Awesome work Volshen! Good luck with your new job and GF moving in.

Day 44.

Awesome Volshen! How is the move in going?

Inspiring thread.

I can understand wanting an agnostic sponsor... personally struggled in AA for a couple years and unfortunately lost the desire to continue. I don't label myself as anything, never really cared to look into what agnostic/atheist means, but perhaps if I found others with similar beliefs (non-beliefs) things between me and AA would have worked out differently... oh well.

I wish you well!

I'm sorry to hear about your situation. As far as your agnostic sponsor, I wouldn't consider them to be in AA if they have no belief in a higher being. Just saying. If AA doesn't work for you, there are plenty of programs that can help you regain your life - but all of them require abstinence and action.

Keep your head up.

Your doing great Volshen

Day 49.

That's great going Volshen :)
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Congrats on 49 days!! :scoregood Keep going, it gets better. :)

Good for you volshen :) been following your thread. It makes me happy to hear!

Good job. Be proud.

Thank you everyone.

Day 50.

Great job on 50 days Volshen!!!

Thank you Delilah.

Big congrats from me Volshen :You_Rock_

Thank you Soberwolf.

50 is great Volshen - congrats :)
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Day 55.

:You_Rock_ you're doing awesome!! I hope you treat yourself to something special to reward and have pride in yourself
You deserve it with many smiles :D

Congrats!!

Thank you Delizadee and Della.

Fantastic Volshen :)

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I am starting the full time job tomorrow that I had mentioned a while back.

That means that it will take me about a month to save up the money to get an apartment. I have been living with my father.

I'm getting close to 2 months sober ... a record for me. But I know a big help has been living here. He's an alcoholic with 6 years sobriety .. goes to A.A every day and told me if he caught me drinking he'd kick me out.

With no place to go if kicked out I decided not to even entertain the thought of drinking here.

He's happy with me .. my mother is happy with me .. girlfriend and her family are happy ... everyone worried about me for a long time. I don't ever want to go back to drinking.

But I have to be real ... I know when I get my own apartment it would only take 1 wrong choice to send me directly back to the hell I was in nearly 2 months ago.

So I have a month to prepare.

Volshen

Congrats Volshen

Sounds like you are on the right track. So happy to hear that! Keep going. God gave you another chance!

I got sober for my ex a couple of times because I thought it would keep us together, it ended up with me drinking when we would get into fights just to spite him when really all I was doing was harming myself. Get sober because you want to be sober, not to keep your relationship.

Congrats on the job Volshen.

When you get that apartment, why not have a support network in place?
Something face to face like AA or SMART or LifeRing could be good?

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