Thank you Anna, not trying to get ahead of myself but it's new exciting ground for once. One day at a time :)

Really glad you're here with us!
We've all been where you are - good news = sobriety is there for anyone who is accepting, ready and willing to change. Many examples post here daily!

Keep posting and just take this one day at a time. It's really pretty simple!

Day 8 !!!! Day flippin 8
Yesterday I didnt update but there was not an issue I was working late then sseeing to the house things.

Im still tired only managed 4 hours the night before last for some reason. Slept like a baby last night.
Im happy and best of all I've nearly lost the dreaded itch !!!! That with the racing heart and sweats has been the bain of the last few days.
This site has helped because of the wonderful people on it. I feel part of a community of fearless warrior's who bear their souls to help complete stranger's which is what you're doing for me. I will get courage to do the same, im just worried I'll say the wrong thing sometimes.

Thank you I love being part of this community, thanks for letting my be part of it

I can relate to everything you've said. Thank you for being so honest, I am on day 3 myself.

Hi bluesky, keep up the awesome work! It is OK to say the wrong thing as long as you keep coming back. Hah! There is so much to learn about ourselves and who we are without alcohol. There's a beautiful flow to life in recovery. I'm glad you are in it!

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I've been drinking. I did 16 days sober then drank for two evening's at the weekend, didnt drink during the week and pretended to myself I was ok. Then I started drinking on Thursday after work and its now monday and i haven't stopped. yesterday I was drunk from lunch onwards. Dont remember much other than watching tv with my 15 year old son, then nothing. I have been awake for the last two hours and want the ground to open and swallow me.
Im so ashamed. I don't know if I upset my son or anything ?? I really felt I was in control but I am just fooling myself. The one thing I had to do was just not drink. I am never doing this again. I know these next few days are going to be horrendous but knowing if my son needs me I am incapable of helping him is killing me.

Hi you should forgive the inexcusable in yourself because God has already forgiven you. You can still be successful. You took a detour from your journey but you are back on track. This downfall has given you some wisdom. Take it and use it for the rest of your journey! You can do this and you have too!

Yes your right I have learnt I cannot drink and be in any kind of control. I cant hide from this fact. I just feel so ashamed of myself as a mother. I will not let him down again.

Please hang in there...for yourself. Try to make it minute by minute to get the clean time.

I'm sorry you're struggling, but I'm glad you made it back bluesky :)

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Thank you guys. Im scared of what I might have done as I cant remember and its still really early here and he is in bed.
I forgot how disgusting this feels. I needed this kick though as I honestly had started to think I could just drink reasonably at weekends which I obviously can't.

I'm glad you are here :-) I've had a lot of day ones and the last day one I had was physically horrible but empowering as I knew it was the last day one I ever had to have. You can do this and you can keep moving forward.

You know you can't drink in moderation, so you can shut that door and know it's not an option now.

Glad you made it back in. Wishing you a safe and sober day today! Good news is you never have to feel this way again.

Hope you'll join us in the Class of May 2015 thread. It's a great way to get some support and wisdom from others who are also newly sober.

11 days without alcohol which is fab but I now have vertigo, room spinning, nausea and bed rest ..... karma ??

Not karma, nervous system healing. :) Keep it going. It takes a while for the brain to stabilize.

You're going to be fine!

Thanks biminiblue xx

Welcome aboard. First few days can be rough, physically, but that goes away.

The bolded is how I used to feel too. I couldn't even plan or do activities on the weekend other than walk to the bar because I couldn't drive anywhere (always drunk) and if it required waking up before 11 am or so, there was no way to predict that I could do so. My whole life outside of work revolved around drinking, and it didn't allow me to do anything. It paralyzed me. I can tell you that if you stay sober, all that goes away and your life can be whatever you want it to be. You can go anywhere, do anything. Much better way to live.

Hey Bluesky - the first thing you did was come back here, with a spirit of acceptance of your powerlessness over alcohol (did you know that's the first step of AA??). No excuses, no if's or buts. Well done.

The next step is to come straight here before you buy or drink the booze - there's usually someone here. I believe that AA also have 24 hour telephone numbers you can call - it might be worth writing that somewhere.

You can do this. x

PS Watch out for your alcoholic voice telling you that you deserve / need / can cope with a drink. Those AV's are sneaky buggers.

Hi Blue!
I just read this entire thread and I wish you nothing but the best! I've been drinking since I was 16 but REALLY drinking for the last 12 or so years and I'm just over a month sober. I won't say it's been easy, but it's what I needed to do. I can't allow alcohol to destroy myself, family, relationships or friendships ANY longer! I just can't!! You know what you want. Eventually, you'll get there!! *BIG HUGS* xxxx

Hi Bluesky, just wanted to say hi and I'm glad you're posting. It's a struggle but you have to believe that it is possible and it is worth it. Keep at it and all the best.