With the Christmas tree, call it lack of storage, call it, that the cats do like it, or that I am just too lazy to take it down. But I got my crafts, and I love to paint and be creative, so this is what I am going to do. I can do red, white and blue for Memorial Day, 4th of July and Labor Day, so that's like 6 months that I don't really have to change it.

jynx

I REALLY think you have something here jynx....go for it.
And take pictures...and YouTube it....who knows...you could be the next sensation. :)

A little more about me. I wasn't really allowed to enjoy X-Mas. It was the worst holiday for me. When I left my ex they bought a Christmas tree for their basement. I sat there each and every night looking at that tree. They never took it down. 5 years later it is still there, and decorated for each season. Mine will be in my living room. I don't go to my basement that much.

I also wasn't allowed to put up pictures or decorations on the walls. Took care of that also. (lol) I regularly go to garage sales and find things to put on my walls. Now I just need to find some more wall space. Will post pics when I do the tree.

jynx

I don't quite understand the part about the tree in the basement.
But it sounds like you have had a rough time love.
I'm glad that you can be you now, and decorate freely. :hug:

((((peeps))))). I don't have much time but wanted to let ((((jay)))) know its OK. I used to fly into fits of rage and go sorta blind. Once it passed, I always felt embarrassed and ashamed. I had reasons to be irate, and so do you. It's nothing to be ashamed of and that hurt and rage needs to come out in a safe space. I'm so proud of you. And so happy your dear A showed up. Shes very kind and I think protective of you. So, please, rage. Get it all out, so you can think straight and get some space from it, to be more objective.

((((((40T))))) So good to see you! We miss you! I love Barbarq Erenreich! she has a new book out, I can't recall the title but as soon as I can, I'll get it. I really liked "Bait and Switched" too. Excellent. I'm doing a little more political work in town. I have narrowed my focus on homelessness and hungry people. "Reagan's Refugees" we call them out here in Cali. after he closed nearly all of the mental hospitals! It's just so very wrong, the huge disparity.

(((joe))) I don't watch much cable news, it's not really news, it's political agenda pushing. I watch our local news and the BBC when I'm traveling. I do read the Economist and a few other publications.

I've got a music video channel on now and David Grohl in his "Learn to Fly" just cracks me up. I love that guy.

I need to pop out before the snow gets worse and get my stuff. I have a dinner meeting downstairs later.

Please forgive me for not adressing everyone. I plead jet lag brain splat. BBL

Much much love!

LeninaB

Jynx , I think thats a neat idea. I love a tree in the house.. it brings the outdoors in:)
glad you have your crafting,,, it is satisfying to create something.
hope the cats cooperate with you! and I am glad that you are free to express yourself in anyway that you wish, that's how it should be. I am sorry for what you had to endure, but glad you don't have to anymore.

Leelee, you are so good to take up the cause of those outcast and forgotten on the streets. how can this happen, I wonder and just can't believe it, really. but we do what we can. I have a friend in Wis. who takes bagged lunches to people.. a group of them started this and it has ballooned. the need is great, the workers few...

hope that you are feeling well, Lenina beena. we love you!

hugs to all.
chic

Lee..having to climatize (sp) must have its side effects with your health
at times as well. We very often make decisions based on snow levels
and are on to weather related needs as well. Supplies firstly..
I can only guess at times how safe we feel at times here in my neck
of the woods..your story of having to call before going to the convenience store
and taking other precautions .. it just seems so wrong. I know you are aware
and wise..just need to say..stay safe.~

Jay..no words of wisdom..just know you are cared about.

Jynx..I think you are a fun person..lots of creativity. Being who you are by
expression and art tells all. hugs.

((((Lauren)))). Yes, hopping climates isn't so good for the body. I'm getting a stuffy nose now and I'm wondering if it's the heater or the fans or the whatever? It will pass, I hope. It's gray and dismal here, got my supplies and don't have to leave the hotel at all until tomorrow.

(((((Chicory))))) I feel very, very blessed that people look out for one another. I am touched by their concern and care. And very grateful. I think crime is always up when so many dont have jobs, or hope and no possibility in sight. Sometimes a little kindness goes a long way. I do get scared sometimes but I have little choice but to plunge on. LOL

I just had my basic self defense review and I did very well! I shocked myself even! Living in a big city my whole life might keep me edgy, keep my wits honed. I think it says something about the crime level in the area I stay. I know this is coming to an end, I should be out of this in maybe 18 months...so.....fingers crossed.

I got the Ok from work to take off for the surgery. my boss said not to worry and take what I needed. We reviewed my records, I only have one absence in the last 18 months and that was the vertigo I had. .scary stuff. hasn't reoccurred. I just want everything in order before so I don't stew and fret.

I'm seeing the weather reports for the next few days, looks like some serious snow coming to the northeast.

Love from Lenina

PS. I think my country would be well served to have the high schoolers do some community services. I think if they learned young we could change things. Sheesh, my generation joined the Peace Corp! I worry we are all losing touch with the real world.

Yakkie, I hope today is better for you, other than that i can offer no wisdom because i have none, but you got it out. the way some people treat children upsets me a lot.

Amy, you might try some orange scented spray around the doors. Cats are supposed to hate citrus? i once wrapped an entire chair in aluminum foil but the one cat destroyed it (RIP Wylie Coyote).

Fandy, that was one street fighting kind of feline to take out a chair wrapped in tin foil!

Yes, how people can do violence to a child is beyond me.

Love from Lenina

Try to buy some insurance today for a trailer I bought for my company that I just started, the fellow I bought the trailer from didn't know the proper procedure for the province I live in and it's a bit of a mess right now.
Insurance company is going to phone me when it's all straightened out.

And some other stuff happened yada yada yada… Now I'm at home waiting for the insurance company to call, snuggling my cat :)

LeeLee - YAY on getting the time off for the surgery! I truly hope that makes you feel a lot better. Love how you are helping out the people who are struggling so much, often through no fault of their own.

Jynx - Love the tree idea! The last man I sat with, that had alzheimers, kept telling us it was time to get the Christmas tree out - it was August. His granddaughter and I were going to get a small tree, decorate it for Halloween, then Thanksgiving, but he got worse, forgot about the tree and died in Sept. I still think it's a great idea!

Joe - My dad listens to news nonstop. When I used to travel with him, to help him drive, it depressed me. I took my mp3 along and listened to music. I agree with Chic - we don't often hear about the good stuff nearly enough.

40 - So good to see you!!!

Love to Jay, Venus, Lauren, Norty, Fandy and everyone!

I wasn't aching, nearly as bad, today, did a lot of walking and enjoyed getting to wear jeans and a t-shirt to work:)

Rainy and nasty hear, but sunshine coming some time tomorrow. Going to TN, so will miss dog training with M:( I've got to counteract the chunk of money they will be taking out of my check for insurance, but it will work out.

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

I don't really have much to say right now other than confirm that yes, I am glad A was there. One reason I like her is cause she is confident with me, perhaps cautious too, but not nervous like every other therapist I meet in this place. I can tell when I meet them if they are unsure of themselves around me and it puts me off. If they're not confident then I'm not either. Just like a dog...they pick up on things in the way we walk or talk that we otherwise don't notice. It is like that with the people I meet sometimes...but A has never been like that. She knows me and even when enraged, like yesterday, she does not fear me (although it's not like there really ever is a reason to fear me, I'm no hulk). She was calm and collected, I give her credit, because if she wasn't I wouldn't have calmed down myself. She can be what I need her to be whether it is a quiet comfort or a call-me-on-my-crap presence and she usually knows what is warranted for the situation. It is hard, I think, even for her as a professional who sees this kind of stuff everyday, to actively see the pain it causes. She was not without a few words for me yesterday that I will never forget.

I am feeling pretty sad today...and the voices are still rolling... perhaps not as much, it is hard to tell amidst everything else on my mind. I was reassigned to a new female psychologist and she's alright. Less annoying.

Oh, I had to go see the director of the ward too who told me that was the first time in months a psychologist had to use their panic button...Do I feel accomplished or what, lol. "No more outbursts" he says. I replied with something unsavory to him that he did not dignify with a response. No skin off my back (the darkest of all dark humor)...Laugh with me, I am trying not to be sad.

We are with you Jay. ((((hugs))) ♥♥

Have a safe trip Ames. :hug:

I'm having a really bad day here. Lost my firefox on my computer. Lost Internet Explorer for while also. Really surprised it worked now. Just so happy to be back on here, even though I don't know how I did it. May be time for a new computer. It takes me over 10 minutes to even get a connection. Firefox is still not working. It says "Your firefox profile cannot be loaded. It may be missing or inaccessible." Having a really bad day, and don't know anything about computers. I know my fan doesn't work on the computer and I can't get in the back of the laptop to fix that. The screw is stripped. I now use a cooling pad, but even with that, the computer just shuts down a lot. I can't watch any videos on here now, it overheats and shuts off.

Anyway, enough complaints from me today. I am smarted then that darn computer, I got back on here !!!!!

Now can someone tell me how to change a light bulb without going on the internet to figure out how to change a light bulb. What happened to those light bulbs that would just screw in and screw out.

I'm just so frustrated today. Still don't know how to fix this computer, or if I should even bother. I got it in 2009 refurbished. Is it going to cost me $200 or more to fix it and for it to still be as slow as it was?

Perhaps should have put all of that in the whiner section.

What I am grateful for today, is that I did get back on, don't know how, but if I go M.I.A., it's because I don't know what I am doing !!!!!!

Ok, cat situation, going to try the orange smell stuff first, (thanks Fandy). I did read that cats don't like that smell, if that doesn't work will try the tin foil, want to hold off on the tape for awhile, since it may take off the finish. But I'll do that also, this is war.

Live in Pa. Thanks Lenina for letting me know that snow is on it's way. I actually did put the news on today to check on that, and I don't watch the news, but computer was broken.

Ok, now to try to figure out how to use internet explorer.

Love always,
jynx

jynx ~ you may need to reinstall Firefox. Uninstall and reinstall.
If IE is working, you can ask the internet how to do this if you are not certain. :hug:

Perhaps if you uninstall and reinstall firefox you might be able to get it running again. Although it sounds like your computer is reaching the point of old age. Mine is a 2010 and it's "up there" in computer years. Windows Laptops (if that's what you're using) are only really good for 3-5 years now. Macs are more 5-6 probably (I have a mac--aka my child that I hope never breaks because I will never be able to replace it with another one).

Well ((Vee)) - You beat me to it.

Hey Jay,

Was posting the same time you were. I know what you talk about when you talk about like animal instincts. We all have them. You know who you are a good fit with and when you are not. Glad "A" was there for you, and also happy that you got reassigned to someone that may be a better fit for you.

((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
jynx

I did actually try to uninstall then reinstall. It didn't work, tried to restore it back to some earlier point. Said I had an anti virus thing running that was stopping the restoration. Stopped all of those, same thing. Anti virus this is running. Making me crazy because I am learning more about computers, or not learning anything about computers except that I finally got back on here.

I think I have everything disabled, and I don't think that is really good, but don't know. Just needed to feel like I had a connection to the world again.