Four months today
Sober since Jan 1, 2012
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Join Date: Mar 2009
Location: Colorado
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Four months today
Crazy. I checked my phone app and was kind of shocked to see my anniversary is today. I was just telling a friend that I write on here how I never thought I'd be here!
I'm planning this new years eve to be a ski trip and rent a cabin. Never did that before. Skiing was never something I'd do before because 1) that requires exercise and 2) it's hard to really booze it up while doing that. Not that drinking isn't a part of ski trips for many, but for many others, it is not.
I'm considering my birthday sober and want to do something out of the ordinary.
But...this weekend the fear set in. My first sober vacay is in two weeks. I'm terrified of that. Prepared as I am, I'm still terrified. My husband is winding down from the horrible vertigo episode, but it's still there so of course I'm terrified of that.
I'm afraid of hating my sober vacay, afraid of failing, afraid of my husband's illness, afraid our plane will crash, afraid our pre-cruise hotel will suck, afraid the world will end or the sky will fall down. OMG what a freak I am.
Nevertheless I trudge on.
Thanks everyone for all of your kind thoughts and advice over the past several months. I don't think this would have been nearly as easy without all of you.
I'm planning this new years eve to be a ski trip and rent a cabin. Never did that before. Skiing was never something I'd do before because 1) that requires exercise and 2) it's hard to really booze it up while doing that. Not that drinking isn't a part of ski trips for many, but for many others, it is not.
I'm considering my birthday sober and want to do something out of the ordinary.
But...this weekend the fear set in. My first sober vacay is in two weeks. I'm terrified of that. Prepared as I am, I'm still terrified. My husband is winding down from the horrible vertigo episode, but it's still there so of course I'm terrified of that.
I'm afraid of hating my sober vacay, afraid of failing, afraid of my husband's illness, afraid our plane will crash, afraid our pre-cruise hotel will suck, afraid the world will end or the sky will fall down. OMG what a freak I am.
Nevertheless I trudge on.Thanks everyone for all of your kind thoughts and advice over the past several months. I don't think this would have been nearly as easy without all of you.
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Join Date: May 2010
Location: West Bloomfield, MI
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Nice job Lost... 
In my case, I still look at my sobriety as a gift more than as a product of something I'M doing......it still takes a lot on your part - especially during that first year.
I'm proud of ya..... !!!
In my case, I still look at my sobriety as a gift more than as a product of something I'M doing......it still takes a lot on your part - especially during that first year.
I'm proud of ya..... !!!
Sober since Jan 1, 2012
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Originally Posted by Spinach 
Two weeks don't worry there's time for all sports of things before that.
Congratulation andvhaveva great time.
John.
Congratulation andvhaveva great time.
John.
Originally Posted by thesun
Must be exciting actually planning activities for celebration rather than just getting wasted.
Congratulations for 4 months. Do you still see old drinking buddies or have you found completely new friends?
Congratulations for 4 months. Do you still see old drinking buddies or have you found completely new friends?
Originally Posted by DayTrader
Nice job Lost...
In my case, I still look at my sobriety as a gift more than as a product of something I'M doing......it still takes a lot on your part - especially during that first year.
I'm proud of ya..... !!!
In my case, I still look at my sobriety as a gift more than as a product of something I'M doing......it still takes a lot on your part - especially during that first year.
I'm proud of ya..... !!!
12-Step Recovered Alkie
Join Date: May 2010
Location: West Bloomfield, MI
Posts: 5,797
Originally Posted by Lost3000
I feel accomplished. I've worked hard to make this happen, and work hard now. I make conscious decisions about what I'm doing. And I feel that getting to today is my reward.
Congrats Lost!!!
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Chicago IL
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Good for you.. Congrats!!
I'm in the same boat... I have a trip in 2 weeks to the dominican republic to celebrate my 25th birthday with friends. Beach + 10 twenty somethings= alcohol induced fun
Am I excited yes! but I'm just as terrified. And I've been going over in my head countless of times how am I going to avoid having a drink! Especially because the drinks are included in our package!!! what!!!!
So trust me... I feel your anxiety. What has helped me mentally prepare for this is reflecting on all of my bad "embarrassing" moments. And telling my self, "you dont get to do this everyday, so REMEMBER it!!" I'm looking forward to the non-alcoholic beverages, tanning, and waking up without a headache or nauseousness that comes with a hang over.
Feel good about your accomplishment and be proud of yourself. You dont need to drink to enjoy life. A clear mind helps you appreciate everything just a little more.
I'm in the same boat... I have a trip in 2 weeks to the dominican republic to celebrate my 25th birthday with friends. Beach + 10 twenty somethings= alcohol induced fun
Am I excited yes! but I'm just as terrified. And I've been going over in my head countless of times how am I going to avoid having a drink! Especially because the drinks are included in our package!!! what!!!!
So trust me... I feel your anxiety. What has helped me mentally prepare for this is reflecting on all of my bad "embarrassing" moments. And telling my self, "you dont get to do this everyday, so REMEMBER it!!" I'm looking forward to the non-alcoholic beverages, tanning, and waking up without a headache or nauseousness that comes with a hang over.
Feel good about your accomplishment and be proud of yourself. You dont need to drink to enjoy life. A clear mind helps you appreciate everything just a little more.
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Lost, Congratulations on 4 months!
And, you need to stop worrying. I exhausted myself with worry too, but I realized in early recovery that I had to let go. I was a super control freak and it was a horrible existence. There is very little in your life that you can control. Most of what happens is outside of your control. And, it's all happening just as it should. There is a reason for everything.
And, you need to stop worrying. I exhausted myself with worry too, but I realized in early recovery that I had to let go. I was a super control freak and it was a horrible existence. There is very little in your life that you can control. Most of what happens is outside of your control. And, it's all happening just as it should. There is a reason for everything.
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