Class of June 2011 Part 8
 

continues from here :)

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Jenny- Your presence here is wonderful :) but I can understand the need to move on. Like Dee said- SR will always be here for you if that is your decision.
You make a great difference for people with your posts.

Thank you Tuesday, and Dee. :)

Thanks Classical... I'll check it. And please don't hesitate, anyone at all, to send me messages. I'm not gone for good. I just don't want to be one of those who leaves for a while with no explanations. I'm not even gone yet! I can't drag myself away from some of the threads... LOL. But... I must start devoting more of my time to actual changes in my own life situation, and my poor boyfriend. He really puts more effort into our relationship that I do. I want to change that.

Squishy - I didn't run 26 miles today - 26 kms. That's just over 16 miles. Still a lot though! The marathon that I will run in October will be 26 miles though...working my way up there.

Pumpkin Soup - Poutine is a dish popularized in French Canada. French Fries with cheese curds(mozzarella) and then gravy on top to melt the cheese. Tres Bon!

SoberJ - We will be the poorer for you absence. Good luck with everything!

Jennie, you have been a great help and inspiration to us all. Thanks for all of your great advice and constant positive outlook!! And thanks for opening up as to why - you didn't need to do that but it helps us out too. :) We'll look forward to hearing how things are. And good luck with your new spiritual venture (Don't remember what it is called? Something "z-z" with herbed pillows and alot of thinking)

OHHHHHH poutin. Yum Yum Yum.

Good job on the 16 miles, TP. That's a great accomplishment.

THanks Chimp, for telling me my positive message made you smile. It's encouraging and lord knows I owe you guys some positivity!!

Have a good night everyone.

Hope everyone is OK.

I started the working week feeling very light and at peace. Even though I have as many "problems" as I did when I was drinking (minus the biggie of drinking itself!). My ability to cope with the trials and tribulations of the daily grind seems to have improved. I also notice that I do not get drawn into a down vibe when it gets going with work colleagues. I must be getting close to 100 days and there is a real feeling that something new is happening for me.

We finished painting the fence without any real sense of achievement. There is still much to do before I can plant some fruit trees. I went to a friends place for a pizza evening (he built his own oven) I just refused the wine and beer, I was asked four times. No thanks, I'm right with nothing else works. I didn't really feel uncomfortable because drinking is not an option.

Instant, great to know your week has started well. Bratnik, when does the football season start? Isn't it September? Are the Cowboys playing pre-season games now? I could stop being lazy and just log on to their website! Last year, it was an opportunity to salivate (bit odd), I just wanted to get there and watch a game. What is the atmosphere like at a football game? Here in the UK, our football, your soccer, is very tribal and intense, a lot of singing, chanting and many, many naughty words! I am going to see my team, West Ham United, on Wednesday night. They were on tv yesterday and drew (tied) 2-2! Bloody hell I was wound up after that! Football/Soccer brings out the worst in me.

But at least that is not alochol. I went to the equivalent game I'll be at on Wednesday last year (it is the first round of a cup competition). I had 6 beers in the back of the car on the way up, five beers when there and I just needed the toilet the entire time. Now, i'll be going up (driving up) and there will be no beer and I will enjoy it so much more.

Isn't it amazing how with a few weeks sobriety that need for alcohol evaporates. Quite incredible!

Jennie, I really enjoyed your posts. Do come back as soon as you are tested in sobriety. It is important to remember that ver, very few people escape alcohol without the support of others.

TP, I ran the 10k in 52 minutes a few years back. It was such a thrill to have completed it! And the crowds, it was awesome! I thought I would be embarrased running around a town but it was magic!

Well, I have a cup of tea to make and more work to complete! A big week ahead and I will be facing it sober! Magic!

Chimp!

Morning all.

Another day getting up wishing I could sleep more. I will probably wake up more when ive showered but the feeling of wanting to sleep all the time in the mornings is dragging me down a bit. I hope im not depressed - I do feel quite down this morning but im up and down so much it changes by the hour.

My ex picked up his TV yesterday, collected and brought my new one with him and helped me install it. I asked him if he wanted to stay for dinner - purely cos I new I was gonna feel lonely (I missed my meeting as he turned up shortly before the time I needed to leave). My brother was supposed to be calling in as well but he cancelled too. The ex thought about it but then asked if I minded if he didnt stay for dinner as he had alot to do. So he collected alot of his stuff and left and I now feel a bit of an idiot for asking. I could have called an AA friend and suggested we go out and do something but no I sat around on my own - not really being miserable but no interest in doing anything useful or socialising. I really must force myself to get out more I seem to be stuck in a rut. I keep thinking should I take a holiday (not that I can afford it) when I have next week off but that is one test I dont think my sobriety could stand up against just yet.

The new TV is a monster, 42", ive blown a months wages on it. I was mildly excited about it when I first saw it but its just a TV..... However, I cant wait to see the girls faces when they come home tomorrow - I hope they dont get dropped back while Im at work.

So all in all in feeling quite meh about everything.

I so wish I could find an exercise or healthy hobby that I enjoy as much as I did drinking - If I could wake up not still feeling tired early enough every day I could go swimming or at least go on the Wii fit (which I was doing everyday but yesterday and today ive got up too late). I know this mood will pass but apart from the drinking I can see, apart from a few short winded attempts, I am stuck in the same old cycle of nothingness.

Sorry for the downbeat me me me post - or meh meh meh post. Blurgh.

Good Morning Every one,

Well TP - to repeat what I've said in the past. My knees ache at just reading about your runs. I think that is wonderful, though! It's like when we go backpacking for a week away from the outside world, the electricity at the flip of a switch, fresh water by just turning a faucet handle, not dealing with wet gear after a rain...and when it's all said and done, it just feels so fabulous to know we did it. I'm like a junkie when it comes to it - can't get enough. Wish we were going this year, but hubby is so shorthanded at work, it just won't happen. Congrats on your accomplishment - has to feel great.

Pumpkin Soup - I feel kind of blah, too. It's just a mood and will pass. I know it's the after mini-vacation blahs. But, today I will change that and enjoy some time outside in the flowerbeds pulling some of the million weeds. But, it's getting to be that time of year here, where things are starting to show signs of the coming fall. And honestly....that is my favorite time of year, so it never bothers me. But, try to find something to do today that makes you feel good. Even if it's just sitting in a lawn chair and breathing in the fresh air. I promise to do the same.

Bratnik - great to see you posting more here. I think what you are finding is that we all have our hurdles, our feelings of being defeated and depressed as you stated. But, once we get past that hope does kick in. Without hope we don't have much. That is what keeps me going. So, glad you are seeing that you have much to offer others and that your words are needed by us here.

Chimp - I think we all agree that we are happy to see your enthusiasm here again.

SJ - I think at some point people will get a little busier and may not post as much. That is okay, the key is to at least check in on each other from time to time to see how every one is doing. The one time you post, may be the time that some one here needs to "hear" from you. Amazing how much more ambitious we can become when sober.

Ha, ha, ha...I had to google Poutine, so don't feel bad Pumpkin Soup. I think that is what makes this thread and this forum so enjoyable as well. Not only our stories of good times and bad, but the things we can learn from each other. Enlightening.

LTJimmie & 4thkidz - was good to hear from you.

Any one heard from Violet, Cherry, Bee, MissDucky, Jhay, or Paddy?

Classical - glad to see you didn't cave to the vodka the other night. It's nice to see that it can be served, but can be beat. I've been in numreous places, situations, and gatherings that alcohol would normally have found it's way down my throat. But, I know I just can't. Amazing how the craving is still there, but I keep saying how much it's not worth it. Regrets are no fun.

Squishy, LayLady, Wiggle In, and every one else - continued success on this never-ending journey of sobriety.

Hugs and Love.

Tuesday - I couldn't agree more.

The Mighty Mackinac Bridge. Open since 1957. Third longest in suspension in the world, connecting the lower and upper peninsuals of Michigan. It is over 5 miles long. We love crossing it as many times a year as we can, since the Upper Peninsula much to offer for the outdoor enthusiast worth seeing. Especially love to cross it on the motorcycle (preferably not in the rain and wind and on the grate..makes for a wild trip). This was from last week when I spent time with Mom.

Lucy was hunting yesterday....see the bunnies. Don't worry...she didn't get one. But, she sure was a patient little butt...crept her way up ever so slowly.

Hi Buelah and all the rest of june club

Yeah i am here, and failed over the weekend, next door had a BBQ and next thing i know i am standing nextdoor with a cold 1. Guilt today this is my 3rd time i have picked up.:c004:

Paddy - get back on the horse today, okay? You're back here, that's what counts. No sense beating yourself up over something that happened in the past, can't change it.

Eeeeeh gads, am I full of typos this morning. :c029:

Holy cow! A new thread already. Love the pics buelah.

My son starts Kindergarten in 2 days. Where does the time go? MY BABY! He is not looking forward to it, says it will be boring. ah well. I insist he will have the time of his life and he just looks at me and sighs. I'm excited anyway!

I'm regretting telling B that I would work on the relationship last week. I was just grasping for something that wasn't there. Now he is trying super hard and it makes me sick. I just want him to leave me alone. I'm bad at communicating things... hoping that it just works itself out. Stuck with the dude for life since we have kids together.

Jennie. I hear ya! Sometimes I think about all the stuff I could accomplish if I wasnt on the darn computer all day. Make sure to pop in now and again and update!

PS sorry for your down mood. I'm stuck in a rut too. Somebody get the tow-ropes!

Paddy. just keep swimming! Today is a new day!

Well it is a new week. And a new start. Kicking myself for being weak. Sundays are bad for me (compared to other days of the week), I don't know why but they always have been. Saturday when my sis was here.... well yeah. We drank some late that night. Again, I don't know why. But we spoke about our drinking problem, she agreed that we need to work together and sober up. She sounded very sincere. Call each other when we get the urge. I am so happy I talked to her about this.... and that I have some in-real-life support when I need it.

I loved my sober Friday, and how I felt on Saturday. Very proud of that. I'm going to keep that in mind.....