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I won't miss Isolating myself Planning how to commit suicide Knowing that this is my nasty secret that no one knows and being scared to be exposed for the hypocrite I am Spending money on booze instead of investing it in my home business Passing out and being completely useless Wallowing in self pity Puking in the morning before having to get a "hair from the dog that bit you" which of course ended up in drinking all freaking day and night Obsessively brushing my teeth and biting in onions Going to work at my regular job feeling like crap because I had not yet started to drinking before or during work Having to go get booze first thing in the morning Feeling like crap both physically and mentally |
Holy hell, Alison! I just loved your post. I say "DITTO" to all of it! |
I will not miss: Falling into the swimming pool instead of finding the front door. Parking my car in someone else's driveway and then reporting it stolen the next morning. Waking up in the cupboard instead of in my bed. Walking into a wall and then apologizing to it. The black hole of the chapter that was the night before, and the bruises that can't remember the story. |
Originally Posted by AWOL
(Post 3808013)
I will not miss: Falling into the swimming pool instead of finding the front door. Parking my car in someone else's driveway and then reporting it stolen the next morning. Waking up in the cupboard instead of in my bed. Walking into a wall and then apologizing to it.The black hole of the chapter that was the night before, and the bruises that can't remember the story. |
Alison - it is posts like yours that make me come back to these forums for support again and again. What an amazing eye opener to read everyone's reasons and say to myself, "Check, check, check. Yep, that's what I won't/don't miss!" Thanks, again, for your post. :scoregood |
I don't miss feeling disappointed in myself.....not one bit !!!! |
The handcuffs, the court appearances!! |
These are great, love reading everyone's responses. I pretty much relate to all of them! I will definitely revisit this list next time a craving should hit! |
All of the above and I will not/do not miss the white elephant in the room or killing myself slowly and painfully. |
The insecurity the shakes the headaches the hangover the embarssment the fights blackouts black and blues throwing up gaining weight depression guilt hiding/lying about drinking hiding bottles! thinking about it non stop (not sure when that will happen) |
One thing that struck me this evening on the way to dinner... I don't miss strategically "planning" out my drinks for the evening, or finding an excuse as to why I'd order a drink with my meal; then planning how to order more without looking like someone desperately trying to get as much as possible during dinner. Then leaving unfulfilled because it was never enough. I don't miss that at all. Sent from my iPad using SoberRecovery |
The feeling of not knowing if you're going to lose control tonight or not. Or lose your phone, start a fight or fall in public. |
I dont miss all the time that was consumed thinking about drinking...do I have enough, do I stop at tbe store, what time can I start and can I stop? I dont miss reading books to my daughter with one eye shut due to double vision.. |
i wont miss trying to get 20 bucks for a 12 pack of HEINEKEN everyday after work and not giving a crap about not having gas in the truck to make it to work the next day right now i got 23 days in and saved 460 dollars and i have a half tank of gas god bless to my beeps |
I don't miss.... driving drunk and praying to make it home in one piece digging through the cushions for enough money to buy my supply getting up an hour early so that I'd have time to make it to the packy before work the delusion that nobody noticed that I was drunk every time I had a random ache or pain thinking it was liver or kidney damage looking at old pics and wondering how my life had gone so wrong so many more things. Thank god I never have to drink again. |
I don't miss wondering what the heck I did the night before, wondering what else can I buy so that I don't look like a loser buying only a bottle of wine at noon....on a Thursday, who did I text, did I post something ridiculous on Facebook, does my husband know I am wasted, how will I hide this purchase, feeling puffy and bloated, blowing off working out because I am focused on drinking or hungover from drinking, hangovers at 4pm because I started drinking at 6 am while tailgating, being so tired from covering my tracks, wondering if I am going to get pulled over, wondering where I can hide my empties until I can get them to a public trash can because I can't up them in my trash or recycling, wondering if I remembered all of my empties...and SOOOOO much more. |
Waking up and realizing that I am still stuck with me |
drinking myself sick only to throw up and start drinking again |
Originally Posted by paul99
(Post 3808495)
Waking up and realizing that I am still stuck with me |
Waking up and wondering if I had hidden all my empties from the night before so no one knew HOW MUCH I had actually consumed. |
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