*Ring Ring* Weekender August 12th Part 2
 

last part here

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-1-a.html

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New thread, new start.
This thread could very well be someone's first experience of SR.

Let's show them what this place is all about :)

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Thanks Dee!


Shotgun :)

Shotgun I believe.

Doh! ☺☺☺☺

Had a great day. Took Mrs B for part 2 of her pottery lesson: glazing her creations. They now need to stay in the kiln overnight. The potters studio is right in the countryside. Serene place.

Watched Suffragette tonight. Powerful movie. Was not aware that women were unable to vote in Switzerland until the 70s!

Sweet tooth for real today. Sodas milkshakes slurpees smoothies all day.

I was tired today but i didnt take any naps. So maybe thats a good sign im healing or it could be the pound of sugar products i drank. Hopefully i can sleep tonight instead of being up till 230am


Today was rough. I kept thinking about drinking. Even trying to convince myself it will be ok. But i recognize it and i wont drink just for that reason alone. Just so i can say my will is stronger then anything.

It was acceptance that got me there rather than willpower coingod - although we may very well mean the same thing.

I just accepted I couldn't drink and be the person I wanted to be.

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Yea i know what you mean. Thats how i was feeling all week. I even went to the bar for food twice.like this is my choice.

I think the more i feel better. The more i feel like i could drink. Like its easy when you feel like **** and hungover not to drink. But now i got a little perk back in me. But i know if i drink it will go away

That voice in your head telling you it would be ok to drink is your alcoholic voice (AV) and it's a big fat liar who wants you to fail. Tell that voice to go to H*ll.

coingod, have you heard the phrase, "Play it through?" When you feel like a drink is a good idea play that thought all the way out - past the ten minute buzz, all the way through the lost money, the embarrassing and/or dangerous behaviors, the sloppy drunk, the possible blackout, the hangover and the self-loathing that comes with it. That's what drinking means to me.

Nothing good.

Then come on here and read. There is a deep fount of wisdom in these forums.

BTW, you don't drink.

In!

http://25.media.tumblr.com/45b490e50...d2bno1_500.gif

Wow. Didnt know that was really a thing. So I'm not a drunk crazy person. Cool.

This was awesome. I need to like tattoo that on me. The play it through, not the kitty but the kitty is awesome too

I love that, lunar. I've never seen that before. Thanks.
No, coingod, you are not a crazy person. Well, you might be, but if you are, then I am too. And probably almost every person on this site. And the odds are against that. :)

Marty, I'll see your 24 hours and raise you 24 lol! I had godson over 48 hours this weekend and I'm pooped but in a good way! And yes, I already miss him but he'll be back Friday yay!

Ditto what everyone's said about recognizing your AV and playing the tape through. Life is so much better when booze isn't in the mix or even on the table as an option.
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One of the things I did in early recovery is make a timeline story about my drinking. coingod, it's a great thing to have to be able to read back on and see the progressive bad behavior.

From the teenage keggers right up to the lurking under a dangerous criminal's balcony trying to, "catch them in a lie," while chugging rum and falling over - and everything in between...the drunk facebook posts, the lurid text messages, the going to ten different stores so the clerks wouldn't know, the midnight recycling on the down-low, the ten mile drive home that becomes twenty because, "There aren't cops on the back roads." Then driving my car off the road and leaving it there, wrecked. Ugh. I'm lucky that no one was hurt. So lucky.

I have pages and pages of that kind of stuff - most of which I would never talk about online or out loud, it's that embarrassing or scary.

I'm working on a similar story.
I titled it Madness

Haha one time i met a customer and fell over in the street right in the middle of our negotiations.
I got a public drunkenness because i fell asleep in my car. I was so passed out the cop had to drag me across the street. I woke up halfway and thought i was in a car accident.

Brynn and Marty, watching the kids is exhausting but such a relief for the parents. You're both awesome for doing that.

Made it to Iowa. Went to dinner. Waitress came around to take drink orders and I got iced tea. My mother says "ooh. Sorry! I ordered a drink." I told her it was OK. I didn't mind and didn't miss it. The beer in the fridge though was more tempting. But it's not my house. Not my fridge.

Weasel I hope you feel better.

I saw a trailer for J.K. Rowling's Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. It looks really cool.

Goodnight, folks. I set my alarm for 3 so I can get up and try to see perseids. We will see if I actually get up. :)

I'm having a productive day today. Made a list and I'm checking it off. So satisfying getting stuff done.

This time last week I bought 2 bottles to get absolutely out of my head and I poured them out.
Today I can't imagine why I bought them.. But I could of drank them and god knows what could have happened.

Feeling better doesn't mean cured .. Feeling better means 'take care, go slow.. Be mindful!'.

We can't go back.

Good for you for dumping them trees...it was a wise decision. I'm glad you are feeling good. And I agree about productivity. I can't believe how much I get accomplished these days. It feels so good. Life is manageable.
Talk about being productive. ...I knitted for hours tonight. I got everything done but the button bands. The hood took forever. Then I sew it all together and it's done!! I love it...although my grand baby daughter won't be able to wear it for a while. It's 12 month size and she's 5 months old. :)
It cooled down quite a bit here. Feels like fall. I took a nice evening walk with my furry babies tonight. It was their reward for keeping me company while I knitted and watched 24 on amazon. ...not netflix.
Ok...I'm pooped. Gonna take it easy again tomorrow. I was going to go to the lake but I think I'll stay home. Maybe go to the pool for some laps. Maybe I can finish the sweater. :)
Good night!

Good morning

HaF knitting has undergone a resurgence in the UK

There is a lot of boat traffic on the canal this morning

These pics are taken from roughly the same spot. The black and white one is from a local historical site it dates from 1972 but looks older to me

Is it quite today or I'm I getting chattier?

I made a list of all the times I regretted drinking versus the times I enjoyed it.

The list of regrets is so long and the memories.. Ouch .. Not wallowing, just reminding myself.. All part of my plan.

Duh! You are asleep or just getting up :)

Almost slipped tonight. I got ready, was about to hit the door and head to the liquor store, but I stopped myself, got back in my PJ's, and binged on tacos instead 😂

That's great work Forward :)

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Thanks for the new part D & big welcome to any newcomers or guests

In this together x