. It will disrupt your life again if you keep it up long enough.
You need to find a plan other than White-Knuckling every day Karate. I know that's been suggested to you probably dozens of times, but it's obvious you cannot do this alone. Read back through your posts over the months and notice the pattern.
I don't know what method or plan you might use, but you have to do something. Otherwise nothing will change. I wish you the best of luck, but it's going to take more than luck - it will take action on your part. It will also take the admission that you cannot do it without help.