day 10
 

Wow! Good job everyone! From 4 days to 30. So proud of you all. Keep it up.

Glad to hear everyone's Sunday is going well. Mine's not going so well. The roller coaster is going down big time today. Very tired and depressed. I think I'm starting to see that the two are related.

Not having urges or even thinking about drinking. Just want to crawl in bed for the rest of the day but it's only 2PM here.

Catch up with you all tomorrow.

The highlight of my day......my AA morning meeting....:)

An AA member returned victorious after a cancer operation
still sober......36 years. Mary is a true recovery miracle.

One of our newer members....21 and very shy.....picked up his
3 months chip He usually passes rather than speak in meetings
But he comes daily.


Mary and John .....excellent examples of AA in action
And they could not be more different


All my best to y'all as you continue to move forward
:ring

I have to just say - I'm loving this thread. I feel I am among friends who get it and get me. I enjoy reading and posting the good days and bad days as it is part of recovery.

Aside from my hubby....well I don't discuss my recovery with anyone else because either they have shown no interest or the minute I say something about feeling a bit down they roll look at me like I am going to hit the bottle. Of course it angers me but I forgive them in my head because they don't know any better. They don't understand addiction and not everyone has an open mind.

My recovery has been eye opening in that I really coming to terms with why I started drinking, my mentally abusive ex, what things I want to achieve in life and tons of reading on staying sober.

I am glad to have all of you here (yes I am tearing at writing this) because I know you understand. In my personal life many are quick to blast me for drinking and think that I am pathetic for not being able to just stop. They don't understand that there isn't just a switch to turn it off and that drinking while somewhat of an illness also stems from other underlying causes. I drank because I was unhappy with myself and at the peak of drinking.....I honestly didn't care about anything.

What I have done quite a bit of (with the help from counseling) is to do self-forgiveness. I am my own worst enemy in that I beat myself up for past decisions. Sadly the drinking only worsens that negativity.

I feel stronger now than I have in 10 years guys. Seriously.....emotional/mentally happier as though the haze is gone. I am someone who needs answers on things and it has been rattling me that I relapsed. Why? Not that I am dwelling but wanting to learn from it and I think I know why. It was my first go at sobriety and I didn't continue with support and I didn't fully understand that recovery is life long. I quit the booze but felt so tired that I didn't start making the real changes in my life that go along with sobriety.

Just had to get that off my chest guys....

Have a blessed day!! Kim

Hi. I'm a latecomer and I've been sober 9 days. Starting to feel a bit better, although I'm still having night sweats (charmed, I'm sure). Good to be here.

Hi box,

It's good to have you here too!

Morning everyone, hope you enjoy your day :-)

Good Morning all!

Welcome Box...I've just joined too....soo many pages to catch up with!

Lovely sunny morning here in Bonnie Scotland...Bank Holiday too, so will be spending my day planting flowers in tubs.

Have a great day x

Good morning to everyone. Had pretty hectic and frustrating weekend. I got in one on those irritable moods, tired and just grouchy. My computer, rather wireless connection stopped working at home. Kids not sleeping through the night. Several other things. Was able to make it without picking up. Got to a couple meetings and did some praying. Glad to read and get caught up with everyone here on SR.
Look forward to reading and doing some typing later on in the day.
Welcome to all the newcomers.

Thanks
Dean

Morning all! Made it through the weekend, got a craving last night that I shook off and went and found an orange to eat instead. Today is day 6 and my first time in MONTHS I'll be going out without having one of my teens drive for me so I can run my errands, I'm excited and nervous. I've been looking forward to it all weekend though, knowing I can drive and not be risking lives or tickets. And since I'm saving a rear end load of money on alcohol, gonna treat myself to a manicure and hair cut. lol I hope you all have a great day!

Things have been going amazing, I cannot remember the last time I felt this energized and enthusiastic about life.


Everyone stay strong and keep it real!

Still here and still sober.

A very special person to me just died, so I'm really feeling a ton of sandess today.

Goodbye my dear friend...

Still in the Club?
 

Well, I am on day 3 again. Had a strong 10 day run in April, but was not consistant and didn't come here enough. Made some bad decisions and crawled into my beer bottles yet again. Came here yesterday to read from the folks who understand best what I am going through. I told my wife that it is amazing how you feel so disappointed in yourself for drinking, but when your doing it, you feel powerless not too. It's that one critical first decision to open that bottle and take a drink that starts the roller coaster down the first hill for me. Here's to making that first hill climb much, much longer this time. Thank you for your support and I can't tell you how much this site means to me. Take care.

Totally know what you mean. It makes a big difference having people who understand. They help open the door to forgiving yourself in a way that most people just can't.

Rev

So sorry to hear bartender, my condolences.

Hello Haon,

I hope you'll be able to forgive yourself soon, I know it really sucks having been in that position myself. I think it's great that you're back and going for it again so rapidly, took me a lot longer to give it another shot after relapsing.

Day 11
 

Glad to hear that everyone "made it" and had a good weekend. The highlight of my morning is to come here and see who has posted while I was sleeping.

Kmber I can so relate to a lot of what you posted.

Bartender so sorry to hear that.

Slept a little better last night so I'm feeling a little better this morning. I thought alcohol was a depressant so not that I'm not drinking anymore :wtf2

Well have a great day everyone.

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Should read "now that I'm not drinking anymore WTF?"

:c031:

Welcome back Haon :)
I'm sorry for your loss Bartender

D

Haon ....Good to see you again....:yup:

Bartender.....:hug: Soorry you lost a freiend


For everyone......:scorebad

30 days Tues
 

Aprillers,
........It's gives me the best feeling to read this thread and read all the positive

things happening in your lives in early sobriety, and working through all the challenges.

Bartender, I should've posted a few days ago , when you had the wisdom and
courage to find different work . That was inspiring.
And today, .... I'm really sorry for your loss.

KYB, ...you had me worried the other night ! :react
Good job on thinking through and winning that "arguement " !!!!!

OMG,, Rev, you were so right when you said ; ...."that was like watching a suspensful movie " .....LO <smiling >



All the new Aprillers , Box, Stayinfree, Mygrayskies, Americangirl, Fool, Raindown, louiseO, wolfsurgeon ,lazyboy you guys sound good !!!!

Andi and Dean and Marlow , Kim, UBC, WW, M Rita, Gwentissel, Dreanick, Kyb and everyone else that keeps posting here , ....ya'll keep this thread Kickin'

4-4 10 is my DOS , so in several hours I'll have 30 days .

First time in 9 long years since I've been clean and sober. You guys and everyone here at SR has made the last 29 days the best ever, .....well, once I got through those initial days of w/d,anyway ... they've been the best ever.

The gradual change happening in my mind (my way of thinking) has been the most noticeable thing ( only to me ! ) of this past month . Completely overhauled my eating habits and excersize a little, .....still have a long way to go there , for damn sure. Still smoke Buglers too, but have plans to give them up at some point. .........sooner than the indefinite "later"

I stopped drinking coffee nearly 3 months ago , but not for health reasons. <huh ??? >
Had cut back to one cup 4 months ago just before work ( 6pm-2am ) because after noticing my hands shaking worse and worse about that time in the evening and thought ; "....damn, I better quit drinkin' that caffiene, ...it's fr#ckin' embarrassing , ..... my worksheets are hardly legible "

Talk about denial !!!

It's tragically comical in a way, ....remembering some of my old warped thinking.

Dee, Carol, Anna ....thanks for everything ya'll do here

Apprillers, ......... We can do this !

WAY TO GO TOPSPIN! 30 days in just a short while here!! That is so awesome, and encouraging for all of us Aprillers, especially us newbies. :You_Rock_