Originally Posted by
Fluffhead72 
It's posts like this that scare the crap out of me...and there are so many similar stories revealed by so many people every day.
I know it's defeatist thinking to worry about more than TODAY, but that's part of the challenge for me...knowing the recitivism rate, knowing how many people reach these huge milestones (months, weeks, years) and yet still end up sacrificing their sobriety, their health, everything they've worked & struggled so hard for, by giving in to the alcoholic urge.
Never has "one day at a time" made more sense.
This is why I have convinced myself 100% that picking up is no longer an option for me. It's about "total" life style change. There are always warning signs of a relapse. I am always aware of my number one trigger "Attitude"
My higher power doesn't want me to suffer so as long as I'm aware of my attitude the doors of willingness are always open. The steps do work if your willing to let them.
"no matter what, picking up is not an option"