Hope all is well stay positive y’all
Day 2 no plans on drinking today even if my husband is trying to bring me down it’s going in one ear and out the other he can take his negative comments somewhere else my focus is on my kids and sobriety today
Take care y’all love today for what it is be thankful for today tomorrow is never promised !!!!! good vibes y’all

Good morning.
So glad to see those of you that have had slips come right back here. I think that is so very important. I wish I had done that in the past. Please be kind to yourselves. You are worth it, keep working and sobriety will be yours. :grouphug:

I finalized booking some vacation plans for later in the year that I am really excited about. Hubby shared in the excitement with me this morning. We wont tell the kids until the last minute more than likely. And it is a good incentive on top of all of the other reasons to stay sober.

I picked my son up from the bus last night after his track meet and we ran to the store to get a few things. We had fun laughing together and talking about his wins. Being sober truly is the best.

Gotta take a phone call. Back later!! ❤

Good on you Nichole, stay strong and don't let anyone bring you down. Try and stay detached from any negativity and keep smiling. Your husband probably has his own issues to deal with. x

It was so good to read your happy and positive post Chick. How exciting making vacation plans, that really is something good to look forward to. Enjoy the rest of your day. x

Stay strong Nichole! PM anytime. :)

Thank you Daisybelle. I'm thankful that I've never touched alcohol on family vacations. Just have to get to the actual vacation without. But I'm feeling strong. You are sounding very well! I hope things level out with your husband soon!

good morning all...

i have been thinking a lot about all of you, and i don't pray often, but i did pray for all of you last night...and in the middle of the night when i wake up for no stinkin' reason at all! i am hoping as JT said about the smoking, that one of these Day 1s will be the last one for everyone!

But, it is nice to have a place to come and feel the comfort of others supporting us and encouraging us without judgment.

We need to have a Class of April 2018 mascot and team name! Should we put in ideas and vote? Perhaps we can come up with a class flower and song?

I think for sure the flower has to be a DAISY, because she is by far going to win Homecoming Queen! :)

(Sorry. Prom was this past weekend, and I have been looking at all the posts on FB!!!!)

Have a great day everyone.

23.

I have just started the next 24 hours... Day one finished... I'm safe now !
Feeling a bit better ... I have 10 baby ducklings to keep me busy!!!
Washed my bed sheets this morning ... So going to have a nice hot bath ( duck poo everywhere ) and get into my nice clean bed( love that feeling)
After all the talk of sprouts I had a bowl for lunch with bacon and cream! Yum... Hubby is going to have a smelly night lol

Happy birthday Nicole for your little one ! Stay strong !
Thank you everyone for getting me through this day .... Again x

Hello everyone.

I don't have 24 hours in yet, but yesterday is over and today is a new day of not drinking. I still feel bad though. Physically it's getting better. Mentally I'm still beating myself up.

Do you really think that people will forgive and forget in time? Friends and neighbours, I would say yes because they have their own lives and distractions. I'm not that important to them that they are going to dwell on my past, but they won't forget. What about those the closest to you? The ones we hurt the most. My husband says he still loves me and will support me in any way possible. Why can't I just believe him and move on? I have been so mean to him when I'm drunk, why would he want to be with me? My son says he forgives me and loves me. I've embarrassed him and his girlfriend so many times. I'm surprised he doesn't move out just to get away from me. My mom, who I always call when I'm drunk and say stupid things. I called her yesterday to tell her that I was quitting drinking. I don't think she believes me because she's heard it all before. Will these people be able to look at me the same and love me the same or is it just talk? Will I ever stop second guessing everything?

Sorry for all the questions that can't be answered. I just need to get it out, so that I can move on with my day.

I'm so happy to read all the posts here. Good and bad. Together we can beat this thing. There is no reason that we can't stop that one part of our lives. It's not really that important when you think about it. I can't wait for that to be true in my life.

Have a great day everyone!

magnum,

i feel a lot of the feelings you do. and i think about how much i loved my own mom and she was an alcoholic. i would come home from elementary, middle, and high school and have to put her to bed before my dad got home so there wouldn't be a fight. sometimes my friends would help me. it was embarrassing.

there is much more to this story, but my purpose is to tell you that i loved my mom unconditionally. she did many more awesome things than what i have just described. she instilled in me many great values, she made me laugh, she raised an independent and goal-oriented woman. i loved being with her. i loved her through the good and forgave her for the bad.

i think all of us in this forum are awesome people with a lot of awesome qualities. we have a lot of love to give, or we wouldn't be here trying to make ourselves better. we owe ourselves the same forgiveness our loved ones are willing to give us.

but we must stop lying to them and letting them down. we must stop using every lame excuse to drink instead of valuing them and their love for us.

if any of us feel we can't follow through with the promises, we simply need to stop making them.

for some of us only action and days under our belt will bring comfort to our loved ones. i know that has happened in my case.

i have not promised my kids or husband anything this time. i just show them the number of sober days on my app. i have spent three sober and awesome weekends with them when i am usually drinking through every weekend. they are gaining trust in me every single day.

but, they have never stopped loving me. and despite my flaws, they never will.
that is what love is.

3trees, thank you, good idea. My song would be 'Roar' by Katy Perry.

I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything
You held me down, but I got up (hey!)
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, your hear that sound
Like thunder, gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready 'cause I had enough
I see it all, I see it now
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter
Dancing through the fire
'Cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
'Cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar!
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're gonna hear me roar!
Now I'm floating like a butterfly
Stinging like a bee I earned my stripes
I went from zero, to my own hero
You held me down, but I got up (hey!)
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, your hear that sound
Like thunder, gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready 'cause I've had enough
I see it all, I see it now
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter
Dancing through the fire
'Cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
'Cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar!
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're gonna hear me roar!
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're gonna hear me roar!
Roar, roar, roar, roar, roar!
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter
Dancing through the fire
'Cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
'Cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar!
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're gonna hear me roar!
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh


Ha ha how many of you are singing this now?

Daisy ... Me I'm singing lol !

My mum is also an alcoholic and I also have put her to bed as a teenager ! :( I still love her to bits . Just wish I could help her ... But I can't even help myself!

My mum is an alcoholic too.

Nature or nurture?

I pray my kids will take after my husbands side ... Not my side :(

My Mom never smoke or drank a day in her life..... passed away in December just short of being 60 of pancreatic cancer. How crazy is that? 😕

Sorry for your loss ChickChick. It's never easy.

Thanks Magnum.

Sorry guys, didn't mean to make that all about me. Just still trying to wrap my head around it sometimes. Yesterday I was sad, today I'm back to disbelief. But I'm finally not drinking over it.... so that has to be good progress.

That's so hard chick chick :(
Try and stay strong xx

Y’all post got me thinking I came from a broken home dad was an alcoholic and abused me and bother my mom was never around she had addiction to casino and at one point in time both was in jail at the same time and wasn’t around when I needed them the most I have forgave my mom and we have an awesome relationship but my dad up and left and have to clue where he is at over even alive but going through that’s only made me stronger and I know I don’t want my kids to have to be in my shoes they are basically why I’m here and trying I could never for give myself if my son or daughter took after me they don’t deserve my life I’m living nobody deserves the struggle of addiction and I know my addiction is affecting there life to right now so I’m in it for the long haul.... now I have the roar song stuck in my head guess I have to go to YouTube and listen to it lol!!!!
thanks strawberry for her happy birthday she is a handful today

Chickchick stay strong I’m here for you pm anytime

Thank you Strawberry and Nichole. :hug:

Coming to the end of Day 7

Tired, getting a few aches and pains but digestion is a lot better

Going to start eating healthier, as much as the sugar helps the cravings, the weight isn't helping my joints.

Hope everyone has a good night