I played that game for many years....then the bullet went off. Picking up a bottle on my way home from the hospital...I finally decided the next morning to go to treatment..luckly it took :)

The illusion of safety and luck...by the time it wore off I was knee deep in the physical aspect of the disease where not drinking made me sicker than the drinking....My 8 year relapse was the most hopless time of my life.

Glad you posted...try to stay hydraded! And however sick you are, it can and will get worse.

Cheers Nands.
For over 3 years now I've been fighting this thing in earnest and despite my cavalier attitude to relapses, I'm making progress by always keeping it at the forefront of my thinking.
It's 5.30. It's snowing and it's settling...magic!

Crikey I keep some odd hours.

you do - but good to see you back mate :)

As for relapses - I never saw the reasoning behind too much remorse - you can't change anything that happened yesterday - better to take whatever it is you've learned and look forward straight away - see what you can do about not letting it happen again :)

D

Send some snow down this way. We have had a light dusting over night. The usual terrible disappointment that is our East Anglian lot!!

Don't get too excited LB its all melted up here!

Yeah most of it's gone here too. However I made sure to walk whilst it fell to Cas's footbridge (featured on Kevin Mcloud's four parter on Castleford that accompanied C4's Grand Designs show)
...It's only a minutes walk away and at 6.00 a.m, in the snow, with Allinson's mill behind and the bridge curving it's lights across the Aire, it was mine alone to enjoy.
Grand start to the day.

We just got rain all night and it's only just letting up now in the south. I wouldn't normally be aware of the weather on a sunday untill around mid day when I would dragg myself from my bed to the sofa.

Not today though!! Been up had breakfast, been to the stables and back and it's only 11.25am! :Dance7:

Off to see my sis in a bit as it's her birthday. That normally involves drinking so I will go early and not be tempted.

JOL good to see you straight back!!

I can't remember the last time I was awake at 9am on a Sunday with a clear head. Saturday night was ok, Friday was much worse.

How is today wibble?

Pretty good pixx pretty good!!!! Feel amazed I haven't drunk all weekend and have got loads done...even though I've had quite a relaxing time! Can't believe its day 7. I know its only early days but its still a good start!

I'll crave tonight I imagine but rather than dwell on them I just have to keep focused.

Plus I have my date with Timzup to look forward to on Tuesday! :)

That's enough to keep anyone sober, wibble :lmao

The world is beautiful, isn't it JOL? When we are present to enjoy it.

The force be with you Pix. Social occasions - another trigger, right up there with Friday night!

Well, my fellow sober heads - I have just been to the garden centre, got some slabs and put my back out laying a path in sub-zero temperatures. It's more of a stepping stones through a river of mud construction, but at last we can get to the car without falling on our a$$es!

Well done Wibble...top marks.
It was an experience with the snow falling so early today. Gonna try and remember it.

get in there! 7 days. A week sounds better. Or even a quarter of a month?
1/52th of a year? This could go on...

A big Ayee-up! to your post Tim...7 days rocks! More power to Wibble!

Cheers people! I am really pleased with myself i have to say. Just can't let my guard down for a second or i'll be on the p*ss

Weekends really are the hardest time

From my own experiences the first couple of weeks are the worst, once you get through them its a case of catching yourself when your tempted and just getting the days done.

First few weekends were a big achievement to me, its something like 28 weekends I've now done sober, it slowly just becomes a new way of life, just as the way I used to drink my way through them was.

Always have a thought to myself at 12.30 on a sunday though. For non brits, its 12.30 before you can buy alcohol over here on a sunday. Sometimes had a wee bit left over from the saturday but would nearly always still be hanging about watching the clock and then just after 12.00 making an excuse to go to the shop, a News of the World, a Sunday Post, oh and a half bottle of Grants Vodka please, casual as you like, just like its an afterthought, don't want the lass on the till to think we've a problem do we, !!!!!!!

Its the days that the shakes are so bad that you can hardly open the bottle that were the worse. The shakes always seemed to be worse just before you got the drink in you as well. The amount of sundays I left the house thinking I was going to die, walked the half mile to the shop, mixed the vodka with some coke or poured it into an empty water bottle and then drank it from shakey hands on the way back, time I arrived home I'd feel like the king of the world again. For a couple of hours anyway until I had to repeat the process.

Often wonder how many of my neighbours have seen me hiding in bus shelters or parked in laybys pouring Vodka from one bottle to another and what not ? Luckily I always seem to have gotton away with it, so glad its behind me for just now though, don't want to go back there.

For those of you in your first few days and weeks though, please just keep going, I'm not pretending its always easy but its not as hard as you think either, the weeks really start to fly by and then they turn into months before you know it.

I remember when I first joined here and RK2007 spoke to me and he was 6 months sober and I thought there was no way I could do that, well he's now over a year and I'm longer than he was sober then, it can be done, even by the most unlikely candidates like myself.

Makes Monday look attractive, don't it?

I've survived Tesco. Took my ipod, but forgot my earphones, so it was traumatic!!

Terrific post, Fizzy.
Personally there's a rotation scheme I've engineered here, that involves gradually going around those small shops and newsagents in the immiediate vicinity that sell booze, when the hell they open, no Sunday considerations, no questions or smirks exchanged... I'm an alky of long standing...sigh!

I tried to make it to 12:00 on Sats and Suns, just coz it made me feel better - that way, I didn't have a drinking problem.

Also had to work in the pharmacy opening times too! Midnight pharmacy half an hour away, supermarket pharmacies open till 8pm except on Sundays when they close at 4pm etc, etc.

I also used to add alcohol and pills like an afterthought. Oh.. as I'm here.. very well then!!

Eeek! drunk again. I got a good run previously folks...I'm not cutting it right now though...trust.