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A healing weekender April 29 part 1 Healing is ongoing for me. From my childhood abuse. From my drinking shame. From my drugged up actions and exploits. From the people I have hurt including myself. Healing often seems impossible. That's when I would throw my hands up and drink again. That same old pattern over and over. But I have come to accept that healing is a lesson in understanding; and the more I practice it the better I become. Thanks to SR for exposing me to a super concentrated classroom of people from around the world, all sharing the healing they so badly want. For each other and for ourselves. SR might be a crash course in many things really. But I have found it to be one of healing for me. The weekender threads have done so much in continuing to teach me the lesson of healing and allowing me the opportunity to practice it. Thank you! Welcome to your sober weekend! Ken :bus:bus:bus:bus:bus |
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Wow! That was a fast draw there cardoon! Good to see you! |
Hi weasel . SR has been a huge help to me. I read nearly every day. I spent a lot of time in the seculR connection threads early on. There is some great practice information there on quitting and getting your mind right. Nearly a year ago I took up daily mediation. That has been helpful in my sober jouney. There is so much personal stuff to work on and when I make it a fun game and not a laborious chore I can make a lot of progress. That's my take on healing right now. |
I'm on! Thank you K - a fine theme for this weekend. Congratulations on a quick draw shot gun Cardoon! This weekend, I will be contributing to a "Meitheal" (MEH-hull) in Mrs B's sister's house in the West of Ireland. Meitheal means a working party, joining efforts toward a shared goal. This Irish word refers to the tradition of a group of neighbouring farmers coming together for a number of days to reap corn, pick potatoes, etc. No pay was involved but the recipient of the help was expected to provide hospitality. In a way, the weekender is a regular Meitheal, as we work at maintaining our sobriety and the healing that brings, together, in the spirit of fellowship, encouragement, and hospitality. My best wishes, B |
Cardoon that's very good advice to new people. I try to read as much as I can here on SR. It's been a real life saver. Literally. Wow Mr. Behan. Thanks for that. What a wonderful thing to participate in. Have fun and tell us all about it. |
Count me in. I woke up and couldn't fall right back to sleep so I figured I would check in. Thanks for the thread Ken. Congrats cardoon. morning behan. |
I'm in. Healing sounds good. Xx |
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Popcorn :herewego |
I always love the intro to these awesome threads thank you Ken I'm definitely in riding the roof always http://i.picresize.com/images/2016/04/28/nFkIf.jpg |
This is hilarious i was almost crying with laughter by the ending Magician Convinces Woman To Believe They Discovered An Alien Species. Her Reaction Is Priceless |
I'm in. |
howitzer? |
Morning all and I'm in for this Sober weekend, celebrating 4 months on Sunday-:) Thank you Ken for the lovely theme. I have many hurts to heal and SR is my soft place to land. Those are some wise words Behan and the Meitheal concept sounds like a great way to spend the weekend. Look forward to hearing more about it! |
I'm in for a sober weekend! |
Originally Posted by Weasel1966
(Post 5927170)
But I have come to accept that healing is a lesson in understanding; and the more I practice it the better I become. |
Accordion ;) |
Healing… While working in the yard I get a lot of time to think. Recently (yesterday) I was going over my life a bit. And meditating on some things, and sometimes just being with the birds and experiencing ‘life’ outside. I’ve done a lot of damage in my time. And now that I have few real friends is a testament to how drinking altered my personality at times. I can’t change others nor can I change others opinions or experiences of me. Sure I can take the opportunities to make things right with people. But still it is up to them to forgive past behaviors. I know I tried and the only real thing I can do is live better and not make the same mistakes going forward. Living sober is all I can do now. Knowing that I am doing my best now, for me, is enough to overcome the feelings of disappointment I have allowed my past to manifest in myself and others in me over time. I cannot dwell on the past, but occasionally use it as a reminder… I am still caught in a funk. Knowing that every job opportunity, in my field, that there is a nationwide bulletin on the internet if the person vetting candidates will find easily. It is on my mind a lot. All you have to do is “google” ‘LBrain’ and sure as *** it shows up. Having worked a job that took up what seemed like 90% of my life, most of my social connections were with ‘work’ people. Work people have abandoned me – I am not good company to keep it seems. Now, the few friends I have are scattered or busy with their own lives. SR has become my social connection, and my solace. Meitheal, is a good example of how SR has helped me the past couple years. Reading about other’s successes or how they are coping with life is inspiration for me. I was fortunate that I just decided to quit drinking and was able to do it. It was by no means easy. But I made a commitment to myself that I was never going to allow alcohol to affect my life ever again. If you don’t know, I lost my career due to an alcohol related event (the google reference above). In retrospect I am amazed I made it as far as I did. SR has broadened my outlook and I have learned much from the many who frequent these pages. And I count you all as my friends. I sometimes ask for advice without really asking. Or I perused the forums and picked up a few tidbits of information that has helped me along the way. You've all been a part of my healing process. Thanks everyone. |
In. Good morning everyone. Great post, Brain. Marty, I hope you're feeling better. Thanks Ken for starting us off. Bandicoot, congrats on almost 4 months. Safe trip Sao |
1 Attachment(s) sorry for the long post, hope you didn't fall asleep if you read it... well, accordion to the weather report, it's going to be raining good by 3PM (1500 for Brynn). So I better get out there and take care of things that require 'dry'. Still much planting to do all over the place. And I have to repair the area I dug out the trees two weekends ago... oh, a howitzer ;) |
Great post, Brain. It echoes a lot of my feelings. I Dont have very many friends either, or so I thought. I'm finding now, though, that they are still out there, if I can get over my fear and reach out to them. Thanks for asking, Ruby. When I woke up at midnight feeling really bad, I took a bunch of ibuprofen and then woke up a few hours later, completely soaked. So the fever broke. I'm happy that my sore throat is gone, so at least I know I'm not getting strep this time. I get it more frequently than most, and can get so sick I need to be hospitalized. It's not that. I think I'm just getting a cold. I just feel tired and a bit weak. I'll be ok. |
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Spudgun Great title for the thread Ken - I'm still healing from my childhood too LB, that was a touching post - you are not the same man that appears on that bulletin and I 'm sure there will be people out there who recognise that as the people on this thread do Behan, that Meitheal sounds like it comes out of a great community Congratulations on shotgun cardoon |
I am done here in Downham Market - actually it doesn't look bad |
Originally Posted by Fabela
(Post 5927272)
I have been desperate in my search for ways to heal my battered soul, and there have been times when I have thought that I would never heal at all. But here you have described exactly what I have been looking for for so long. Thank you, Ken. :hug: Ken |
Originally Posted by LBrain
(Post 5927293)
Healing… While working in the yard I get a lot of time to think. Recently (yesterday) I was going over my life a bit. And meditating on some things, and sometimes just being with the birds and experiencing ‘life’ outside. I’ve done a lot of damage in my time. And now that I have few real friends is a testament to how drinking altered my personality at times. I can’t change others nor can I change others opinions or experiences of me. Sure I can take the opportunities to make things right with people. But still it is up to them to forgive past behaviors. I know I tried and the only real thing I can do is live better and not make the same mistakes going forward. Living sober is all I can do now. Knowing that I am doing my best now, for me, is enough to overcome the feelings of disappointment I have allowed my past to manifest in myself and others in me over time. I cannot dwell on the past, but occasionally use it as a reminder… I am still caught in a funk. Knowing that every job opportunity, in my field, that there is a nationwide bulletin on the internet if the person vetting candidates will find easily. It is on my mind a lot. All you have to do is “google” ‘LBrain’ and sure as *** it shows up. Having worked a job that took up what seemed like 90% of my life, most of my social connections were with ‘work’ people. Work people have abandoned me – I am not good company to keep it seems. Now, the few friends I have are scattered or busy with their own lives. SR has become my social connection, and my solace. Meitheal, is a good example of how SR has helped me the past couple years. Reading about other’s successes or how they are coping with life is inspiration for me. I was fortunate that I just decided to quit drinking and was able to do it. It was by no means easy. But I made a commitment to myself that I was never going to allow alcohol to affect my life ever again. If you don’t know, I lost my career due to an alcohol related event (the google reference above). In retrospect I am amazed I made it as far as I did. SR has broadened my outlook and I have learned much from the many who frequent these pages. And I count you all as my friends. I sometimes ask for advice without really asking. Or I perused the forums and picked up a few tidbits of information that has helped me along the way. You've all been a part of my healing process. Thanks everyone. Ken |
I'm in. . . lots to do but glad to be here |
Originally Posted by MLD51
(Post 5927329)
Great post, Brain. It echoes a lot of my feelings. I Dont have very many friends either, or so I thought. I'm finding now, though, that they are still out there, if I can get over my fear and reach out to them. Thanks for asking, Ruby. When I woke up at midnight feeling really bad, I took a bunch of ibuprofen and then woke up a few hours later, completely soaked. So the fever broke. I'm happy that my sore throat is gone, so at least I know I'm not getting strep this time. I get it more frequently than most, and can get so sick I need to be hospitalized. It's not that. I think I'm just getting a cold. I just feel tired and a bit weak. I'll be ok. Ahh! Pub lunch with my clients - wasn't expecting that No problem in one respect as I have a longish drive home but it was a struggle as others were drinking. About to head home thank goodness |
I'm on board! I'm in a hurry to get out the door but I did skim y'all's thoughtful and heartfelt posts. I'll really read them in a bit, but wanted to say how much I appreciate being on this journey of self discovery with all of you! You're the finest bunch of miscreants I know! :) Glad you feel better Marty! Xo |
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