Hi Heannie. This phrase, "I agree - do what you feel is comfortable for you - there is no right or wrong." to me is so much BS.
What was comfortable for me and most was to drink and do the softest easiest possible route to get "sober" forget staying sober.
The oldtimers, now me, say, especially in the beginning, sobriety is our most important goal bar none. That includes family, job, friends and so forth. You seem to be doing well and the early part of sobriety can be confusing and nonsenseable in some respects.
Most of us need a lot of meetings to learn from and with the damages done be heavy drinking many learn by repeating listening to NOT drink topics. Many get this mentally however by working the steps and close contact with sober people learn to we handle the biggee for us, the emotional side of out drinking that caused it to begin with.

BE WELL

This is a good plan. Take it one day at a time. Remember it is a journey, not a race.

Living a sober life takes practice, practice takes time, time takes time.

Try not to compare your program with others. What is right for someone else may not be right for you at the present moment. It does not mean it won't be later on. I try not to dismiss any suggestions, I would just set them on the shelf but never throw them away. There have been more then a couple times I have pulled things off that shelf and I was grateful they were there.

Many times I said, "I am not ready for that" because I was uncomfortable. Sometimes I let it sink in for a day or two and re-visited the idea. Many times fear and that uncomfortable feeling was hard to overcome but in the end I have always been glad I did and it gets easier to say "I will try that".

Keep going to meetings and soak up the information with an open mind.

Thanks again. Yes IOAA2, often think and feel that many of my ideas and perceptions are BS. I'm not comfortable with many of my attitudes and I know I need changes.

GracieLou - yes I will go to more meetings.

To be honest, the attention I'm getting at these meetings makes me a bit uncomfortable. So weird, because I'm there to seek help, and I also find quite easy to share stories... so LOTS of attention. But somehow at the same time, I still want to run away...