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After 100 day sober, I just wanted 1 drink, big mistake, I was right back where I started. So I'm on the wagon again 3 days now, and realize once an alcoholic, always and alcoholic. Both on Librium and Antabuse.... Hope it works this time.... Wish me luck.....

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Welcome back Johnsonsober

Been there done that myself, glad to see you back on your feet.
When I'm tempted I try to remember this:
"A man takes a drink, the drink takes a drink, the drink takes the man." If I have one drink I lose all control.

Thank you Hawk07

We all need support in this, I can't loose my job and have already had one DUI (Never again) I glad I found this website, because many people just don't understand....

Good job! Keep posting.

Welcome back Johnson. I do wish you luck and I hope it works this time too. I think you know that it takes much more than hope and luck to get sober though. You mention you had 100 days, that's a great amount of time, what do you think made you want to drink last time? And more importantly, what can you do differently this time?

I'm 12 days sober now but prior I fell off the wagon big time and was on an epic vodka, beer and wine binge that lasted somewhere around 4 days. All because that little voice lied to me and convinced me that I could have just one beer.
I felt ashamed and terrified, but SR has been one the rocks I lean on for support and the people on here helped me tremendously.

Hello Johnson sober.

I understand exactly where you are. I had some solid sober time and started drinking again...the last 6 months progressively veered back to a hellish end point...drinking coffee and whiskey and red bull at 9 am...yeesh...:(

So after another horrible memory...I've started my sober clock again...10 days in now. This site has been a god send. I post numerous times daily...it seems to keep me accountable. The support and understanding here is tremendous.

We understand what you're going through. And we're here to help.

One day at a time my friend.

I wish you the best.

Welcome, Johnsonsober. Rooting for you.

Welcome to the family. :) Here's hoping our support can help you stop drinking for good. :)

I wish you the best of luck, I just wish luck is all it takes. After such a long time the Alcoholic in us sometimes makes us think can we have a drink? Can it be just one drink or even just one night? If I thought for one minute I could have a night on the town like the old days and then wake up tomorrow and get back to my sober life I would do it! But I don't trust myself to go down that road at all.

Default setting says NO.

Well done on getting back on track, have a great weekend my friend.

Thanks everyone,, I was stuppid enough to think I could become a social drinker again, but one turns to two etc. my job is VERY high stress, but with the large support from here, but only two friends at home, I'm determine to do it...

The destination of my journey in recovery
which Im still on, I pray that I leave this
world a better person and completely sober.

What happens between the time I got
sober 23 yrs ago to my last breath is
that journey of living a healthy, happy,
honest life, passing on my own ESH -
experiences, strengths and hopes of
what my life was and is like before,
during and after my addiction to alcohol
to other struggling with their own
substance abuse illness.

Listen.....Learn....Absorb.....Apply :)

I did the same thing many times - insisted if I used enough willpower I could just have one. No such thing as one for me - ever. Glad you are here with us - keep posting - you never have to feel this way again. :hug:

Welcome to SR Johnsonsober :)

Apart from joining us do you have a plan to stay sober?

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Yes, my girlfriend killed herself 2 weeks ago, she just could'nt face the recovery time, so took the easy way out. I DETERMINED TO SUCCESS THIS THIS TIME....

I'm sorry Johnsonsober. Thats incredibly tragic.
D

OMG Johnson... so sorry about your loss. I had an ex-boyfriend who committed suicide a long time ago after a long struggle with depression, and an addict friend just a couple months ago.

Have you considered therapy?

No, I'm determine to do it myself. I did it for 100 days and then then fall off. With this site and my friends I know I can do it, although I always know I will be an alcoholic for the rest of my life, but a recovering alcoholic....:-)

Good luck Jonson,you're a very brave man.

I'm actually a woman,,but thanks....

So do you think part of it was a false sense of security (for want of a better term) from hitting 100 days, or just coincidental that it occurred around a round-numbered milestone?

I am always a little curious about how other people's brains work on this stuff. Also promoting analysis is a good thing.

My thoughts and prayers are with you my friend.
Wishing you well.

Johnsonsober, I am so very sorry for your loss. How painful.

Welcome back.

She took the easy way out, or so she thought, 46 yrs... Been an alcoholic and severe depressed... OD on pills and alcohol....

I will succesed this time, I keep telling myself that.... Staying busy, socialize with sober friends, working out daily, instead of going home drinking is an enormous help ... 13 days already....

Congratulations on 13 days :)

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Johnsonsober22, 3 days back on the wagon is FANTASTIC, good luck, and rootin for ya. :egypt:

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Hey Johnson. My uncle committed suicide today. I don't know if he was taking drugs but I know that he is bipolar (like myself) and had been off his medication. His partner died from natural causes and my uncle decided that life wasn't worth living after that.

What helps me is to be around people who understand. Sober alcoholics are my people. All we can do is lean on our support and share our grief. It's more about slugging through life sober. It's about living life, experiencing gried, loss and sorrow and letting those feelings move on. Just because someone we love dies doesn't mean we have to dig a deeper hole and climb in. Life is precious. The people who love us, living and passed, want us to keep experiencing life and living in their love.

Keep connected and honor the love y'all had by living and continuing to love.t the world isn't a perfect place but it's full of love if we have the courage to accept it.

Ohh Displaced, I'm so so sorry....alcohol and some of mental health seems to have a connection. All we can do is take one day at the time, focus on the positive stuff, and never give up no matter how hard it is or how many times we fail.... I'm here to listen.....

Now it's 13 days... Yeahhh