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"Failure is not in falling asleep in your chow mein, Failure is in not getting back up" Chinese take-away Proverb |
I have wanted to get hammered all week Wibble. The other day, I had the Sobriety Calculator up on my computer at work - the one that works out your sober time in days, hours, minutes and .... heartbeats! I was checking it every 2 minutes, or 150 heartbeats. It's like a hunger right in the pit of my stomach. I don't like it. Make it go away, someone. Where is nands and her wisdom when you need it? |
I've been ok all week, little spits and spots of cravings but Today has been horrific God only knows what i'm gonna be like by this evening! I can't look at the sober time thing...it just depresses me! |
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father jack is the man!!!! |
You know it. Go on Wibbs, take his brandy off him. |
FoOk that! He be hard! I appear to have gone a bit pirate! |
hey guys!!!!! well i read and was so uplifted today...then it ends up everyone is craving like crazy..... :( NEVER GIVE UP NEVER SURRENDER..... Ok...a little tip from me to you....I had a couple of rough patches this year...wanted to drink sooooooo bad.....or was scared I would...not real sure. YES...aa and a spirtiual path are my long term solution to my problem, but....sometimes i get in those spaces where those tools seem to not work...so WHITE KNUCKLE IT!!!!! It is at times like those that I have to remember a slip isn't just about starting over it is russian rulet!!! Will that one drink be the one where I end up killing myself however...suicide, car wreck, dangerous situations???? We have to stay alive in order to get and stay sober.... Sorry this is long...one time I just sat in my car in a hotel parking lot after stalking my sponsor and going through my phone list thinking of why I couldn't call each person on the list...sucked. Next time I knew that again I wasn't going to call my sponsor or anyone else (thing about a man in the program)...wanted to was afraid i would drink so baaaad...I came to SR, went in the chat room, grabed someone I knew a little and blurted it all out to her. If any of you ever want to drink and I am on the list above please pm me to ask me to chat and I will go chat...you can click on an individual's name and do a private one and spill your guts.... I knew those nights that if I drank it might be like the last time that ended up being 8 years and i thought i'de never make it back...if i drink i am comitting not to one night but likely for years to come or even to death. OK...have i Killed the thread now? :) |
Certainly not killed the thread. Nands, that gets my vote for post of the month. Thanks. |
wibs logged out :( |
Thank god you are keeping this thread going! I agree with LB & Allport, I need somewhere to belong sober or not. We all kinda know each other aswell. As you all know I'm struggling but I am going to do this! I know thats what alcoholics say but I'm trying so damn hard every day! WIBBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know its hard and I know I'm a fine one to talk but please stick with it. This will pass! focus on how u will feel in the morning and how proud you will be of yourself. Post post and post again ok? |
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wibs logged out :( Calm down nands, Wibbs wouldn't just log out in a huff. Probably just burnt his tongue again. |
He will come back! |
LB is gone too...maybe we can start a rumor!!!! Pix...good to see you again! Yep you belong here!!!! and as the months roll by you will all still be the class of November regardless!!!!! And such an inspiration! I know you are giving this all you have pixy and it inspires me. My brother is struggling right now and you give me hope....thanks so much!!! |
I do?? It's dinner time, they have prob gone to have something to eat. I have to pop down the stables and feed the ponys, back in a bit x |
Thanx nands. And for your offer to chat. I agree, white knuckling when all else fails!! |
Hey class! Popped in to read for a sec...whoah Nelly. I've certainly been down this road before too, so many times. So, how have I put together two and a half years? A day at a time. Not giving up or giving in.. And relying on support! You all have it here... :ghug2: Hang with each each other class... |
Hey everybody, just woke up (11:30 - sheesh!). Wibbs, I hope you're getting through the day okay, come back and post and let us know how it's going!! I know you can do it. Pixy - of course you belong here!! How are you doing? Nands - thanks for your post, that was amazing. Hugs to all... :ghug2 |
Wibbs not back yet?? CG :ghug3 |
Pixy!! :Val004: Good to see you! Wibbs? |
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