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*Ring Ring* Weekender August 12th Part 2 |
New thread, new start. This thread could very well be someone's first experience of SR. Let's show them what this place is all about :) D |
Thanks Dee! Shotgun :) |
Shotgun I believe. |
Doh! ☺☺☺☺ |
Had a great day. Took Mrs B for part 2 of her pottery lesson: glazing her creations. They now need to stay in the kiln overnight. The potters studio is right in the countryside. Serene place. Watched Suffragette tonight. Powerful movie. Was not aware that women were unable to vote in Switzerland until the 70s! |
Sweet tooth for real today. Sodas milkshakes slurpees smoothies all day. I was tired today but i didnt take any naps. So maybe thats a good sign im healing or it could be the pound of sugar products i drank. Hopefully i can sleep tonight instead of being up till 230am Today was rough. I kept thinking about drinking. Even trying to convince myself it will be ok. But i recognize it and i wont drink just for that reason alone. Just so i can say my will is stronger then anything. |
It was acceptance that got me there rather than willpower coingod - although we may very well mean the same thing. I just accepted I couldn't drink and be the person I wanted to be. D |
Yea i know what you mean. Thats how i was feeling all week. I even went to the bar for food twice.like this is my choice. I think the more i feel better. The more i feel like i could drink. Like its easy when you feel like **** and hungover not to drink. But now i got a little perk back in me. But i know if i drink it will go away |
That voice in your head telling you it would be ok to drink is your alcoholic voice (AV) and it's a big fat liar who wants you to fail. Tell that voice to go to H*ll. |
coingod, have you heard the phrase, "Play it through?" When you feel like a drink is a good idea play that thought all the way out - past the ten minute buzz, all the way through the lost money, the embarrassing and/or dangerous behaviors, the sloppy drunk, the possible blackout, the hangover and the self-loathing that comes with it. That's what drinking means to me. Nothing good. Then come on here and read. There is a deep fount of wisdom in these forums. BTW, you don't drink. In! http://25.media.tumblr.com/45b490e50...d2bno1_500.gif |
From the AVRT (Addictive Voice Recognition Technique) website: "Your Addictive Voice (AV) is any thinking that supports or suggests the possible future use of alcohol or other drugs. Your AV is the sole cause of your addiction. Your Beast speaks with awesome authority, but it is a mere desire, utterly powerless, a dependent quadriplegic unable to wiggle your fingers." |
Wow. Didnt know that was really a thing. So I'm not a drunk crazy person. Cool. |
Originally Posted by biminiblue
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coingod, have you heard the phrase, "Play it through?" When you feel like a drink is a good idea play that thought all the way out - past the ten minute buzz, all the way through the lost money, the embarrassing and/or dangerous behaviors, the sloppy drunk, the possible blackout, the hangover and the self-loathing that comes with it. That's what drinking means to me. Nothing good. Then come on here and read. There is a deep fount of wisdom in these forums. BTW, you don't drink. In! http://25.media.tumblr.com/45b490e50...d2bno1_500.gif |
I love that, lunar. I've never seen that before. Thanks. No, coingod, you are not a crazy person. Well, you might be, but if you are, then I am too. And probably almost every person on this site. And the odds are against that. :) |
Marty, I'll see your 24 hours and raise you 24 lol! I had godson over 48 hours this weekend and I'm pooped but in a good way! And yes, I already miss him but he'll be back Friday yay! Ditto what everyone's said about recognizing your AV and playing the tape through. Life is so much better when booze isn't in the mix or even on the table as an option. xo |
One of the things I did in early recovery is make a timeline story about my drinking. coingod, it's a great thing to have to be able to read back on and see the progressive bad behavior. From the teenage keggers right up to the lurking under a dangerous criminal's balcony trying to, "catch them in a lie," while chugging rum and falling over - and everything in between...the drunk facebook posts, the lurid text messages, the going to ten different stores so the clerks wouldn't know, the midnight recycling on the down-low, the ten mile drive home that becomes twenty because, "There aren't cops on the back roads." Then driving my car off the road and leaving it there, wrecked. Ugh. I'm lucky that no one was hurt. So lucky. I have pages and pages of that kind of stuff - most of which I would never talk about online or out loud, it's that embarrassing or scary. |
I'm working on a similar story. I titled it Madness |
Haha one time i met a customer and fell over in the street right in the middle of our negotiations. I got a public drunkenness because i fell asleep in my car. I was so passed out the cop had to drag me across the street. I woke up halfway and thought i was in a car accident. |
Brynn and Marty, watching the kids is exhausting but such a relief for the parents. You're both awesome for doing that. Made it to Iowa. Went to dinner. Waitress came around to take drink orders and I got iced tea. My mother says "ooh. Sorry! I ordered a drink." I told her it was OK. I didn't mind and didn't miss it. The beer in the fridge though was more tempting. But it's not my house. Not my fridge. Weasel I hope you feel better. I saw a trailer for J.K. Rowling's Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. It looks really cool. |
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