I'm praying for you honey. Keep talking about your feelings. Do not let them stay bottled up. |
thanx for letting me know that all of you care... it's just i feel so empty without her... and i didn't even make it in time to say good-bye... it's eatting away at my heart |
megan, how do i now say good-bye... i miss you already. i'm sorry i didn't make it in time. why did you ask for me before you died? it makes it hurt so much more knowing you needed me and i didn't make it. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i should have never moved... maybe it wouldn't have happened. me not believing in god makes this difficult... where are you now?... you were a strong believer so i guess if there is a such place as heaven you're there. i hope so... maybe your life is better somehow. i love you sooooo much. i went to your funeral today. i didn't even get to see you. "closed casket" i wanted to say good-bye. but most of all i'm selfish for wanting you here. i can't be strong without you. you were the crutch for my sadness... you kept me from cutting. i cant do this without you. i miss you. why can't you just come back?!?!?! I know you can't... and i'm sorry even more that you can't. i love you so much... and please if it's possible... well send me a sign letting me know you're ok... I'll love and miss you forever and in my heart you will live..... Cristin |
Originally Posted by sad_lonely_tear i love you so much... and please if it's possible... well send me a sign letting me know you're ok... I'll love and miss you forever and in my heart you will live..... Cristin Love Vic |
vic....... i'm crying now.... this morning before the sun came up... well it was cloudy and drizzeling... i was sitting outside on the frount porch getting some air... well the craziest thing happened i saw like 3 shooting stars... right in frount of the clouds and lightning... i think that was my sign... |
:vg Just want you to know my friend that I believe that there is some sort of mistical power out there and he is talking to both of us right now. CAN YOU FEEL IT (((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))) Love Vic :wave: |
I don't really believe in the whole "mystical power" thing but i do believe that there was a sign... i took a nap today and had a dream about my friend megan. she told me to stay strong and that everything would be ok. so today i went through a bunch of stuff that i still haven't unpacked and found lotz of things of our past together... it brought back so many memories that i had forgotten... i talked to her mom earlier too. she found letters and notes from when me and megan were in high school that she had kept... she's sending them too me. i think re-reading them will help. god i miss her so much. and i really wish she was here... i hope time will heal my pain. |
Time will help my friend I do know that much and I am glad that you got the sign that you believe in |
Sad, I am so sorry for the loss of your best friend. I am at a loss of words but I do know the loss of friends in death. You were blessed with a sign. Take care |
i've gone so long w/out self-injury. last night i broke down... 35 cuts.... i think one might of needed stiches but hell what do i know i'm not a doctor... i just want to be left alone... my family doesn't understand that. i'm going insaine.... |
Originally Posted by sad_lonely_tear i just want to be left alone... my family doesn't understand that. i'm going insaine.... Love Vic |
DREAMER OF HELL A dreamer of hell The cast of spells Falling in shadows deep DArkening thoughts come to creep Bloodshot eyes Only to dispise A heart of loneliness A soul of emptiness The voice of the calling The tears are falling From the dreamer of hell That slowly fell Into the dark Of a lonely heart Fell too deep Will no longer sleep A soul that yearns Will forever burn The only cost A life forever lost -------Cristin |
Well that all described me to the tee, I will keep trying to do what I feel is right and hope that someday there will be light. Love Vic |
Cristin, I can still see the light of falling stars Megan sent you in my minds eye. Get a hold of a glimmer of that star light and hold on tight and believe. Cristin please keep those cuts clean and covered. If you think you have cut a deep enough wound that need stitches please see a medical specalist. "Stay strong everything will be alright." |
The calling of A searching Heart Lonely tears fall Nights break us all Down deep inside The soul threatens to cry Forever Falling A heart that's calling Searching for what's not there Always left in dispair The darkness fill The heart it kills A bottomless pit With pieces that don't fit A river of tears A valley of fears With no one there To show they care A doy filled with fright Of the forever falling night Slipping, falling Searching, calling A heart that will never sleep And will forever silently weep ------------Cristin |
gawd my nights are restless... i can't sleep. i have so much on my mind that wont escape. i'm so tired of being tired. heh go figure. i miss megan soo much. but hell my house is soooooo clean now. gives me something to do. i just keep telling myself to stay busy and you wont hurt. heh. doesn't work. gawd i want to cry. i wish i could. |
I wish you a lot of sthrenght with the loss of your friend.. And all the other pains you are goin' through...LOVE FROM Stefanie hug |
something i found that might help i fill out these questions everytime i feel the need to cut. i have been doing it for a little while now and the more i fill them out the more in depth i get. i am progressing to know why i do it and how to stop. 1.Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? 2.Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? 3.What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? 4.How do I feel right now? 5.How will I feel when I am hurting myself? 6.How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning? 7.Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future? 8.Do I need to hurt myself? |
I came by to give you a big angel hug. ((((((SadLonelyTear))))))) |
thanx for the hugs... means alot |
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