Worst hangover of my life !
 

IF THIS HELPS JUST ONE PERSON , ITS WORTH BEING GRAPHIC

I have just experienced & am still experiencing the worst hangover of my life.

Thinking I could moderate drinking after 2 years of sobriety was an absolute lie I told myself.

Just think before you pick up that first drink , what could be awaiting you tomorrow and yes even the day after!

The waking then sussing out how bad you are going to feel.
Yep , I knew instantly it was gonna be bad .

The griping pain , diarreah, dry vomitting on and off all day long , no respite.
Impending doom , with the heart pumping so hard it pounds upon my pillow & feels like it's gonna burst out of my chest. The restless jumpy legs , the fear I may just lie here & die as it feels like that anyhow.
Dry mouth , more horribly gripey bowel pains, more diarreah .The desperation to just sleep it off knowing that sleep will be elusive. Time goes so slow, it's excruciating.

ITS DISGUSTING . I should have known this was coming. I just kept pushing it that bit further!

& the very worst part . My Mum & Dad dropped in for an impromptu visit ! Why today , oh god why !

I look like crap. I had to come up with another lie , I love them dearly but desperately needed them to leave me to my suffering.

ITS JUST NOT WORTH THIS AGONY :-(

no matter how far along we get into our sobriety or if we are newly into it , always take yourself back to how your worst hangover.

NO MORE !

Today is my lesson , tomorrow is my new life

Xxx

Dear sweet Snoozy; hugs for you.

I really feel for you; my heart broke, simply broke for you when I read through this thread and your recent thread.

You will get through this, Snooz, and come out stronger on the other side and we will help you.

Spend today in recovery; eat small, simple, healthy meals; drink plenty of water; get fresh air (go for a short walk of sit on a park bench and take in some sun); have a warm bubble bath tonight and try to get to bed early.

Spend tomorrow thinking of ways to expand your toolbox (AA, ftf counseling , investigate RR and AVRT). Stay close to SR.

Be proud of your daughter that she cared enough to question you; that took love and guts.

Both of my parents were alcoholics - my Dad (a truly good man who I don't want to disparage) was more of the binge variety but the binges became more frequent over time. I remember my first realization of his extreme drunkenness as if it was yesterday; it cut like a knife and the burning ache continued for days; I guess it was the end of innocence for me.

My Dad never turned himself around but YOU can; you have already proven that in a strong, courageous and impressive way.

So, as terribly as you are feeling today, welcome to Day 1; it is the hardest day but it is the day the magic begins.

Much love to you, Snooz.

Sounds very familiar. I relapsed after 88 days, went on a 3-day bender. You're describing my past Sunday. I need to remember this. It gets worse every time.

My heart goes out to you, water and Candy Crush is highly recommended. Tomorrow will be better.

I drank myself to alcohol poisoning, choked on vomit, and was so ill I wanted to die. You'd think that would be enough to stop anybody. I drank for another 35 years.

I couldn't stay sober with a deterrent-based recovery model. I had to learn to embrace sobriety and figure out how to handle life without running to alcohol.

Hope you can too.

Dig deep Snoozy. You have the power, strength and courage to make this happen.

Thanks for your post. You are helping others with your insight; me included. I've got a tough trip coming up next weekend; fun, but I know drinking will enter my mind. I've just past one year sober and my mind is starting to slip a bit.

Your post brought me back to 21 years of feeling like crap, every day, more or less.

Thanks and be good to yourself.

Unfortunately, the memories of the agony suffered during most hangovers fade with time.
Try this. Get 2 wash clothes and dip in ice water, put 1 on the back of your neck and 1 on your forehead just covering you eyes. Relief is temporary (until the cloth warms up) but for a few minutes it really helps.

I am so sorry to read this, Snoozy. you have been such a great inspiration here, and so positive. You still have that to offer. You have 2 years! You can get back on track. I have great faith in you.

Be kind to yourself. Rest and you will feel better tomorrow.

I remember feeling like that too Snoozy ,

Occasionally i'd have one or two but eventually i'd find myself drinking till blackout regularly , always .

I hope you quit , stay quit and go do something more fun and interesting than that same old same old .

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Thank you for sharing Snoozy. Def helps reinforce why I can no longer drink. I can feel the pain just reading it.

I am on Day 4 feeling better but this was me on Monday (This Week).

I really hate all those feeling. Thank you for the vivid reminder and hang in there. We should have a place in our heads that never forgets what we put our body and soul through.

I will always come back to SR for these reminders. Thank you.

Hi Snoozy, can I ask you a couple of questions? How much did you drink and what was the duration of your alcohol consumption? Was this one day, just one evening?

Sorry you are going through this, but it also sounds like you knew full well this was a possibility, right?
Good lord, I remember getting the impromptu visits from someone too, (my parents once as well), that's God giving us a warning, and he is putting it on our permanent record.

Thank you for being here & sharing yourself & your journey with us. It's made my recovery stronger & for that I'm so grateful to you.

Keep fighting!!

Snoozy, thank you for sharing. I've had distressing thoughts of drinking lately and you're reminding me why I quit. Hang in there and make it day one.

You're in my thoughts and prayers today, Snoozy.

Great reminder, hope you feel better soon. For me the hangovers were pretty tame compared to when my drinking progressed enough that i didn't get hangovers anymore....just straight witdhrawals ( heart palpitations, dangerous BP and heart rate, full on panic attacks, you know - trip to the ER stuff ).

I also learned that while reminders of how bad it can be are helpful, they are not enough in themself to truly get sober. Having a plan for a sober life ( no matter what it is ) that you live by every single day is essential as well. I hope we can help you find that plan.

Thank you for sharing this painful reminder Snoozy. Make this Day #1 and don't look back. Many hugs to you. :grouphug:

I remember exactly what your describing like it was yesterday. The visits from my parent were embarrassing and ugly, I never wish to visit those days again.

What do you plan to do so you never go through this again?

Snooz, this will kill you if you let it.

Please stop and stay with it.

Oh friend. I am so sorry for your suffering. You deserve so much better.

Please be kind to yourself and find that resolve again. You are so much more than this insidious addiction. :hug:

Sweet Snoozy, my heart goes out to you.
You have been such a big part of the journey we are all on here ar SR. You mean so much to us all; I want you to know that.
I am so sorry things are so tough right now. :-(
Please hang in there, get through the first couple of days, and know that we are all pulling for you.
You are such an important part of our community...
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Big hugs flying your way.. Xxx
Gail

You tried to moderate and it didn't work. At least you know that now and can move forward and onwards away from that idea. Fresh start , different outlook and a new lesson.
One day at a time. Tomorrow will be better and the next day even better. Go for it!!!

I am praying for you, and keeping you in my thoughts. I remember my last hangover, and it scared me into quitting for good 22 months ago.

You CAN pick up the pieces again.

Kind regards.

Wendy, remember it like yesterday and never want to go back there. Each time i relapsed it was worse and never once worth the hour of escape that i thought i needed.
I hope that you can accept that the 'good ole days' are well and truly over where booze is concerned and that you will never have them back again.
It just don't work like it used to and can't again.
It will only ever bring loss, misery and hopelessness once a certain line is crossed.
Sober has been the toughest but most rewarding experience of my life.
But you need to be in it to win it.
Hope and pray that you can get back.
GX

I wish I was on my laptop rather than the public library computer...cuz I know I saved a pic you once sent me..I'm sure it was you. It was a pic of a white mouse or hamster in his pajamas in bed with some caption about having to get up sooner or later (my description is not doing it justice).

There are some times a lot of battles lost in this war...I know...I've lost my fair share..but you're still here to get up and fight for the light another day.

I'm just glad you're still here when I've come creepin' back.

Hi Snooz

I'm sorry you're still struggling. I appreciate your public service here in sharing this here.
I wish hangovers were enough to keep us sober for good but they never were for me.

I think you need to accept that, for whatever reason, this time is not like last time...

you can't stop on your own, Snooz.
You need a plan - and a bloody good one at that.

Lying to your kids and to your folks is not where any of us want to be...and it's just ammo for those who already have resentments against us, yeah?

I want you to find the real Wendy again.

The first step is deciding what are you prepared to do to make that happen?

D

I would like to thank you.
I don't really know you but I had a relapse around this time last year and I remember it all too well.
I am in the best place I have been in. I have a job and I have turned my life around. I have a job now and I am not drinking.
My family trust me enough that they are going on holiday this weekend and I will be house sitting. Ironically I have had thoughts of drinking but now I am not going to.
I want to thank you.
You are in my thoughts and prayers x

I relapsed to 😳 Been sick in bed going through the same for two days, barely managed to shower about an hour ago, heart hurts, massive headache, havent been breathing right, same as you described, we have to make it, youre not alone, hang in there, much love...

Wendy, can you make arrangements to go inpatient?

Snoozy-your words helped me today. Thank you.

I am very worried with seeing you struggle so much as of late. You absolutely have to be proactive and do everything possible to get yourself sober again since it will only get worse with the more time that passes. Make a plan and stick to it. It's rough in the beginning. Do everything you can to ride out those first 2 weeks by making a plan that doesn't allow for you to drink. After this, you should have some more sold footing. :hug:

This thought has never entered my mind, yet makes complete sense, thank you Dee.

Lying to your kids and to your folks is not where any of us want to be...and it's just ammo for those who already have resentments against us, yeah?