Eric - it's all been said - I'll just add my my sympathy for what you're going through. I agree that drinking will make things so much worse. I lost my Mastiff last year & I tried to think of how disappointed she'd be to see me hurt myself by drinking. I'm glad you posted - please be kind to yourself and don't pick up. :hug: |
Have you gone to AA meetings since you've gotten sober? If so, did folks give you a meeting book with numbers on it? |
After all this is done and you've had some time to grieve remember there are lots of dogs out there that need homes. I adopted a female Rottweiler after I lost Woody. Her and my lab Jessie are my best friends in the world. |
I'm so so sorry. Losing a pet has to be one of the absolutely worst things in this world. Sending you and your dog thoughts of comfort. :( |
I haven't read all the responses, but just wanted to say I'm sorry and I understand. Putting my dog of 14 years down was absolutely one of the worst days of my life, it's up there with my divorce, passing of loved ones, losing my house, etc. But what does this pain have to do with drinking? Drinking does not end pain, it exacerbates it. Always. Make no mistake about that. |
There should be an addiction hotline listed in the phone book or you can google the information which would be a useful suggestion to call and letting them know your situation and that you don't want to be alone right now and if they can give you a number to have someone that is on phone duty for AA to call you back emmediately. There's always a member handling the phones all the time for emergencies and they can stay on the phone with you to keep you from slipping/drinking. |
Eric, Remain faithful to your dear heart of a pup. She needs ALL of you right now. Hold her and let her know she'll be alright with you. She only knows true love. Dogs are so true. You, stay true to yourself as well. No drinking will make any of this any better. A Big Ole Bear Hug for you fella. Miss my pup but was glad to be with him through it all. They're worth it. And so are YOU. |
I'm so very sorry. Sending peaceful thoughts and hugs your way. |
Thanks guys. I've read all the replies over multiple time now. I know I shouldn't drink or get high but man thats all I want to do. I dont think I will today and one day at a time is all I can do. Heres a pacture of CoCo. http://i.imgur.com/0paZgC2.jpg |
Stay strong Eric. Since I got sober I've had to confront the death of friends and loved ones many times. The fear of the pain is greater than the pain itself. You'll be sad, you'll grieve but you'll be ok - please believe me :) Stay sober :) D |
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She's a beautiful girl - shepherd mix? I'm glad you're not drinking. CoCo needs you with her now. Dogs can tell. |
Eric, your dog is beautiful. You know she has put her faith in you and now you need to prepare to do the sad, sad job of ending her life. You owe her that and you owe her to be sober to take care of her tomorrow. And, when she leaves you, you owe it to her beautiful memory to stay sober. |
Originally Posted by JustEric
(Post 4977452)
If she makes it through the night I have to get her to the vet first thing in the morning and end her suffering. I'm on day 109 and ready to throw it out the window. It hurts do damn much and I only know one way to stop that pain. Look you significant other and dog in the trunk of you car. Open the trunk of your car after an hour. Which one is happy to see you? I have nothing else to add but the obvious: DON'T DRINK. I know...easier said than done, but remember that alcohol is a suppressant, and you'll wind up feeling worse. Take care, Eric. |
Eric a lot of us are thinking of you tonight and of your lovely dog. I have been with all my pets at the end and the going is very peaceful once the vet administers the injection. Make her warm and as comfortable as you can, she may lick water from your fingers. |
Originally Posted by Stevie1
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She's a beautiful girl - shepherd mix? I'm glad you're not drinking. CoCo needs you with her now. Dogs can tell. |
She's beautiful. :) I know she's brought you lots of happy times. Honor her by staying sober. :hug: |
I am so sorry. One of my biggest regrets is getting drunk when my dog was dying. It didn't make anything better and I will always feel guilty as hell for not being fully present for him when he needed me. Don't drink. You will be glad you didn't. It is painful. There's no getting around it. Again, I am so sorry. Sending much love, strength and healing to you, your dad, and your dog. xo |
She is precious , Eric. I am so sorry that you are going through this. Letting them go is one of the hardest things . Sometimes the desire to avoid dealing with these hard things of life is why people are alcoholics. Be strong, deal with this time, sober for your girl. She deserves that, and so do you. You will be stronger, and proud of being there for her. Your life may depend on it. She is depending on you. big hugs, I know it hurts. cry, and feel the love, and all of it. You can do this Eric. |
Much love to you and yours - keeping U in our thoughts and prayers. Stay strong |
Very sorry to hear about your dog situation. I'm a dog lover too. This IS what we sign up for with pets tho, we really know this when we get them, they have short lives in comparison to humans. Turn it around, dedicate your next 109 days of sobriety to CoCo. You can't drink sadness or grief away. |
Originally Posted by JustEric
(Post 4977452)
If she makes it through the night I have to get her to the vet first thing in the morning and end her suffering. I'm on day 109 and ready to throw it out the window. It hurts do damn much and I only know one way to stop that pain. 6 Months Sober today and my cat died =( This response, in particular, stood out for me: I lost my big golden retriever at 30 days sober. Someone told me at least don't drink today. Don't make the anniversary of their death also an anniversary of a relapse. I am too much of a newbie to be able to post links yet, but if you Google "cat died staying sober", you should be able to find the link. People also talk about their dogs. I hope this helps a little bit. |
Take solace in knowing you have made the past 109 days her favorites. She never lost faith in you. She always knew you could do it. She still does. :You_Rock_ |
I'm sorry Eric...I know how hard that is...thinking of you & sending thoughts of strength to you both. |
I'm so sorry about your dog Eric since that is so difficult to go through. Stay strong! |
I'm sorry to hear about your dog Eric. I lost my best friend of 15 years (the beautiful girl in my sig) when I was 2 months sober and it was really hard to deal with. But if I would have drank over it I wouldn't be here typing this to you at 18 months sober. Part of sobriety is learning to deal with life -- and with life comes pain and loss. Please don't throw away almost 4 months of sobriety for the illusion that alcohol will bring you any comfort. The pain will still be there when you sober up the next day only accompanied with guilt, shame and remorse. |
My heart goes out to you Eric. Hold her close tonight and give her treats if she will eat them. When my dog was on her last night she enjoyed licking sticks of butter. |
No excuses to give up what your trying to do. That's you av slipping in there while your weak |
Hang in there, Eric. Hang in there.:grouphug: |
So sorry Eric x |
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