If anyone belongs here it *is* you hun. You are honest, thats good enough... because through that we can try to help. If you were lying about sober time it would be a waste of your and our time. You arent.

Look: This board got me clean, I dont know how, I dont know why , all I know it is got me clean and with it I am staying clean.

You said you feel bad because you WANT to use so you shouldnt be here. Sweetie, we ALL want to use, thats why we are and always will be addicts.

The only thing that sets you apart is you are an active user. BUT because of your honesty in that, we can help you hun. Stay near the board. You, if anyone truly belongs here. Please, think about that.