I also have a 10 month old son 1,000 miles away I've never got to see and drinking is 95% of the reason for that.
Sounds like someone who has the capacity to be honest with himself, not one of the "unfortunates" (re read Tomsteve's post about them, its spot on and definitely not you).
Dust yourself off and join us at the 24 hours club.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post4368384 where we commit not to drink or drug for the next 24 hours. Before you know it, those days do pile up
Since you are in AA, don't be part of the half measures club. Give it all you got and follow the suggestions.
I would also suggest you read about AVRT so next time you get the bright idea to go to the liquor store, you can recognize where it is coming from and nip it right in the bud.
You can do it and we are here for you
