Class of May 2021 Support thread Part One
 

I am joining

Welcome macaroni!
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Glad you're here, Macaroni :)

Hello, After making it 40 days I drank. Couple of evenings it was 4 beers 10abv then escalated the night before last it was 8 beers and bourban and some other alcohol . I fell and messed my foot up and jammed my finger 😳 I stopped doing the things to help stay sober and absolutely didn't play the tape forward. So... on day two now and I look forward to spending time in the May thread.

welcome Becky :)

Thanks Caramel:)


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Glad you're here, Becky - hope your injuries are better soon; take gentle care.

I'm here too. I had 11 weeks AF and then a few brief slips in April. I've been in sort of a negative spiral for a few weeks leading up to my birthday today. I'll feel better when it's over. I felt much better not drinking in Feb and March. Aiming for same in May. Glad to be here to give and get daily support.

Welcome May Flowers!🌺💐🌸

Welcome Newbies, Oldbies, Inbetweenbies🤗

I’m starting my Day 9 today. Physical symptoms subsiding, mental clarity in abundance. Depression has lifted. I’m grateful.

Things I find helpful:

Eat well and often. Having a satiated belly helps to keep the cravings away. I used to have breakfast, and once the growling began for lunch, I used to reach for the wine (an empty stomach was my favorite time to drink). Now I reach for the food. Good wholesome food. Homemade food. Colorful food. Find your Life Source and energy here, not in the bottle.

Exercise daily. Doesn’t have to be ‘Olympian’. Just take a walk. Down the street. In the woods. Admire the beauty of nature. Work in the garden. Do 10 jumping jacks. Do yoga stretches. Just take some time each day to the physical body and replenish the mind. Meditation is wonderful too.

Schedule your day. Not necessarily writing it all down, but in the mind, keep active. Hour to hour, find activities. Little to big weekend projects. Make your bed every morning. Organize your cupboards. Clean out your closet. Do a puzzle. Have a ‘spa day’: a warm bubble bath, a face mask, file your nails. Spend time on your hobbies. Build a green house. Cook an elaborate meal or bake a beautiful sourdough bread. Talk to a friend.

Know it’s a day to day choice to chose not to drink. Moment to moment. Don’t put any ‘long term’ tags on it, heavy burdens, tremendous goals. Just stay in the NOW right now and know in the Now, we chose not to drink. “No, thank you,” we say. As simple as that.

Happy to be on this Journey with you of Freeing our Selves🤗

evening x
my april plan didnt go to plan, thought i had it, but then no. I have had only a few or more days AF and spoke to alcohol counollor on how i have been and what i havent done. He said try for more AF days and try not to blame myself. What i have done is found out restrictions at gym and will be buying new stuff and got my hair done this morn, so im aiming in going back to gym.So today is not my day 1 but will start tomo as im not for change do the 1st as it gives me excuses and not saying anything unless i have at least something and some AF FDs to actually write about.

Good to see some new peeps and thanks for seeing people join in this roller ball of giving up this poison x

Well, I that relapse in April, so, I’m still trying to get it 100%. Hello old and new friends.

Welcome silversky,erattic phebe and phoebe :)

Happy birthday, silver sky, and hello May classmates. Glad to be here with you 🥰

Happy birthday, silver sky, and hello May classmates. Glad to be here with you 🥰

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Welcome Free :)

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Welcome May class members.

I'm glad you're here Macaroni. Becky, I know you can turn this around.

Silversky, 11 weeks is great and you can get back to it. :) Phebe, your plans sound very helpful. Erratic and Phoebe, welcome to May.

Good night, no drinking here.

Hope your day/evening is enjoyable and hopeful, as we gain sober muscle and faith in ourselves.

Here i am again. I hate myself. Over and over. I do think I can do this finally. I am just so sick of myself. I feel literally sick. I'm 40 now and really feeling it. I can't do this anymore.

Welcome aboard letsdance :)
I think you can do this too - what kind of changes are you looking at to help make this happen?

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I feel so so stupid being back here at yet another day one. I had 100+ days bulimia-free but slipped in February. I joined that class and then April's and now May :headbange

I know I want it and I know how to do it, but my motivation seems so weak sometimes. I know I do better when I'm in a class and posting, so this month I'll make a special effort to post every day (here and in the Gratitude threads). I'm going to journal as well.

This time I'll crack it. We May flowers are ready to BLOOM!!! :banana:

Actually, I don't mean 'stupid' I mean frustrated. The only really stupid thing to do is to give up trying. And I'm not doing that, and nor is anyone else here :grouphug:

This! :) ❤️

One of the hardest parts of all of this, is the emotional damage.
While we cant get off the rollercoaster, we suffer so much and end up hating ourselves.
And that isn't a good way to feel ever, let alone when we are trying to get sober.

I like to think of it this way ~ getting sober is a loving and kind thing to do for yourself.
A wonderful thing to do for yourself in fact. :) ❤️

Hi letsdance, welcome!

Hi erratic, phoebe64, phebe, and everyone!

Plan for today, going to have my coffee while looking at the wildlife refuge out my future in-laws window, take a jog, lift some weights, put a treatment on my hair for a few hours, and get ready for formal pics with future in-laws (at age 88 and 92- they can’t travel to our wedding ceremony), then going to eat dinner with them.

I will not drink today. Felt way to good this morning as I awoke, with no nauseated feeling, no wondering what I did or said or texted. I awoke with hope, determination, and perseverance.

I wish the same for my mates here.

What are your plans to take care of yourself today?

Well Congratulations dear Free!!!!! :) :)
And your day sounds lovely. :) ❤️

How are you Macaroni1234? becky7?

Devizes, welcome back. Agree totally, it is unwise for us to stop trying....Never give up on that little voice called your soul, which is screaming to be heard, to be saved, which we drown out most of the time with self deprecating behavior.

Good morning all. Looks like a nice day here. Warm and sunny so far. Once again, I’m first up, and hanging with the dog, and having coffee. I’d like to run to the store before it’s busy, but the dog is very distraught by someone shooting a gun nearby. Poor thing. It’s very frustrating and sad, and apparently legal.

So, I’ll wait until hubs gets up, and go to the store. Son starts back to full time in person high school tomorrow! I need lunch food for him.

Devizes, good for you for not giving up and coming back with strong intention.

Free2be, that sounds like a really nice day. I hope your photos turn out well.

Phoebe, you are being a great dog-mom. I'm glad that your son will be getting back to school.

3.8 mike run (jog actually) completed, some stretching done, light arm weights. Conditioner soaking in hair, now to retrieve that necklace I left at my daughters.

Thanks Anna, me too!

I’m looking forward to getting some brain cells back so I can keep track of things better......onward!!!