Four months today
 

Crazy. I checked my phone app and was kind of shocked to see my anniversary is today. I was just telling a friend that I write on here how I never thought I'd be here!

I'm planning this new years eve to be a ski trip and rent a cabin. Never did that before. Skiing was never something I'd do before because 1) that requires exercise and 2) it's hard to really booze it up while doing that. Not that drinking isn't a part of ski trips for many, but for many others, it is not.

I'm considering my birthday sober and want to do something out of the ordinary.

But...this weekend the fear set in. My first sober vacay is in two weeks. I'm terrified of that. Prepared as I am, I'm still terrified. My husband is winding down from the horrible vertigo episode, but it's still there so of course I'm terrified of that. :scared:

I'm afraid of hating my sober vacay, afraid of failing, afraid of my husband's illness, afraid our plane will crash, afraid our pre-cruise hotel will suck, afraid the world will end or the sky will fall down. OMG what a freak I am. :gaah Nevertheless I trudge on.

Thanks everyone for all of your kind thoughts and advice over the past several months. I don't think this would have been nearly as easy without all of you.

Two weeks don't worry there's time for all sports of things before that.
Congratulation andvhaveva great time.
John.

Must be exciting actually planning activities for celebration rather than just getting wasted.

Congratulations for 4 months. Do you still see old drinking buddies or have you found completely new friends?

Nice job Lost... :)

In my case, I still look at my sobriety as a gift more than as a product of something I'M doing......it still takes a lot on your part - especially during that first year.

I'm proud of ya..... !!!

You are probably right. Thanks!

It really is exciting to plan things! I dropped all of my old drinking friends, or more like, they dropped me. I quit going to the bar I went to on a regular basis and they quit talking to me. It's ok, because I do have a whole 'nother set of friends. Some AA, some from my book club.

I don't feel it's a gift. Maybe I will later. I feel accomplished. I've worked hard to make this happen, and work hard now. I make conscious decisions about what I'm doing. And I feel that getting to today is my reward. Thanks DT!!!!!!!!

Good! You should! That's why I (we) celebrate birthdays and sobriety time in AA.

Mucho Congrats on your sobriety. :scoregood

I am so proud and happy for you. Good luck and best wishes.

Chrisy

Congratulations:scoregood

:c011: Congrats Lost!!!

Well done lost

Congrats! I'm just working upto 3 months, seems like it takes forever!!

Good for you.. Congrats!!

I'm in the same boat... I have a trip in 2 weeks to the dominican republic to celebrate my 25th birthday with friends. Beach + 10 twenty somethings= alcohol induced fun

Am I excited yes! but I'm just as terrified. And I've been going over in my head countless of times how am I going to avoid having a drink! Especially because the drinks are included in our package!!! what!!!!

So trust me... I feel your anxiety. What has helped me mentally prepare for this is reflecting on all of my bad "embarrassing" moments. And telling my self, "you dont get to do this everyday, so REMEMBER it!!" I'm looking forward to the non-alcoholic beverages, tanning, and waking up without a headache or nauseousness that comes with a hang over.

Feel good about your accomplishment and be proud of yourself. You dont need to drink to enjoy life. A clear mind helps you appreciate everything just a little more.

Congratulations on 4 months Lost :)
You seem committed to recovery to me - I'm sure all will go well on your vacation :)

D

Congrats on four months Lost!!!...Keep on keeping on!

Congratulations Lost :)

I love that in your list of things you are afraid of there is no fear that you will drink :You_Rock_

xxx

:scoregood on four months sober! Keep on keepin' on.:)

Lost, Congratulations on 4 months!

And, you need to stop worrying. I exhausted myself with worry too, but I realized in early recovery that I had to let go. I was a super control freak and it was a horrible existence. There is very little in your life that you can control. Most of what happens is outside of your control. And, it's all happening just as it should. There is a reason for everything. :)

Wonderful job Lost! It's going to keep getting better.

Lost,

I am so proud of you! Four months is great. Enjoy your vacation, and try not to worry so much.....it's supposed to be a relaxing thing! Congratulations.