Feld of the wagan
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Feld of the wagan
After 100 day sober, I just wanted 1 drink, big mistake, I was right back where I started. So I'm on the wagon again 3 days now, and realize once an alcoholic, always and alcoholic. Both on Librium and Antabuse.... Hope it works this time.... Wish me luck.....
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Welcome back Johnsonsober
Been there done that myself, glad to see you back on your feet.
When I'm tempted I try to remember this:
"A man takes a drink, the drink takes a drink, the drink takes the man." If I have one drink I lose all control.
Been there done that myself, glad to see you back on your feet.
When I'm tempted I try to remember this:
"A man takes a drink, the drink takes a drink, the drink takes the man." If I have one drink I lose all control.
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Thank you Hawk07
We all need support in this, I can't loose my job and have already had one DUI (Never again) I glad I found this website, because many people just don't understand....
We all need support in this, I can't loose my job and have already had one DUI (Never again) I glad I found this website, because many people just don't understand....
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Welcome back Johnson. I do wish you luck and I hope it works this time too. I think you know that it takes much more than hope and luck to get sober though. You mention you had 100 days, that's a great amount of time, what do you think made you want to drink last time? And more importantly, what can you do differently this time?
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I'm 12 days sober now but prior I fell off the wagon big time and was on an epic vodka, beer and wine binge that lasted somewhere around 4 days. All because that little voice lied to me and convinced me that I could have just one beer.
I felt ashamed and terrified, but SR has been one the rocks I lean on for support and the people on here helped me tremendously.
I felt ashamed and terrified, but SR has been one the rocks I lean on for support and the people on here helped me tremendously.
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Hello Johnson sober.
I understand exactly where you are. I had some solid sober time and started drinking again...the last 6 months progressively veered back to a hellish end point...drinking coffee and whiskey and red bull at 9 am...yeesh...
So after another horrible memory...I've started my sober clock again...10 days in now. This site has been a god send. I post numerous times daily...it seems to keep me accountable. The support and understanding here is tremendous.
We understand what you're going through. And we're here to help.
One day at a time my friend.
I wish you the best.
I understand exactly where you are. I had some solid sober time and started drinking again...the last 6 months progressively veered back to a hellish end point...drinking coffee and whiskey and red bull at 9 am...yeesh...
So after another horrible memory...I've started my sober clock again...10 days in now. This site has been a god send. I post numerous times daily...it seems to keep me accountable. The support and understanding here is tremendous.
We understand what you're going through. And we're here to help.
One day at a time my friend.
I wish you the best.
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Originally Posted by Johnsonsober22 
After 100 day sober, I just wanted 1 drink, big mistake, I was right back where I started. So I'm on the wagon again 3 days now, and realize once an alcoholic, always and alcoholic. Both on Librium and Antabuse.... Hope it works this time.... Wish me luck.....
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I wish you the best of luck, I just wish luck is all it takes. After such a long time the Alcoholic in us sometimes makes us think can we have a drink? Can it be just one drink or even just one night? If I thought for one minute I could have a night on the town like the old days and then wake up tomorrow and get back to my sober life I would do it! But I don't trust myself to go down that road at all.
Default setting says NO.
Well done on getting back on track, have a great weekend my friend.
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Thanks everyone,, I was stuppid enough to think I could become a social drinker again, but one turns to two etc. my job is VERY high stress, but with the large support from here, but only two friends at home, I'm determine to do it...
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which Im still on, I pray that I leave this
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sober 23 yrs ago to my last breath is
that journey of living a healthy, happy,
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which Im still on, I pray that I leave this
world a better person and completely sober.
What happens between the time I got
sober 23 yrs ago to my last breath is
that journey of living a healthy, happy,
honest life, passing on my own ESH -
experiences, strengths and hopes of
what my life was and is like before,
during and after my addiction to alcohol
to other struggling with their own
substance abuse illness.
Listen.....Learn....Absorb.....Apply
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I did the same thing many times - insisted if I used enough willpower I could just have one. No such thing as one for me - ever. Glad you are here with us - keep posting - you never have to feel this way again. 
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OMG Johnson... so sorry about your loss. I had an ex-boyfriend who committed suicide a long time ago after a long struggle with depression, and an addict friend just a couple months ago.
Have you considered therapy?
Have you considered therapy?
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No, I'm determine to do it myself. I did it for 100 days and then then fall off. With this site and my friends I know I can do it, although I always know I will be an alcoholic for the rest of my life, but a recovering alcoholic....:-)
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