And I agree with the others about the progress. Nice! That's awesome!!!

I will add to be careful, too. That's exactly how I progressed, as well, and in my last drunk I nearly killed myself. Yep, it got me here and I'm sober now and that's GOOD. But that's because I lived through it. That wasn't the only possible ending to my drinking, quite honestly.

Hugs to you!

Kaneda - "where you at??"

I went to my first meditation meeting yesterday and loved it so much that I agreed to co-chair! :biglaugh:

So now I'm co-chairing a pothead and AA meeting. Service is essential to my recovery in terms of helping me get in the habit of showing up on a regular basis!

Have a good day everyone!!

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Hey Br00ksie

I am still here, thanks for asking :)

Just running around with a bunch of stuff....my mind has been taken over by this start up.

I am so sorry not to take time and read up on the posts. Its been selfish of me. I will try next week when some of my family is on hols

Love to all

Could you rawk more, Brooksie? You are amazing!

Going on a family vacation for a week. Pretty much a kid-centered area, and some nature and shopping. Hoping to do is soberly and healthily. Planning to. Lots of dining out makes it hard, but we also get a place with a kitchen. We can have some meals at home. Bringing games to play with the kids and lost of books on my kindle and from the library. headed to the library at 9 before we go!

bon voyage rochele :)

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Njoy the vacation Rochele. Get some good R & R with your family.:c011:

Hi Everyone!

I hope you're all doing well today!

It's been just kinda okay here. After my meeting today, an older woman kinda chastised me for my share. She doesn't think I should be considering helping out at the recovery service or teaching a Bible study or putting together the rough draft of a book until I have a lot more sober time (at least 5 years, she said). She has many decades (I think around 40 years, but I can't remember for sure) of sobriety. I tried to listen with an open mind and humble spirit to what she was saying, but it still hurt a little. I really don't agree with her, and I can't imagine what her motive could have been in stopping me to tell me that. Does she think what I say will harm someone else? Myself? Or is it something else? I'm trying to figure out the truth in her words and react prudently.

And then dh and I had a beautiful date night, ate out at a nice restaurant with outdoor seating and watched the people go by downtown, then took a really nice walk through a pretty park. And now he's having a few beers with the neighbor and I'm all alone. I probably just need to get to bed and start fresh in the morning.

It is what it is.

(((PBC)))

I don't know what to say about the lady who called you down on your projects. It sounds like you handled it really well. Maybe just pray for discernment, which I am sure you are already doing. Maybe jealousy fueled her words to you. Who knows?

As for the lonely feeling last night, I know it well. And I am sorry you had to experience it. It doesn't feel good. I hope that sooner or later (sooner, please) I will be better at not letting it hurt my feelings.

I hope your weekend looks better!

Have a great, fun-filled trip, Rochele! I hope you will be able to check in and let us know how it is going.

Thanks, Grace. :) Sometimes a virtual hug is exactly what I need!

Hey guys,

I'm so sorry I haven't been able to keep up with the thread. My life is unbelievably busy right now. I think of everyone all the time and hope we are all staying sober.

I am feeling grateful for my sobriety right now. If I was actively drinking everything I'm trying to do would just fall down around me.

Love to everyone.

Sorry BLK, GG and Fish for your hardships this last week. I've been busy with work and my personal life. I've noticed that my blood pressure went up a bit this Winter and when I stopped taking one of my antidepressants it seende to go down again, but my mental state got more misanthropic and pessimistic. So I am taking it Every second day now and will get an appointment with my shrink in August or september to work out a solution.

I opened an account at a dating site but began to feel stressed when thinking about it. :(

Yesterday I got a desperate phone call from work, my friend who was supposed to work last night had forgotten and was away for the weekend. Being sober I accepted to show within the Hour and got extra pay for last nights work. If I'd still be drinking like I used to I'd be incapabable of even answering the phone.

Still sober and happy to be but still lots of problems haha, business as usual ;)

Good to hear from you, Work. That is awesome that you were able to take your friend's shift last night. Situations like that make sobriety really valuable to me.

"Misanthropic and pessimistic." Those are perfect words to describe how I have felt since going off my anxiety meds. I was keeping my head above water till my dog got cancer, my daughter got diabetes, and my dad had another fall. Now I am MISANTHROPIC AND PESSIMISTIC. I plan to call my doctor tomorrow. Enough is enough.

I hope you are able to strike a better balance soon too, Work. The potential of meeting some new people to date shouldn't be stressful.

I hope everyone is having a lovely weekend!

A few weeks ago my sponsor told me that I wasn't ready to take on this scriptwriting project. She is a film maker (in film school) and said that there are other things I could be doing to hone my craft.

I disagreed, mostly because I needed the money and it didn't seem like an exorbitant amount of work (the timeline was originally 2 weeks). But the project has growing into something that is more than I am ready to handle at this point in my sobriety.

I was originally hired to doctor a script that they had, but the deeper I dove into the story, the more holes I found, and I ultimately realized that the concept needs to be completely re-thought.

I emailed the producers on Friday and basically told them that the script needs a LOT of work and that I would need 4-6 weeks to do the work required. They wrote me back telling me how they could accommodate me. One of the options was writing a completely new story idea (which wouldn't be a bad idea).

But horror isn't a genre that I'm interested in, let alone something that I want to spend the next 2 months working on at this point in my sobriety. It was supposed to be a one-and-done type of thing, but it has gotten complicated.

I am the one making it so because I understand "story" and what a good one requires and what this one lacks, but that doesn't mean that I want to or am even ready to write a compelling horror story from scratch.

Because I've been focused on this script, I have neglected essential things in my life like sleep and exercise. Because of how tired I was from the week, all I did was stay in my bed this weekend. I got overwhelmed by the project and shut down and barely responded to anyone. I missed my sponsor's birthday dinner, I missed 4 days of meetings.

Now I understand what my sponsor meant now when she said that I wasn't ready to take on the project. She was right! I think I am going to have to tell them that I can't do it.

PBC - People with a lot of time have insight into situations that we may not yet be spiritually fit to handle. Their insight comes from experience. I'm not saying that the old lady is right, but she has more insight into this disease and -whereas she may very well have been projecting her own past experiences onto you- she may be seeing something that you, at this stage in your sobriety with the amount of time you have, cannot see.

Take her words with a grain of salt. Maybe do it until you hear the old lady's voice in your head. :hug:

Thanks, Brooksie. That sounds prudent and wise. :)

Work, that's so awesome that you were able to be there for your friend. Yet another example of how sobriety has freed us.